_colour my life_ my monologue

Monday, October 31, 2005

He took a seat. Took a sip. Sighed, and typed.

He knew you never really cared about him. Only cared for the people around him. After all he did for you, you repay him by not giving a damn. Maybe it was all about yourself, wasn’t it? Single lines. He never really mattered to you. No matter how much you mattered to him. Really. He was heartbroken not because he loved you. Not because he liked you. But because he thought you were his friend.

But what does it matter now? What does it matter now? After all this, what does it matter now?

What are friends for?

Tell him. Just tell him.

What are friends for?

He read, and his eyes gleamed. For he felt pain. Listening to the tune. Some sad old number he couldn’t recall, just knew it meant something to him. Long ago. Before all this. When his life had a meaning. Before he had known the truth.

Truth can be brutal.

Friends are the people who make the truth less painful.

But why was the truth hurting so much now? He thought he knew. He thought he knew.

What are friends for?

a moment in time.
22:41

I forgot to add this in when I said VS wasn't going co-ed. Now ACS(I) is.

Go read Saturday's article on ST, page 3. The picture shows it all.

And no ACSian (what a sucky name. Like Anglo-Chinese School Independentian would be any better) is opposing it.

"Unlike Victoria Scool, there were no fervent protests from former students"

And WHY? Cos they're horny bastards, are they not? (Besides my cousins, of course. They are true gentlemen, and shouldn't be in ACS(I) at all. Anyway they're taking away the Gentlemen in the motto. LOL. Changed to Global Citizen. Which is like ew.) They are expecting 80 girls to join. And when they join, they will learn.

Cos even guys are not spared. Wonder if any of you haven't heard the story of the "Behind The Doors" scene. Heh. Reactions are slow I suppose.

A comment from an ACS(I)an, 18 year old:

"The girls will give our campus an added touch of class. I expect we'll be applying our gentlemanly skills very often."

Don’t ACSians know how wrong “applying our gentlemanly skills” sound? Ew.

BTW, good coverage in John's post (http://fauxnatism.blogspot.com/). Heh.

a moment in time.
22:00

The chief executioner of Singapore, from the Singapore Democratic Alliance's webpage.

http://www.singaporedemocrat.org/articleexecutioner.html

a moment in time.
17:56

This is what people do when they're bored. I found a rather old photo from our Chinatown trip at the start of this year. And it was all black (or so it seems). I restored it. Not bad, just by using contrast and brightness.

And... I managed to hover all the way to the MEC airbase and land on the petrol tank. That takes skill. =)

AND I shot down a Super Cobra with a tank and shot down a Blackhawk with an RPG. That's skill for you. =)

a moment in time.
16:28

In your world I have no meaning
though I'm trying hard to understand
and it's my heart that's breaking
down this long distance line tonight

I ain't missing you at all (missing you)
since you've been gone away (missing you),
I ain't missing you (missing you)
No matter what my friends say (missing you)

Lolol! My fave BF2 server (wink tokyo japan) was dominated by Singaporeans today! Some guy who kept hogging aircraft callsigned -[Singapore]-[ZY]- then a guy who was on the MEC team with me callsigned Fattah_11 who lives in the West. Cos he was like pussy Singapore to the FY guy who kept hogging aircraft and bombing us. And I was like hey I'M Singaporean. Then he was like me too lol. WTF. Singaporeans totally pwn BF2.

a moment in time.
11:24

Sunday, October 30, 2005

I just watched Notting Hill. It's soooo sweet.

"Just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her"

And I watched Ayyaa on V. Central. Not bad for a Bollywood flick. Quite nice. Too long, so din't watch till the end. And I'm having steak for dinner later =)

Maybe you could love me too

a moment in time.
19:04

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a moment in time.
17:06

Saturday, October 29, 2005

I got 40 on some romantic test on friendster, courtesy of Yvonne, my bored senior. Lol. Which is super super romantic. oO .And my choice of May as my fave month means that I am happy! So I’m gay! =)

Hahaha. I just realised I don’t take after my parents. My dad’s a soccer pro, and even heads the Singapore Christian association thing. I suck at soccer. I guess I was ok at it last time. But now, I just like suck at it. Then they were pros at squash, table tennis, tennis. I guess I’m ok at them, besides table tennis, which I took up on 1st jan this year at JS’ house. Which I am quite pro at =)

The sports they don’t play, I’m quite good at. Haha I like badminton vball floorball! Woot floorball! And we must go out and play sports during the hols. If not by next year I’ll be overweight (I think).

I have been reading short history for a few days now. One of the chapters I read today is called “The Mighty Atom”. It’s great. It gives a short intro to quantum mechanics and physics. I recall my interest in the subject was when I read Timeline by Crichton, where qphys is used to explain the possibility of teleportation and time travel. That sparked off my interest. And now I know that the speed of light isn’t the fastest, it’s the speed of information. Take this thought experiment for an example.

"We have two balls (or particles), and one of them is black (or spins clockwise) and the other is white (spinning anticlockwise). We don’t see them, all we know is that they are of infinite distance apart, which is constantly increasing as they are moving at extreme speeds away from each other, even faster than light. All we need is to look at one ball to deduce the colour (spin) of the other. This is why information is faster than light. " - Mark Heng

As information is faster than light, we can now apply this theory to physics. Now we know that information can be sent in an instant. And so on.

Short history gives a good intro. People taking qphys next year should read it. As for me, my interest in the subject is eroding. Yupp. I guess I’ve gone on to different subjects. I prefer thinking about stuff now, so I love philo, and also for politics. I still maintain interest in psychology, even though I haven’t read about it in months.

a moment in time.
20:13

I woke up as my parents were leaving the house with the maid. Now I’m all alone. The only noise is Radiohead, telling me that true love waits. And the sound of the rag and bones man shouting. “Karang guni. Po zua sah kor” they all have the same catchphrase. Lol. I open the Newpaper and read: Plans to go co-ed OFF. I congratulate VS for a job well done, and to all the old boys who played their part, I think you guys have done your school well. Good luck for the open house today.

It just struck me as I read an sms that it’s the start of the hols.
I can't like you
I feel a mix of many emotions: disappointment, jealousy, hesitation, apprehension, wishfulness.
I saw what you did with him yesterday
I wish it would go on.
And I felt streaks of pain
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
Now you’re gone, and I dunno what you’d do with him
I don’t want it to end.
I just hope you’ll be there for me, hope we’re still good frens after the hols =)
I don’t want it to end.

a moment in time.
12:02

Friday, October 28, 2005

Semester 1:
LH212 Yours Faithfully : Religious Plurality in a Postmodern World
Semester 2:
LH222 In Context

Double kill!
Darkside wins.

What a day. Last day of school. The whole day, I couldn’t stop thinking that the school year’s ending too fast. Really. Next year will be a breeze. And I won’t be able to describe the horrid emotions I possess at every parting. I think I might cry and cry. =( ah well. But what a way to end it. =) haha 10 of us had our own pe. Lol.

Went to pp for lunch. Had a steak which was like ew. Asked for rare. Got well-done. Lol. I can’t eat well-done. Like xx said, I most prob spent the energy from the steak on cutting it. Bah. Then went to ikea. Hahaha such a happy place. =) and had dinner at anchorpoint. and played donkey. Haha the person who gets the joker loses.

Then there was this game, where only me and nic were left. And she had the joker. And I took it. Then out of my 2 cards, she took it. And this continued for damn long. Like 15 rounds. And I was laughing till there were tears in my eyes and couldn’t really breath. Like how I was after hearing the singporean version of the three little pigs. Ahhaha

Took 14 home. Which was a mistake. Cos it took 1.25 to reach bedok. Reached home at 11. haha.

a moment in time.
23:32

Thursday, October 27, 2005

“This is a feeling I just can’t fight”

My cousin mass-emailed a survey. And she said “hi girlfriends! (:” and I’m like oO. Lol. Anyway it’s for females about slimming so I won’t do it. And I just found out her Christian name is Valerie. Ahah quite nice.

Lol we got a free period during physics! But we got lots of math homework. Haha but I’ve done pascal’s triangle in p5 liao. So should be easier. This is the 0-level thing we were doing. Lol! Chinese was ghey. Film the court scene. Heh. Then prep cancelled.

And I had hell trying to sort out the IMH thing. Cos sam and Justin took our stuff. Lol. But at least it made me run a lot. Yay. Then stayed, played goldfish the whole day. Then talked and watched naz and jared do “stunts”. Heh.

Borrowed “A short history of nearly everything” and the “invisible century” from TRL. Woot. But I’m still buying short history. Yupp.

I just want you to know how special you are to me =)

a moment in time.
20:23

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Singapore similarly meets most benchmarks of a developed country, but its authorities have consistently resisted being classified as such, citing its lack of development outside the economic and physical infrastructural fields. Like South Korea, this has also led to speculation that the young country is reluctant in playing a bigger role in international humanitarian efforts expected of developed countries.

- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Developed_country

a moment in time.
23:38

Eunice just told me my electives. She was like Mark I have the same as you! I didn’t check today. Haha. I got Religion and In Context. Dark side sia. Haha I didn’t get q physics! Boo. All because of Chun Han lah. I blame him. Spoil the market and in the end never even bid religion. Wah lao. I spent so much on religion. Left so lil for q physics.

He destroyed my destiny.

Watch out.

But never mind. Cos I already read all the stuff. =) And now I’m taking something new and fresh. Yupp so maybe blessing in disguise. At least I got within my 3 choices. Wootness. I went for the high demand choices. So in the end have to sacrifice lor. At least I didn’t get game theory. I was so worried I would. Cos I read game theory liao and it’s boring. Lol. Bah. I want q phys! *whine* haha but I think in context should be fun! And v13 dominantes religion!

"we moderns have to face the question: how can we ever get outside of our private inner experiences so as to come to know the things and people in the public external world?"

a moment in time.
19:42

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

The Matrix cannot be real in the form as described in the movie, because if it were real, Agents would start popping up everywhere and taking people out. Cos this would mean that all of us know the truth.

What about the "meta-Matrix"? For example, the concept of Matrix and being inside and outside of it were just part of another Matrix. Then what is the truth?

Why do we choose to take the red pill? Why should we choose the red pill and face the brutal truth with nothing more than the uncertain promise of knowing the truth, rather than the blue pill, living in this artificial world with ignorance and bliss? Why know the truth? Cos sometimes the truth hurts, and living in lies is better.

a moment in time.
20:19

I wish you were real.

Ah well. What a day. Heavy rain. I think heaviest this year. The lightning was damn bright, the thunder quite loud, and visibility less than a km. Then had to continue chem. prac. Wah I hate pracs lah. Lang arts was quite good. Metaphysics. The existence of truth. What is real. How do you know?

I’ve been reading this for the past few months
http://whatisthematrix.warnerbros.com/rl_cmp/phi.html
Philosophy and the Matrix

Quite good articles.

The comics rock. http://whatisthematrix.warnerbros.com/rl_cmp/comics_frames.html

Woo.

a moment in time.
19:45

Monday, October 24, 2005

Bidding result is not out yet. Please be patient.

Wah lao. How can they liddat de? Bah. Today ok only lah. Felt very... insecure. Dun like chem pracs! Math and chinese ok. Physics was free periods. Ss is bah-ed. CT period ok. Shid lah. Hol homework. Then wtf are hols for? Seriously? Give us a break.

Went down to see Mr Lam for math. I shall do math pracs during hols. Yupp. I better do some. And get the psychological block away from myself. Especially when I see cubic equations. ARGH. I can't believe I failed math exams cos I din't like it. oO. That sucks.

Went to Sloane Court for my mum's birthday dinner. Classic Tudor hotel with great food. Especially the House of Jehova dish. Woot.

And there's no mountain too high no river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Thanks for making my day =)

a moment in time.
22:06

I wonder how precious I am to you.
Deep down inside, I know I’m no longer your special one
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart
Is the only way for destiny, and true love never dies
How special am I to you?

There are many things I’d like to say to you
But I just don’t know how
I wish you’d call me
And your song plays yet again
I listen with eyes glistening.

ze zhi shi wo de jian dan ai

a moment in time.
17:55

Sunday, October 23, 2005

inside my heart is breaking.
but my smile still stays on.
what if i knew.
what if i knew.

the gust of destiny
the blood of the seagull
cries of vultures in the opal sky
a dying sun

what are we living for.

a moment in time.
23:40

My life is now complete. You were the missing piece after all. So many lonely nights. So many dark evenings. You were silent, so nonexistent. Now that you’re back in my life, joy has poured back into my soul. I was so desperate, so depressed, until you came back to me. 3 days without you was more than I could take.

haha I had dinner at raffles town club yesterday! Woot! Jap food! Whee but the wine sucked. I’m starting to believe yirui. I should try something funner. The wine was spicy. Which was eww. Some Chilean house wine. The food was served in erratic order. One of the lousier meals I’ve had there. Lol. Then played arcade. And my time crisis skills are like dying. Nooooo. Boo.

Today not bad lah. Go around tamp selling heart magnets. I think they look nice. And I brought jastine and zq to a real heartland area. My block there. Then we went all around. Had lunch at subway. Ended up at mrt. Then slacked at challenger watching game trailers --- bf2!!!!!! =) wootness. Ate ben and jerry’s. went back home and stayed at the com shop from 6 to 8.

Learnt a lot from that guy. Then helped him also. Wah just realized if I had the patience I could have done it myself. Bahness lah. But at least I learnt some skills today. Job attachment lor. And my com’s running damn fats now cos don’t have all the crap to clog up my com.

my fonts are all gone.
my url aliases are all gone.
my display pics are all gone.
my msn bgs are all gone.

bah.

a moment in time.
23:00

Friday, October 21, 2005

Blogging in school. My com has a virus which emails itself. Please don't open any email from me for a week unless it has SAFE in its subject. Yupp. It lagged my comp and then I went into bios setup to sort it out then it destroyed my bios. So now my com is screwed, again, in less than a week.

I detected it as http://securityresponse.symantec.com/avcenter/venc/data/w32.rontokbro.d@mm.html

cos i noticed these files running:

%UserProfile%\Local Settings\Application Data\csrss.exe
%UserProfile%\Local Settings\Application Data\inetinfo.exe
%UserProfile%\Local Settings\Application Data\lsass.exe
%UserProfile%\Local Settings\Application Data\services.exe
%UserProfile%\Local Settings\Application Data\smss.exe
%UserProfile%\Local Settings\Application Data\winlogon.exe

Bah. Hope my stuff inside is fine. Really. I'll crfy if my stuff is gone.

a moment in time.
07:32

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

"What is the airspeed velocity of an unladen swallow?"

The greatest Monty Python question ever is answered.

http://www.style.org/unladenswallow/

a moment in time.
22:19

Since people are asking, my top 2 choices for the electives are quantum physics and religion. Woo. Since I read up so much on q phys last year, and because I want to learn about other religions. I wish they had aeronautics or warfare though. Think I'll do that for RM (Research Module) Haha I came up with the abbreviation! Haha RM. It's as ominous as IM. lol.

a moment in time.
21:00

I find it surreally ironic when communists parties take over a country and rename it to be a democratic republic, like in Vietnam and Afghanistan. And so many communist parties call themselves democratic oO http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Democratic_Republic_of_Afghanistan
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/North_Vietnam

a moment in time.
20:15

Not in the mood to blog.
I don’t have to tell you everything
Ss was disappointing though. I thought I’d have done better. ah well.
cos you don't tell me everything
I’m just cheerless cos of other stuff.
you hide stuff from me too
Veni, vidi, vici
why does it always turn out like this?
you mean so so much to me. =)

a moment in time.
19:17

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Shid lah. got back bio and Chinese today. Chinese nubbad lah. 69 for overall for whole year. So quite happie. Bio sucked lah. 57. bahness. =( then it was IM. And ms low was sleeping in the staff room. So we waited. Then met her. then she commended our powerpoint! All thanks to xtine =) haha! then I took 31 with kog. Boo hate this.

Oh but I got back my comp and they gave me an upgrade! It’s now a NVIDIA GeForce 6200 with 256 MB DDR woooot! Let’s see who beats that. =) whooooooo!!! Heh.

Screw the exams.

Screw IM.

Cos life's worth living for.

=)

a moment in time.
19:12

Monday, October 17, 2005

Wah shit lah. My comp’s graphic card is screwed. That’s why yesterday never come online lol. Play too much gtavc liao. And apparently there’s a virus too, as detected by the company (Maxston) wah stooped lah. Btw im using my IM group’s laptop haha so fun sia. Typing this in the car. Haha.

Today was ghey lah. Got back physics, chem. ppr 2, bio ppr 1. shid. Physics – my best science – is a ghey 63. chem ppr 2 is 40/70 or 57% and bio ppr 1 is 23/30 or 77% but it’s mcq. Maybe I shouldn’t complain, but it’s not up to my expectations. Anyway I’m resigned to the fact that eoys ALWAYS pulls my grades down. Bah.

I feel so empty without my comp. without my bf2. without my gtavc (note: gtavc caused the virus. Time to uninstall) my comps coming back Wednesday. Oh and IM sucks shid. Wooot yah? Then went lib after sch with pam and michh =)

Update: omgoodness I hacked into my neighbour’s wireless! Woo. Rocks sia. Cos I couldn’t figure out how to set up the modem software for this laptop. Heh.

a moment in time.
20:22

Sunday, October 16, 2005

my computer crashed. i think it overheated cos i played for too long. bleh. now my system isn't working too well.

a moment in time.
00:10

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Truth.

What is the truth?

Really.

How do we know that everything we think we know is not a lie?

How do we know our lives ain’t a lie?

I think I just want cake or something

To go out with the people I love

Get all the worries away

Everyone being happy

Just being together

=)

I wish I knew what you really feel about me.

I wonder what my friendship and love really means to you
As I walk this land of broken dreams
I have visions of many things
But happiness is just an illusion
Filled with sadness and confusion

The roots of love grow all around
But for me they come a tumbling down
Every day heartaches grow a little stronger
I can't stand this pain much longer
I walk in shadows searching for light
Cold and alone no comfort in sight
Hoping and praying for someone who cares
Always moving and going nowhere

No matter what you're going through
I'll never walk away
I'll never walk out on you

And that means so much to me. =)

a moment in time.
22:49

Friday, October 14, 2005

I cant fight this feeling any longer
Yet, I'm still afraid to let it flow
What started out as friendship has grown stronger.
I only wish I had the strength to let it show.

I tell myself that I can't hold out forever.
I say there is no reason for my fear.
'Cause I feel so secure when we're together.
You give my life direction, you make eveything so clear.

My life has been such a whirl wind since I saw you.
I've been running around in circles in my mind.
Babe it always seems that I'm following you girl.
'Cause you take me to the places that I thought I'd never find.
- Can't Fight This Feeling - Chicago

Woo =) Nice song!

a moment in time.
23:28

LONG LIVE MAO!!!

a moment in time.
23:07

fadeout

Haha what a day. So we had farewell assembly. Woo. All the best to the j2s =) thanks for bringing us into the Victorian family =) haha then after that watch movies in class, sorted out im, rested at the sofa, then went to bugis. Haha finally see yuhui after so long =) they all took neos. I bought an aeroplane comic =) woo. Then went to mpcl. And waited. Then read books. Then went home. Haha. =)

a moment in time.
21:35

Thursday, October 13, 2005

loveunspoken

Wah. Slacked the whole day. Watched TV, got sianned of it. went online, played, got sian. Read books. Haii. This is what the hols will be like. Haha. I want to have school but with no work! =) woo. And pride and prejudice has already been released in uk and us in september. It’s coming to sgp on the 8th of dec. haha I want to watch! =)

a moment in time.
20:19

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Spent the afternoon playing GTA Vice City. Got a few screenshots. I want GTA San Andreas! But it’s banned in Singapore. Anyway can smuggle in a copy or something. and so many people have anyway. Heh. Ah well. I want Moulin rouge! Someone lend me please!

And this is my first attempt at designing our classroom. Bleh. It's the back.

a moment in time.
21:25

Things-I-can/should-do-after-the-exams:

- IMAGINEERING ARGH
- Start designing stuff – interior design, aircraft design, architecture
- Sketch a design for the classroom
- Play lots of comp games
- Actually get my hands on retail Battlefield 2 now that the exams are over
- Aim to get Grand Theft Auto San Andreas no matter what
- Go out
- Make a Ben And Jerry’s shop model
- Make all my plane models – those that you have to take hours to build. Heh.
- Do random quizzes
- Watch sunsets

I decided not to revamp my blog. It’s easy to navigate as of now. A single page site. No clicking here and there to get around. Of course, it ain’t fancy. But simplicity is user-friendly =)

Btw denys (http://fauxnatism.blogspot.com/) seems to be playing chrono trigger. It’s a damn good game. But remember to save when you defeat lavos. Or you’ll end up like me. there are different endings. get a snes emulator (http://www.snes9x.com/) , download the rom and start playing. It’s quite a nice game with interesting stuff and great graphics (for a SNES game). John has taken upsized photos of VJC-ians, and put them into posters. Including *cougheuu*someone’s*cougheuu* idol.

Someone lend me Moulin Rouge please! PLEASE!!! I have corpse bride here =)

PS. VJC's got a site revamp! http://www.vjc.moe.edu.sg
PS2. It can't be compared to MJC's tho. http://www.mjc.moe.edu.sg/ sooooo cool.

a moment in time.
14:25

http://studentssketchpad.blogspot.com/

Go look at the Student’s Sketchpad. They revamped it totally. It’s now the Union of Singapore Students Republic. (USSR) and the top right is MAO saying “If I have to imprison 200000 bloggers to preserve the peace of Singapore, so be it” WOO!!! The first comic strip in 3 weeks is not bad =)

You know, I have a feeling that the government’s actions are going to lead to a student’s rebellion. Especially bloggers. They are becoming more like the thing they swore to destroy. In economics, politics, everything. (DARK SIDE!!!) communists. Communists b-tards. General Mao is a loser. Heh. Don’t ever Singapore become like the People’s Republic of China. Don’t ever.

DIE GENERAL MAO DIEEE!!!

Oh and nice quote =) :
“what better way to control your opposition than to define one.. don't blame me, i learn from my country's best.”

a moment in time.
12:30

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Wooo! A new release of Pride And Prejudice. I watched the 1995 bbc miniseries. It’s said to be the best, and it was not bad at all. the 2005 release is a movie, starring kiera knightley =) woo! http://prideandprejudicemovie.net/

a moment in time.
22:00

Ah well.

We finally got past the exams. But we’re still stuck in the vicious cycle of Singapore’s education system. (behind me, the news reports criticisms of the PSLE, my dad says: wah the psle such a big issue now. Also has been.) bah.

Haha but quite fun lah today =) after school went to ps and watched corpse bride! Then went shopping. Then home. Haha corpse bride rocks! whee it’s quite meaningful =) haha!

Now that the exams are over.

SCREW THE PAP.

Blardy government doesn’t even give a shit about freedom of expression. Even the Internet. Democratic? We’re bordering between an autocratic regime ruled by conformists and a dynastic island empire of nepotism. EAT THIS SHID. Done a good job so far? Maybe. But that does NOT give you the right to take away the choices we make, the things we want to say, the things we feel, the way we live our lives.

Heil PAP.

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21:50

Monday, October 10, 2005

What we live for. The show must go on.

Today was fine I guess. Physics a few careless mistakes, like drawing an accleration time graph instead of displacement. Lol. I spent too much time on question 1 of the essay. And I think I lost half of the marks from there. Hopefully get method marks or something. haha. hope it pulls up my prac.

Lang arts was quite cool. I finished just in time. the dark one is so gonna kill me for using a non-reader response theory when the question asked for one. Bah. I made that same mistake in test 1. and I knew it then, and knew it just now, but I couldn’t think of how to use one. I forgot about indeterminate texts. Bah. Ah well. finished just in time. I finished my last word as the toh said put down your pens. Haha. pens. Haha.

Tmr’s last paper. Chem. then it’s over. And we can be free.

Goofy goober ROCK!

a moment in time.
23:32

Sunday, October 09, 2005

“Empty spaces - what are we living for?
Abandoned places - I guess we know the score..
On and on!
Does anybody know what we are looking for?

Another hero - another mindless crime.
Behind the curtain, in the pantomime.
Hold the line!
Does anybody want to take it anymore?
The show must go on!
The show must go on!
Inside my heart is breaking,
My make-up may be flaking,
But my smile, still, stays on!”
- The Show Must Go On – Queen

Cos we’ve gotta go on and pwn them all. It’s gonna be over soon and we know it. Jia you ppl =)
I miss you. I miss the way we were. And I wish you all the best in whatever you do. If you're happie, then so am I.

a moment in time.
19:50

“I believe in God
I believe in destiny
Not destiny in a sense of all our actions being pre-determined
But destiny in the sense of our ability to choose
Our ability to choose who we are and who we are supposed to be”
- Born To Reign – Will Smith

Lol. 3 days to the end! =) gotta keep going. Jia you y’all! Wooooo

Studied, then talked on phone =) , then slept, then woke up and watched male gigolo with my dad. Which is crazy. Lol it’s a spoof I think. I din’t know it ended so late. Just realised it’s 12:30. ahah. Ah well.

Just 3 days more.

a moment in time.
00:32

Friday, October 07, 2005

"The pen may be mightier than the sword, but the M61 Fragmentation Grenade is mightier than the two put together" - http://www.battlefield.ea.com/bf2mc/news/?lang=en lol!

Taking 31 back today, I realised that in the 15 years I’ve been on this Earth, I must have seen more than half the population of Singapore. Really. cos you see strangers everyday. Most probably you have noticed a quarter of the population because they caught your eye. Then around 2000 you know by face or name.

Around 1000 you know personally, out of this, 500 you know relatively well and you might call them friends. 100 are friends. 20 are good friends. 3-5 are super good friends. My own “statistics” are different. Haha but around there. It’s crazy. How many people one sees in a lifetime. Lol.

And the amount and frequency of people you meet decreases with the distance from your own home. Like for example I have seen many people in my block, and very frequently. Then move out to estate level and it becomes less. then there are hotspots like travel routes, schools, church etc. just like population density. And these hotspots are like cities. And your home is the capital. With the appropriate distribution of people you’ve met. And it spreads like diffusion haha.

a moment in time.
22:23

I made my first Wikipedia edit! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Man_Born_to_be_King haha singapore’s fall was stated as 1943. I changed it to 1942. cos this is for our homeland =)

a moment in time.
21:44

Chinese not bad haha. after school, watched the whole spongebob squarepants movie! Loooool. Then watched 15. heh. Xx, jastine and I went for lunch at pp. delifrance. Haha I love croissants! =) and we went random window shopping at mph.

Stayed at the interior design section for super long. Haha I know what I want my house to have. Designing a room like our class or my future home is added to my list of post-exam stuff. ahhh post-exam. So close, yet so far =( haha and we saw these whole lot of cds on offer. Like the lot they had in HMV in shibuya. In japan I bought a german altrock cd. The 05. bet no one has heard of it.

this time, I bought THE CUBE’s stand up direction body, which is a French metal group. Goodness I thot they were altrock lah! cos it looked like something the cure would come up with. I hate metal. But they’re not bad. I just don’t like noisy crap. Haha. the album’s genre is neo-fusion-rock'n'roll oO

Lol! and I bought will smith’s born to reign. Heh. I shall try it now. Jastine bought 3 cds, xx bought 1. haha goodness the music is killing me. I think I’ll give it to jastine. Or whoever likes neo-fusion-rock'n'roll oO. Haha

Update: Will Smith is so much better =) eh really not bad leh. Haha will smith is good. And the album got 4 stars on amazon. Stand up direction body is a one-time production exclusive by sony. It’s sold by amazon, it has no reviews, it has no thumbnail. Lol.

a moment in time.
16:26

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Michh asked me to blog about 22 happie stuff =)

22 Stuff to be happie about!

we’re halfway through the exams!
post-exam is reaching! =)
going out with frens =)
I wanna take neos for memories =)
I wanna go watch sunsets by the beach =)
go running HAHA
go play bball vball or badminton
playing bf2 endlessly and pwning the hell out of US players
going out for late nights =)
going out for dinners and lunches that we have been missing since exams started
watching movies =)
drawing and sketching random stuff!
happy cos of michh =)
happy cos of frens =)
new 3g phone arriving! With 6-mth free plan wooot
great music, great life
great food too =)
rainbows and bubbles and whatever other crazy nonsense =)
more random quizzes!
cos I know I’ve done my best =)
cos I want others to be happy =)
cos they’re there for me =)

a moment in time.
19:17

Here's a puzzle that is both rewarding and challenging. It only takes at the most 6 steps in two common programs. The conversion steps are from [the below raw material] -> [replace] -> [convert]. =)

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a moment in time.
18:32

D-Day plus 2.

If this were a Band Of Brother’s episode, it’d be episode 7. The Breaking Point. Where our troops were mercilessly bombarded by 88 artillery and mowed down by continuing enemy fire. The psychological stress is getting to me. feel like breaking down. Really. Just shocked. Disappointed. Don’t know what to say. How does one fight one when one has already failed?

I guess ss was fine. Haha people were asking why I din’t do question 2. cos it’s history and my history supposedly rocks. oO just don’t like source based questions. The only reason I got full mark for test 2 is cos I had starbucks with me. and sources turn me off. Like really. oO lol. well I made sure I followed ms toh’s scheme of shid thing. wah. Irritating sia. Must think how to phrase answers and all that. I ended up losing around 2 marks when doing the last question/

By the way, 1 mark = 1 point + 1 elaboration/example right? Eunice answer please! =)

Math was simple. Simply sucked. I was shocked. When I saw cubic equations, I knew I was done for. Then I forgot to study functions and factor theorem! I spent so much time on the test 1 topics which I screwed up at the start of the year. So now most of the semester 1 things I could do, but when it came to semester 2 stuff, I was just dumbfounded. Really din’t know what to write.

I prayed for a minute. Then suddenly I could do the second last question! Gaining about 10 marks. Miracles do happen. The thing is i left about 40 marks worth of questions BLANK. Bah. I guess my overconfidence in my ability in sem2 topics led me that way. But even if I had studied, I guess I wouldn’t be able to do it. complex equations immediately confuzzle me.

I just stay there and stare at them. I’m dropping math. but thanks to mr lam who really saved me from failing. I hope I don’t fail. Really. to be failing in what it supposedly your best subject is a huge shame. And I don’t wanna stay back during the hols for a math retest. Please don’t let me fail. Really! I wish I could say my ca’s will pull me up. But that 54.8 in sem1 won’t help. At all.

I wish I had worked harder in sem1. but it’s all over. sem2 was great. Got fourth with 80+ in ca2. so around 70 for ca’s together. But ca’s account only for 60%. 40% is in sa’s hands. Oh Lord, (I think you can talk to God through blogs too, as in really, why not?) but do not let my sa pull down my grades.

It’s all over anyway. What’s done is done. Everything is in the Lord’s hands. Now must concentrate on Chinese, lang arts, physics and chem. just 3 days to go. Just 5 more papers.

Let’s get it over with.

No worries.

No worries.

My parents just told me not to worry and they say it’s alright. It’s not alright to me.

a moment in time.
17:50

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

D-Day plus 1.

Casualties are high. They destroyed our right flank and poured into the ranks. We fought hard. really. But the enemy had a strategic advantage that could not be overlooked. We pulled out. Now we’re resting, waiting for a counterattack. We’ve decimitated 5 enemy divisions, there are 7 left. And they’re the ss. damn elite units.

Bah. Today sucked. =( bio was fine – the mcq was surprisingly easy. The essay was like blehh. Cos the first question I did without going through the paper, so I did benedict’s test. Then only in the last 5 minutes did I finally unconfused myself and change 3 questions to biuret test, and left out some details. Then physics prac was screwed up cos I got tricked by the question and din’t convert g to kg. BLAH. And with my lack of graph/triangle skills, I’ve lost around 6 marks liao. haii.

Tomorrow’s the real biggie. Ss. it reeks of doom. It emanates an aura of DOOM that you dream of in nightmares. I fell asleep while studying for ss. and I dreamt of ADP + Pi -> ATP, and the kreb’s cycle and how I put so much effort into remembering the whole respiration thing but it din’t come out. Boo.

a moment in time.
23:08

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

d-day. October 04, twenty oh five, a day which would live in infamy.

We’ve landed. The attacks have started and the enemy is relentless. They don’t stop. Wave after wave. And it’s just the first day. It’s a great battle. And we must fight for freedom! For liberty! We must overthrow and defeat the enemy! Let’s pwn them all.

So far ok. just ok. hopefully I can do well. I hate it when the finals pull down my ca. so this time, I won’t let it. lang arts was a shocker. I think my previous essays were better. and apparently I did the general question. Blehh. Chinese was fine, but without the almighty eng-chi dict, my vocab was mercilessly rendered useless. Ah well. biggie tomorrow, and the day after. The most difficult two days of this week. Bio, then ss and math. wah

a moment in time.
23:15

Monday, October 03, 2005

So bored that I went to friendster, and kopped this off Althea. Thanks ^^

20 people you can think of right off your head

1. michh
2. yuhui
3. xin hui
4. charissa
5. christine
6. chun han
7. eunice
8. yirui
9. shi bao
10. nazri
11. nicole
12. pamela
13. xiao xian
14. zhi hui
15. sean
16. koganti
17. prema
18. simran
19. jastine
20. hui yi

-How did you meet 13?:
de ming zheng fu zhong xue =)

-What would you do if you never met 5?
oO. Haha I’d be happie =)) jking. Umm I wouldn’t even know?

-What do you honestly think of 10?:
nice guy =)

-have you ever liked 3?
=)) haha hii Xh! yupp a lot!

-If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that
you would like to do?
bring her back. If not cry my heart out =( really. I can’t see life without michh =))

-Would 2 and 11 make a good couple?:
yuhui and Nicole! Omgoodness yes! =)

-Do you think 12 is hot?
pamela? Ahem ahem haha yah lah yah lah =)

-Would 1 and 17 make a lovely couple?:
michh and prema! Haha righttt

-Tell me something about 11:
nicole… oh been in her class for 5/6 years? haha

-Do you know any of 3's family members?:
nope haha tell me!

-On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?
zhi hui is act cute! =) haha umm which end is higher? To keep it safe, 5 haha, but she’s cute =)

-What would you do if 4 just professed their undying love for you:
oO. Haha hii charissa =) she wouldn't. but in that event, i would profess my undying love for her =)

-What language does 19 speak?:
english, Chinese, teochew, vulgar, vulgar, vulgar

-Who is 8 going out with?:
yirui is going out with himself. =) I dunno lah! He also dunwan to say

- Does 18 and 5 make a good couple?
xtine and simran hahahaha

-When was the last time you talked to 6?:
last afternoon haha

-What is 18's favorite band?
her husband, orlando bloom. That’s her only band in the world =)

-Does 4 have any siblings?:
older bro haha

-Would you ever date 7?:
eunice! Haha hii Eunice =) haha maybe =)

-Is 15 single?:
sean.. unsure haha sean you tell me first

-what is 19s last name?:
Goh, Jastine Goh. heh

-What is 3's middle name?:
haha hii Xh =) “happy”?

-What is 10's fantasy?:
his fantasy is naked f1 cars ahaha

-Would 14 and 19 make a good couple?:
zhi hui and jastine! Lol!

-What school does 16 go to?:
vjc =)

-What school does 1 go to?:
vjc =)

-Where does 9 live?:
hougang. The block opposite xtine, with the mad man in it. Heh sb long time no see.

-Would you make out with 13?
haha hii xiao xian =) that is disturbing haha

-Are 5 and 6 best friends? :
ahem ahem xtine and ch. Very good frens or something. Haha

-Is 20 older than you?:
hui yi! Yah. I think. Haha remind me when it’s your bdae. Think I forgot this year. =(

-is 4 the sexiest bastard alive?:
hii charissa =)) she’s not a bastard =)

-is 17 your ex?
prema? goodness

-do you ever see yourself with 12 and 18?
omgoodness a threesome? Ew no haha but with any of them also no lah.. haha

- how is 2 ?
super super nice =)

a moment in time.
14:42

D-Day minus 1

Here we go. Face the dark side. All the best y’all =)
1You think everything’s lost for you
stars rainbows sunsets
But you never realise how much you got
You never realised how much you gave away.
sunrises lakes mountains
2She thinks everybody wants her so bad.
And she asked me if I stood up for her.
hills rivers frosted glass
Now I wonder why I even did.
3I rather know the hurtful truth.
waterfalls snow skies
Than be hurt by knowing that you're hiding something from me.
That I already know.
hearts auroras silver

These are a few of my favourite things =)

a moment in time.
13:30

Sunday, October 02, 2005

I watched the sound of music =) haha happiness. Then played Call of Duty. Which gives me headaches, unlike other shooters. Blehh. Bored lah. 2 days more. =) Jia you people! Let's get it over with!

Actually I'm quite worried. Cos it seems everyone's studying so much when I've studied a few times liao, and making mindmaps and concept maps etc. What's the point? You'll still be learning the same thing. oO Bah.

By the way, if you thought the Germans were bad.. see what the Japanese did.

a moment in time.
21:29

I love my display pic =) it’s plasma! Woo I am so gonna buy a plasma ball. But considering how thanaseelan broke one so easily, maybe not. But it’s still damn cool. D-day minus 2. God bless you all. and everyone, just be happy ok? it helps. Really. Helps yourself, and everyone else. And to some people, stop being so anxious, and don’t worry if I’m mugging or not. Cos it doesn’t really matter. Smile! =)

And I’ve gained one kg! But I stepped onto the scale (first time in a month) right after lunch. So now I’m 51 kg. And nazri’s way more underweight than me. I wonder who else is too.

"I don't care if you think i'm crazy
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad
I've got no fear of losin' you
You can't lose what you never had

Now i'm gonna confess that i love you
I've been keepin' it inside feelin' i could die
Now if you turn away baby that's O.K.
At least we'll have a moment
Before you say goodbye"

a moment in time.
14:07

Saturday, October 01, 2005

the town bell just rang! it rang at 12. it's 12:08 now. haha it reminds me of my childhood. like in shps, in the middle of lesson, the bell would ring. haha ah well. happy children's day!now you're antagonising meand i don't know what to say to you cos you've left me with nothing to say but know that my heart is still with you even though i feel like giving up on you, on our friendship altogether

a moment in time.
12:04