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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Sports day was super fun! :) I love these past 2 Sports Day, probably because I actually did something fun in both! This time, I was an extra house commer, and I played PUSHBALL! Super fun :) I played with 07s41 and 07s30 people (Daniel Erik Eric Keely Ziyang Benedict Novabelle Sherwin Melodie and more) and we won our first round with our super strategy of Ziyang at the front and everyone else pushing him haha! Damn good. But then Pegasus was really violent and they pulled the ball and flew the ball during our 2nd round and it was like cheating and they won. Sigh. It could have been just fun and happy and all. Ah well! Anyway, photos :) I love Sports Day! Should have camwhored more, especially with the pushball people! Haha they're fun and nice. Yay!








a moment in time.
22:31

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Free Cones do help a little :)












a moment in time.
22:42




The mocking sun beating down upon your tracks
The long, cold nights gripping your sleeve
The blank faces staring through the windows
Each one lost in a world of its own

The lights passing by, one by one
They yearn to shine upon the darkness
But as with dreams, they are strangled
Never seeing the light of day

I'm here, detached in a world so cold
I never remembered beginning
Somehow I ended up in this place
Why can I no longer move on?


a moment in time.
21:41

Saturday, April 26, 2008

POST-PRODUCTION BLUES!






I had little reaction when Andrea mentioned post-production blues, but now I'm feeling it really strong. :( Maybe I was too tired last night, having floss crepes at T3 at 1AM. Now that I'm awake and aware, I feel so down! :(

Maybe it's because this is the first, and only Drama Nite that I've put in so much effort and time and thought and commitment and energy and love into - acting, directing, organising, and getting everyone together.

Maybe it's because as president, I felt the full weight of the event and now that it's gone, I want it back.

Maybe it's because somewhere deep down inside, despite the weariness, every moment I spent with my cast and directors and crew made my life so much more meaningful.

Maybe it's because we were denied a life in the "real world", and found ourselves together on the stage, working for one common goal.

This is the first time I've been director and cast in the same play (Fast Cars and Fancy Women), so I'm missing out on two experiences - directing and rehearsing, which took up my weekday nights, and could have left me angsty and emo. But I was NEVER ALONE. Most of all, I will miss the people who were there with me to share the burden, to contribute so greatly to the success of last night's production with their own effort, energy and time - especially my fellow directors Audrey and Fiona and my main cast - Ziyang, Bryan, Andrea. Wonderful people who never left me to face the task alone.

We shared many precious moments - happy and sad, ups and downs. I would relive these memories if I had a chance.

Thank you for the memories :)




a moment in time.
15:17



Post-production blues...

(As Andrea called it) It's the last Drama Nite for me in my whole life, the very last one. I feel sadder than I expected. I'll always remember, I'll never forget, the late nights, the crazy times, the happy times, the laughter and the tears, the stress, most of the all, the people and the experience. Thank you to my whole club for the greatest experience in my life! :) I love you V.Actors and I always will! :) Thank you for making my life complete! Here's some people I'd like to personally thank:

My exco: Ziyang, Yvonne, Saira, Yawen, Audrey
We've all worked really really hard and a lot of effort has gone into making Drama Nite such a success. I've never heard better acclaim from the audience before and I couldn't have done it without you. Thank you so so so much! Thank you for being there when I needed my team there and I could ask for no better team, seriously! All the best this year! :)

My fellow directors:
- Audrey: I will keep praying for you, stay strong and never give up! :) Thank you for always reminding and helping me to be a better person :) I'm really happy to have you on my exco :)
- Fiona: You're one of the nicest people in our club and I'm glad to have worked with you on this performance! I'll never forget Fiona-moments haha!

My cast:
- Ziyang: I can ask for a no better right hand man than you. We've had wonderful times talking about a lot of stuff and playing soccer in the langlab and all the crazy stuff. I'm thankful to have you as my Vice-President, and you acted damn well, damn hot la! You'll find your love!
- Bryan: Wow. Your attitude is unmatched - the enthusiasm, the initiative and the spirit. Glad to have you on the cast and you really speak super well! May you shine!
- Andrea: My IP junior! It's been really really fun working with you on this piece and we've had many fun, happy moments and I could really talk to you and yeah I'm really impressed by how you handled so many things at once, being key in two plays and IP open house. Jiayou!
- Kenickie, Deejee, Crystabel, Wei Ting: Though I din't spend as much time with you guys as I did the other cast members, you completed the experience and I could have asked for no better fellow ensemble cast :) Thank you for being there when we made it happen!

Those who bought tickets from me: darling Wingyan, qianyu, chunhan, nicole, charissa, daniel, eric, laura, jastine, leon, cheryl, yirui, shannon, jiaqian, kaixin, johnson
Without your support, my night would have not been complete. Thank you so much for being there (in physical form or in spirit), and just supporting me and my club and the whole event :) It means a lot to me to have friends like you! :) Thank you!

Those who gave me flowers and gifts: Rachel, Phoebe, Qianyu, Charissa, Daniel, Eric, Johnson, Eunice, Xinhui, Pamela, Beatrice, Michelle, darling Wingyan!
THANK YOU :) Flowers really make my day and tonight was made perfect with the flowers and notebook and notes :) THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MAKING ME SO HAPPY! :)

Wingyan: Thank you for being understanding and supportive through this time and for always being there for me :) I am glad to have you by my side, through the ups and downs, through everything!

Now it's over, I have to move on. But I'll always turn back, just to look, just to remember.

"Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye."


a moment in time.
03:02

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

I'm not used to failure. Especially when you're so close, but you miss. Just one part, one portion, one segment, one last chance. But I have the best of people surrounding me and encouraging me and that's what makes me carry on in life. I won't disappoint you anymore. I'm doing my best and I won't give up, I won't let go.

There's no rest, there's no break.
There's no more giving up or letting go.
This is a one way trip and there's no turning back.
From now on, it's all go go go.

After Drama Nite:
- TRAIN.
- MUG.
- SYF.
- install new drama exco
- h3 geography
- knowledge and inquiry IS
- BEIJING TRIP :)

All are important, especially you :)


a moment in time.
10:44



I reached back at 2330 today. This is THE start of THE week. The one week where life takes a funny turn - I spend more time in school than at home or anywhere else. The late nights, the pains, the burdens, the joys and the success. Here we go again, one last time. My last stand.

Monday: Rehearsals and full run
Tuesday: NAPFA!!! (MUST GET GOLD) and rehearsals and full dress rehearsal
Wednesday: Rehearsals
Thursday: Rehearsals and full run x2
Friday: Full run and DRAMA NITE.
Saturday: VIP Open House
Sunday: is the day we rest.

WOOO :)


a moment in time.
00:21

Sunday, April 20, 2008

My life should be a movie! With a soundtrack for every scene and everything so drama it's theatre :) Where love comes easy and is perfect and happy and wonderful and getting in the Good Life is easy on the fast lane. Woo! :)

I watched Definitely, Maybe today :) It's really sweet and nice and romantic and gosh, NYC! I will make it there one day :) NYC! Yay happiness :)




a moment in time.
20:21

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Today was a total emotional rollercoaster ride!








a moment in time.
22:45

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

I've seen so much I believe in being taken away from me.


a moment in time.
23:56

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Darling bought me Ben and Jerry's today and it really made my day :)


a moment in time.
23:42



Are you still there? The person I once knew? Are you still the same inside? The kind, sweet, cute, idealistic friend that used to dream with me of traveling the world, watching sunsets, sketching rainbows and dancing under the stars? I feel that I've grown up way too fast, reminding me of what I've left behind - the past.

Don't you yearn to relive those memories? When life was so simple and dreams came easy and we lived in a world we saw through crystal clear eyes? How did I end up here? In this miasma of a world shrouded in doubt and facades - it makes me jaded and so weary of life. I want to go back to the way I once was. Singing duets with no deeper meaning, enjoying each syllable, each tune, and sitting side by side, with no deeper emotions, watching the world go by.

What happened to our dreams? What happened to our wishes? What happened to our lives? Have they flown away as seconds mounted upon us? Have they vanished in the thick of reality? Where has our happiness gone?

I just want someone to hold tonight.

Come what may...


a moment in time.
22:55

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Life is just like a box of chocolates - bittersweet.


a moment in time.
21:22



I think you meant it when you said it that day. Maybe this was a mistake. How do you reconcile one's wishes with reality? Do we have to face the truth? It's like it never happened. Just another figment of my imagination. Dreamt it all. I tried my best but you never believed, you never trusted me and never believed in me.
I don't think it's working out anymore
Yay! :) Today was a happy week :) Actually, mostly the past 3 days. It made up for much of the sadness of my recent life haha. Both my H3 Geography and KI Independent Study proposals were approved for go ahead :) (but this means we're all alone in this now, all alone.) And I got an Ixus 75 to replace the one that was lost! And I was shortlisted for some Gifted Youth Summit (ego moment!) - but I din't go in the end because that period is the H3 and IS chionging period. And I had a nice lunch on Friday at Jack's Place with wing :) And I have nice people in my life!

"And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I'm thankful for the life we've made"

- Breathless

And that's why it's over.


a moment in time.
10:14

Friday, April 11, 2008

Each Day

Each day I grow a little more mature
I know more, I understand more
I feel more than ever
A little more each day

Each day I grow wearier
Of the sad things in this world
Each day I question
How happy I'll ever be

Each day starts to seem like a lie
Just one more facade
Of the never-ending journey
That ends in nothingness

Each day I carry on
In hope of finding my place
In a cold and complex world
And the happiness I believe in









Simple things make me happy. Just a smile or a hug, from the right person. makes my day! :) Simple words that aren't laden with hidden meanings or sarcasm. A simple walk down a river or the beach. Just being there to watch a sunset, or to see a beautiful scene of God's creation. Simple food that tastes good makes me smile :) Or just remembering the good times I've shared with all the important, wonderful people in my life :) Life seems a little brighter, in spite of everything that's laid down upon me. Life is wonderful :)

I miss those days
When I was truly happy


a moment in time.
22:17

Thursday, April 10, 2008

You've made me so unsure
You've cast so much doubt on me
You've confused and confounded me
And I want my way back

If you come back to the light
I'll be here waiting for you
I'm hanging on, holding on
Until the very end


a moment in time.
00:00

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

I have much farther to go...

Who really understands how I feel? Who understands what I go through each day and each hour and each minute? Who understands all the burdens and stressors and expectations and disappointments and ups and downs? Who can comprehend? There are no tears left in my eyes, I'm so tired, so drained, that nothing flows, even if I were to cry. I'm so scared of losing it all. I just want someone to love, and I have you.

I'm so glad to have you :)


a moment in time.
23:17

Monday, April 07, 2008

Sometimes no words are better than some.


a moment in time.
23:25

Sunday, April 06, 2008

It comes back in different ways.


a moment in time.
22:33



2 in 6000000000

Life gets better :) Always! You have to have bad times to have good times, so I know everything's going to work out in the end and things always sort themselves out. There's always hope, that little light that shines in the darkness. So here I am, at the crossroads again, but this time I'm sure of the path I'm taking. Here goes everything! :) Next week will be an even better week, we're together all the way, till the end, the very end.


a moment in time.
14:20

Saturday, April 05, 2008

It's been quite a happy day :) Rehearsals in the morning and I'm satisfied with the progress being made by most plays. Oh, this reminds me

COME FOR V.ACTORS PRESENTS 2008 (formerly titled Drama Nite)
25 April, 7:30PM ($10 - buy tickets from ME!!!)

I went out for dinner at Seletar Airbase - Sunset Grill and Bar. Super nice cream of mushroom, totally homemade with wild mushrooms, not the kind of crap you get at hotels. Deep-fried button mushrooms, buffalo wings, and a huge steak (medium rare!! WOO!) :) It's been quite a good day. Life seems a little brighter, in spite of the fog looming ahead along this long, lonely path.





a moment in time.
22:57

Friday, April 04, 2008

Today was a day which put my whole life into perspective, which gave me breath and life, which allowed me to truly live for just a while.

Geography lesson was damn hilarious! HAHA. After school, I went to Crystal Jade with Chunhan, Erik, Daniel. Congee with dough fritters :) MMM!! It's really nice going out with the guys again. It makes me happy to go out with friends!

H3 was really good, really meaningful -Josef Tan asked us to write on cards what we wanted. I had a lot of cards - I have many simple, idealistic, perhaps naive wants. And he asked us if H3 geog helps us get there, and to what extent. And reminded me of the need for humility when researching, because as a mere student, even as just a person, no matter how big, you are just one person in this big world. It's one of the qualities I'd like to develop in myself.

I went for dinner with Wingyan and it was really nice spending time together :)

I'm really hoping my Ixus 75 comes back like now because I'm really attached to it and I'd rather have it than a brand new one...

I want to sing the song rising in my heart :)


a moment in time.
23:34

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

Skies

Strike the keys gently
You never know what they may play
The tunes and intonations so distinct
Yet so far removed, distant

Diction is clarified
Laden with doubt
Every syllable at the tip of your tongue
But you have to try so hard

Each touch lingers
A figment of memories past
Everybody's changed
But you're still the same

Each day goes by so hard
But you're so isolated
Stay in your corner
In this circle of lonely hearts

Don't you want to fly again
Just to touch the clouds
Once again, just once more
And then to fall


a moment in time.
20:28


face to face

Mark Heng // markhsx
26.05.90 // Gemini
Christian // Church of Singapore
Singapore // Tampines
QPS // 1-2, 2-1, 3-1
SHPS // 4-11, 5-11, 6-12
DHS // 1K, 2K ; EDS
Victoria IP // 05V13 ; V.Actors ; Subjectif
Victoria JC // 07S41 ; V.Actors ; Subjectif



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