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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Haha a typical Tuesday. Just that we talked about Christianity during our "discussions" away from KI class, and a stupid geog quiz which made me panic for no reason (I was all wth la), and we went to Igloo after school, and then... SURVIVOR SINGAPORE! Haha true, it's the usual story about opression of students' voices, but I think the last part when the "students" chanted "We have no voice! We have no voice! We have no voice!" was damn cool la. Cos some of us kinda chanted too LOL. Amused. And how I got malu-ed when the guy asked me what school I was from lol. And Raffles Hotel seems very Chijmes. Like nothing special, just that it's ex. lol. And then supper at Cafe Cartel. Hahaha ok it's damn late and homework isn't done. Bleh. Wednesdays.


a moment in time.
00:34

Monday, January 29, 2007

HAHA guess what our lecturers are using?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Plate_tectonics

Behold, the greatness!


a moment in time.
22:56



You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional.
You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly.
Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you.
You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature.
Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind
Do You Follow Your Head or Your Heart?


Haha first test of the year tomorrow! Geog quiz actually. Haha at least there’s no ca/sa sort of thing. Haha today was fun! I love Mondays =) besides Chinese. Chinese is ok la. But it’s the sort of thing I wish I din’t take so I could have free periods and all. And omg every zuo ye is the equivalent of the a level paper. Which is like wth. Grr. Omg summary. I can’t even pass English summary. Sigh. Ok anyway, after school, went to starbucks with matthew, Xh and her friend Jessica haha. random band jokers la. Hahaha all the crazy crazy stuff. OH my bridge is actually ok! I don’t make that many mistakes anymore. My first few games since I laid off bridge mid last year. Haha and I’m back! Woo! And I completed binomial tutorial (except 7 which is confusing) so I’m feeling satisfied. Ok gtg study geog. Woo.


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22:47

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Now I know where I'll be camping in nuke and train, and where route i'm taking in inferno and dust2, so yeah. We need a strategy! Omg. Anyway, I had one takeaway from today's message. Something along the lines of there's no point angsting if you don't do anything about it, because words and emotions don't change the situation you're in. Hmm. We'll see.


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16:40



but when the time comes,
will it be too late?

how do we go our separate ways,
knowing that if we let go now,
we'll never feel the same way?

how do we move on,
while holding back the memory
of times gone by?

how do we deceive ourselves,
saying that the heart stays the same,
when we know it's already gone

how do we hope,
when we see it slipping away,
so slowly, through our fingers?

why do we still ask ourselves,
if it will ever be the same?

why do we even care anymore?


a moment in time.
01:26



You Are 35% Borderline

You're a little moody, but you probably don't have a borderline personality.
Everyone has their ups and downs. Just don't make too much of them.
Do You Have a Borderline Personality?


What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're a very well adjusted and happy person.

Overall, you are very content in your life.

You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind.
What Do Your Dreams Mean?


I went to register with the SYFC today. So far so good, my credentials are apparently quite strong. So hopefully my medical goes smoothly and I can manage my time (and actually start listening during lectures), then I’ll be flying! =) haha then I met Liying but she din’t sign up today so she and Eric Ng are gonna consider first I guess. Haha ah well. Hope we can all join together =) So yeah. Then I went home and started practicing CS. But wah. All the maps they playing are like no one plays one la. Dust2, train, nuke, inferno. Argh. Then went to ch’s house for ice cream to celebrate tine’s birthday. Which was fun. Especially when Singapore beat Malaysia at the last possible moment. WOO.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINE! =)

Don’t ever let go


a moment in time.
00:58

Saturday, January 27, 2007

I didn't choose KI.
Ki CHOSE ME.

heh.

nite ppl


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00:33



Haha omg it’s late and I should totally be sleeping. I have a registration thing tomorrow at SYFC (and possibly interview? oO) and I’m still sick. That’s why I was looking so sullen at the rest of my class ran the track 12 rounds and do pushups and stuff. HAHA wah eric still tell me “mark can la, just run” lol I would have died la. Fridays are long days. But they have nice breaks in between, and it’s the day for going out! Yay. on a random note, I like my class =) haha. I’m totally an arts student stuck in science, but I won’t change my combi cos I like my class haha. Ok it’s late, I’m tired, and I can blog more tomorrow.


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00:32

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Mark has decided to sleep even earlier. Especially since he IS sick. Nothing noteworthy today anyway. Besides the carrot-watermelon juice. And stoning during PE. And more boring science/math lectures. And Matrix being cut off halfway. (Which slightly annoyed him – because he doesn’t like watching stuff halfway through the climax) and doing homework at the library, and being chased out halfway cos it closed at 4, and doing more work at the canteen.


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21:11

Wednesday, January 24, 2007


Tutorials get boring...


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23:10



Mark has decided to sleep early(-ier). Especially since he is falling sick (due to lack of sleep?) Nothing noteworthy today anyway. Besides the carrot-celery-papaya-honeydew juice! Haha. just boring science lectures and more crazy stuff going around the class and the very first class scandal. So he says goodbye and looks forward to fainting during tomorrow’s xcountry route.


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22:17

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Haha today they destroyed our last… bastion. The lockers. They busted them! So it’s all over. It sorta marks the end la. Hahaha. Anw, fun day! Aiyah. Actually most days are sian. Cos of the sciences. I should totally not be in science. But I like my class, and I don’t mind going through the sciences cos I’ll learn something new. I think. =S haha. err. I’m not gonna pursue a science career though. It’s either pilot, philosopher, psychologist. Haha then we went out to starbucks, a pretty small group, just to catch up with each other. And it’s damn ripoff. I only realised today how ripoff starbucks is. Omg javachip! So nice but so ex. Haha 6 for a cup of ice with coffee and choc chips oO.

And carrot-celery-honeydew-milkshake pwns you! WOO


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23:01

Monday, January 22, 2007

Post #1801.



(no la. mine's 2.4 already. this is nic's)

Lol just went to ip forum and they cleared all the 05vip stuff. Argh. Din’t even tell us. Hahaha omg it’s like bit by bit it’s slipping away. Lol. Anyway, such a fun day! Haha even Chinese was quite fun. But argh. I think it’s a waste of time. While other people have time to do chem or phy or math hmwk, I have Chinese, and it’s like I could be spending the time doing something else. To me, as long as I can converse in chi it’s fun, and it should be a choice. Argh. So anyway, I like Mondays. Lol went out w tine to ps after sch to get some flurry thing haha. and bratwursts and sushi. Haha fun. =)


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23:46



You Should Drive a Saturn Sky

You're sleek and smooth, and you need a car to match your hot persona.
Besides, sometimes you want your top up - and sometimes you want it down.
What 2007 Car Should You Drive?


Hmm. It’s so difficult to keep in touch now. Ah well, moving on without actually moving on. Desperately holding on to the shards left. Nowadays, we end late everyday, and almost everyday, almost everyone has something on. It’s not like after school last year, I’d just shout (with the teacher still in class), “LET’S GO FOR MOVIE!”, and somehow, there’d be people tagging along going to watch I Not Stupid Too, or I’d shout “let’s go out for dinner!” and we’d be at Siglap or PP or town having a quick dinner and chat, or I’d shout (always seems to be me =S ) “let’s go take lrt!” and somehow, no matter how randomly, I’d be on the lrt with some people on a night ride from sengkang to sengkang, or “let’s go shopping!” and there would be people shopping, or other people would shout for playing bridge or cards or halo or aoe2 or other random games we’d sneak on the com, and we’d all just stay back at the back of class and play and talk. Do you remember? I do.




Now, it’s just go to Gelare to do tutorials.

But absence makes the heart grow fonder


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00:11

Saturday, January 20, 2007



You Should Paint Your Room Blue

Peaceful and soothing, blue rooms have been known to reduce blood pressure.
Your blue room will encourage deep rest and great sleep.
A blue room is the perfect oasis for a stressful life.
What Color Should You Paint Your Room?


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23:30



Homework only exists if you want it to.

I was watching Japan Hour today, and it was about the Japanese farm hostels in the countryside, and it struck me (like a bar of gold flying through your head oO) that the people living there seemed so happy and contented even though they weren’t wealthy or famous or had a life filled with the modern devices which we consider “essential” here. And I envy them, I really do. They’ve got fresh air, no stress, simple but nice food, the whole countryside to themselves, greenery that stretches for miles, a simple life. I thought about myself, us. Time to time, we complain about not having enough money to spend and not having enough material wealth (to show how well-off we are?), when it doesn’t really matter how much money you have if it doesn’t make you happy.

You could have all the fame and wealth in the world but suffer under social pressure or other stuff that comes with such status. And I’ve had a great life, really, even though sometimes I complain and feel envious towards the people who have “more”. Going places all over the world, great parents and a mother who was willing to quit her job to take care of me, a good education, great friends (with quite a few I would trust with my life), lots of food on the table everyday, a small(er) but cozy home, and not really having to worry about money even though our financial highpoint was a few years ago. We’re not famous, or rich, or incredible, but we’re content. And that’s what really matters, and that’s why I should be happy. =) And I am. Well, I usually am la. Small things get to me easily but my unhappiness goes away quickly. Haha.


a moment in time.
23:25



You Sometimes Don't Get Enough Sleep

You're often more tired than you'd like, and you're probably not getting enough quality sleep.
Sleeping a little more could make you a lot more energetic and happy.
Try having a bedtime, keep your bedroom cool, and only eat fruit before bed.
Do You Get Enough Sleep?


Ironic. It’s now 5 past 2am. Haha what a day. Now we have THREE Eric/ks in our class. And so now we’ll call them by their surnames lol. then after school, there was og bbq. Ichacha met up early and we played Indian poker and I had to shout yo vjc in a retarded voice with gracia. Omg lame la! Hahaha. And we walked a long, slow walk to pit 47. haha then we sat around in the dark on the beach, trying to figure out where the food was, and saying random things, and in the end decided to pangseh the og bbq-ers and go to thaipan looool. So we did and the ogls gave us touching stuff =) haha I think the little man thing is so cute haha. and some of us went to kaikeng’s house and they played mahjong while I watched spirited away and played bridge and daidee with those who weren’t playing mahjong. Then we did some chi homework. Sigh. What sadness. Haha ok it’s 222 and I’m tired.

And so you just have to be yourself
You don't have to listen to what people say
Just be true to yourself
And you know you've come out the winner


a moment in time.
02:22

Thursday, January 18, 2007

You're so damned self-righteous, you din't even realise it was about you.
Go ahead and think what you want, say what you want.
I can't do anything about it right? It's all up to you.
If we're gonna see it all break down, so be it, and it's not my loss, it's your's.
Because you're so superficial it's not even funny anymore.
And I never knew till today.

If you'd rather see me angsty and jaded like you, I'd rather not be with you


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22:08



You Are Very Worldly

You're an international jet setter - or pretty darn close.
And while you may feel like you have many more places to visit...
Most people live their whole lives without seeing what you've seen.
In fact, you're probably going to be traveling again soon. So Bon Voyage!
How Worldly Are You?


Today was one of those days I learn and discover a lot of stuff. You go through what I went through today, and add on some KI, and read some matrix philo at the library, and you’ll come out a little more pessimistic about life. But strength is when you can still face the ugly truth of the world, face what people say about you in front of you and behind your back (and don’t give a damn), and smile and know that you’re fine and idealistic and people can’t drown your dreams, no matter what they say.

Don’t judge me if you’re not perfect.
Because no one's perfect.
It's imperfection which makes us human, deal with it.


a moment in time.
20:38

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Damn I hate Wednesdays. Argh. 7 periods straight of sciences. Every week for the whole year! Wth! I wonder if they’ll change timetable in sem2. but probably not. Argh. Anyway, today was voting for ctc and ctrep and asstctrep day! Haha. I miss being welfare. Sigh. But according to ms wu (the low clone!), it’s not a “recognized position” in the college, unlike ip. Lol. quite upsetting. Haha. anyway, ya. I hate weds. What an upsetting but funny day oO


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22:31

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Haha what a fun, crazy day. Firstly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUNHAN!!!

There was dunking. And there was much rejoicing. And there was taupokking. And there was more rejoicing. Omg ch keep on trying to run like an animal liddat. But of course, with so many people surrounding him, we eventually got him and in he went. WOO! Haha then the first class outing! At gelare haha. quite cool. class bonding. =)

AND THERE WAS A RAINBOW. How special =)



"Cause I'm falling,falling
Girl I'm falling for you
And I pray you're falling too
I've been falling,falling
Ever since the moment
I laid eyes on you"


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22:43

Monday, January 15, 2007

WOOO I think I love Mondays. Hahaha I love geog and ki! Im thinking im so not science student. Hahah. Ah well. But whatever. Ki was cool. we played polar bear then talked about truth and knowledge and info and reality and beliefs. It’s so me. hahaha. It’s the kind of stuff I randomly exclaim. Then I hung out at the igloo for the 2nd time in my life and shot darts and played foosball and pool! Haha I think my pool is improving. 4th time. Hooray. Then it was a rainy angsty afternoon but whatever I had a good day. =)


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23:49

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Ichacha was supposed to go ice skating, but in the end we jts-ed at seoul garden. Wah taka seoulg pwns bugis’ one. they have cooked food and dimsum and hot desserts and other stuff that bugis doesn’t have haha. then I met jastine ch tine and we went to the national museum. And they renovated it – now it looks like a ripoff of tate modern, but quite a good one. the lifts are cool! haha and the wide wide spaces with white walls and lights. Really tate modern actually. Then went back to my og and we played random games like ogs do! Haha.






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22:55



I'm losing myself in your dazzling eyes
Drowning myself in your every word your every melody
My heart shatters at your every touch


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02:26



Hahaha ok today was Huiyi’s surprise birthday party. Which was fun! Hahaha lots of drinking cos the guy lifted the age limit so we bought all sorts of weird liquors and cocktails and alcohols and OVERPRICED juices. Especially since it was at CHIJMES. Oh private room. Which was nice. Haha I had a baileys, which was what hy had, cos she said it tastes like milo, so yeah I got that. Haha it’s nice! I think its my fave alc now. Mmm. It’s like horlicks chocolate with alc.

Then people ordered stuff like bloody mary, Singapore sling, cranberry cooler, choc martini (I always wanted to try one, and I did today and it sucked la. No chocolate taste at all cos the alc’s so strong. Grr.) and more I’m too high to remember. All SUCKED except cranberry cooler, the cream thingy, and baileys. Hahahaha. I think I like the creamy drinks. Mm. OH and they had this “Multiple Screaming Orgasms” haha I’m so gonna try that one day and see what happens. Most drinks taste like some common drink/sauce with alc. Like wine is grape juice, baileys is milo, bloody mary is Tabasco, cranberry is cranberry oO, and the rest are indescribable cos they suck lol.

Hahaha we played games and talked about our lives now. It’s quite amazing how different our paths are hahaha. Ah well, it was a great night, thanks reuben for the party and drinks, and early happy birthday to huiyi! =)


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01:40

Friday, January 12, 2007

Why do you ask him to move heaven and earth
To prove his love has worth?


Haha I actually enjoyed today. the last day of the first week of school! Haha I think I love geog. And ki. Woo! So anyway, human geog lecture. I’m not sure if I should take notes or not =S last years’ ss notes have everything liao. Hm. almost la. The important stuff all in. then physics and chem tutorials. And math lecture is when I started making the vjc logo in my gc haha. and physics lect! Haha then I started another copy cos the circles in the first one were too small lol. and physical geog tutorial was kinda surreal since I haven’t touched phygeog for uhh.. 3 years? I hope I won’t be struggling lol. and chem prac then pe!

Haha then we went to pp to get stuff for low. Then went to siglap pizza hut to celebrate ms low’s birthday! Hahaha it was nice, getting together and talking. Hahaha then the little miss book! =) haha I think it’s so cute and nice to get one. so yeah, we got one for her. Haha then I went home, the mocking rain hammering down upon the dark dark night.


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23:49

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Haha third day was better. I wasn’t as tired, our lecturers were good and everything just seems brighter =) haha PE woke me up well. Haha then Chinese, and our laoshi is damn funny la. Her voice is so ENTHU and so LOUD it’s hard to fall asleep and she gave us stuff to do while she talked so it was quite ok. Then math lecture was quite boring la. WAH I want lam as my tutor la. Lol. but chem lecture was cool cos lim cher chuan was lecturing and he’s damn fun. [haha some of my og ppl msned me and they said they were oO when I answered the question about atoms being round haha] I hope to have more lecturers liddat. Then KI. OMG OMG OMG I love ki. It’s like, so, like me!!! omg omg. All the questions I asked before. I felt I was talking through the guy (I think he’s ixer. Lol) and we watched the matrix and ki is definitely worth staying back for. We started with the cave and matrix today. haha. WOO omg. I love ki. Woo. One reason that keeps me alive. Ki is so my destiny.

So yeah, today was nice, actually. =)

But we still get homework everyday =(


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23:22

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Today, I realised how I've been fooled by people. Never thought I'd experience this, but I realised that some of my "good friends" are just so fake and superficial, and that some of the people I've disliked all this while were probably better friends. And what I've been hearing is so true, there's no point trying to keep a friendship between you and a person who doesn't treasure your friendship, because seriously, who're you kidding? To them, you're just one rung up the ladder, just one step towards selfish success, to show that they can have friends like you, and be popular or whatever. And it's so ironic how the very people who influenced my choices are now bringing about my downfall. Woohoo. Life rocks! Life so fucking rocks.


a moment in time.
23:01



How was the first day of school?

At the end, I was thinking to myself, I can’t do this everyday, every week.
At the end, we were looking for any scrap of the VIP we could find, so desperately searching for a place we once called home.
At the end, I no longer look forward to school anymore.

But then I say to myself, you’re j1 now. Snap the bloody hell out of this and live your life the way it should be. Lol. I don’t know la. We had homework first day of school. Went to Gelare to do math tutorials. I might switch to arts fac. Not sure yet. Well, better sleep early. Tomorrow got 7 periods of sciences straight. ARGH.

Ever put on a façade of your usual high, crazy, mad self to hide all the pain boiling inside, all the frustration and angst and helplessness you feel but don’t dare to admit just because you don’t want to make it worse for others, and you’re so afraid that you can’t deal with it? You just don’t want to irritate your friends, you just wanna keep it all inside and hope it goes away soon. And you don’t know what you can do, because truthfully, you don’t know what to do.




The second day was better, I guess. Since the shock was gone. But omg. I think the sciences are damn boring. I’m considering switching to PMGH, which was what I always wanted to take but which would limit what I can take in uni. Omg our teachers are like… argh. They’re nice, but none of them can compare to ms tey, ms low, mrs koh. KI as well. (of course, no teacher can do lang arts like the darkside does) It’s like all the lessons aren’t up to standard. And it’s like somehow the IP has better teachers than the jc batches, which doesn’t work out cos jc is the serious part. I just don’t get it. Everything’s so damn confusing. oO. And we had 7 periods straight of sciences. Which sucked. Really.

I was thinking to myself today and yesterday, that this is now my life. Instead of going to East Coast, instead of going to cine or orchard or ps or pp or airport or town or hot dog hunting or lrt rides to HAVE FUN, I’ll be sitting in a dark, quiet corner in gelare (aka emo café) doing math and chem tutorials, and seriously thinking about life, truth and destiny. And this will be my life (or un-life) for the next 2 years. Fucking miserable. No more hexagonal tables, no more groups, no more classes, no more class spirit, no more school spirit. And today, I suggested “everyone must be the life of the class” in a desperate attempt to create more class spirit, but in my opinion, the 05 batch is still the best. Not just us pioneer vip-ers, but the seniors and all. The cheering was loud, sincere, enthusiastic, and just true to the spirit.

I’m angsting, I know. But if you don’t wanna read this crap, then just get lost. I don’t think I’ll be able to go through this (read: unlife) for two years. Maybe a week, just like hectic helmsman or term3week8, or 3 months, like the mugging (actually I started mugging for 2 weeks before the eoys only but that’s beside the point) or even half a year, but no fucking way I’ll survive TWO YEARS of this. ARGH.
If one day I’m gone, you’ll know why.
I can’t believe I’m falling out with v13 people so quickly. I’m so afraid.


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20:23



How was the first day of school?

At the end, I was thinking to myself, I can’t do this everyday, every week.
At the end, we were looking for any scrap of the VIP we could find, so desperately searching for a place we once called home.
At the end, I no longer look forward to school anymore.

But then I say to myself, you’re j1 now. Snap the bloody hell out of this and live your life the way it should be. Lol. I don’t know la. We had homework first day of school. Went to Gelare to do math tutorials. I might switch to arts fac. Not sure yet. Well, better sleep early. Tomorrow got 7 periods of sciences straight. ARGH.

Ever put on a façade of your usual high, crazy, mad self to hide all the pain boiling inside, all the frustration and angst and helplessness you feel but don’t dare to admit just because you don’t want to make it worse for others, and you’re so afraid that you can’t deal with it? You just don’t want to irritate your friends, you just wanna keep it all inside and hope it goes away soon. And you don’t know what you can do, because truthfully, you don’t know what to do.




The second day was better, I guess. Since the shock was gone. But omg. I think the sciences are damn boring. I’m considering switching to PMGH, which was what I always wanted to take but which would limit what I can take in uni. Omg our teachers are like… argh. They’re nice, but none of them can compare to ms tey, ms low, mrs koh. KI as well. (of course, no teacher can do lang arts like the darkside does) It’s like all the lessons aren’t up to standard. And it’s like somehow the IP has better teachers than the jc batches, which doesn’t work out cos jc is the serious part. I just don’t get it. Everything’s so damn confusing. oO. And we had 7 periods straight of sciences. Which sucked. Really.

I was thinking to myself today and yesterday, that this is now my life. Instead of going to East Coast, instead of going to cine or orchard or ps or pp or airport or town or hot dog hunting or lrt rides to HAVE FUN, I’ll be sitting in a dark, quiet corner in gelare (aka emo café) doing math and chem tutorials, and seriously thinking about life, truth and destiny. And this will be my life (or un-life) for the next 2 years. Fucking miserable. No more hexagonal tables, no more groups, no more classes, no more class spirit, no more school spirit. And today, I suggested “everyone must be the life of the class” in a desperate attempt to create more class spirit, but in my opinion, the 05 batch is still the best. Not just us pioneer vip-ers, but the seniors and all. The cheering was loud, sincere, enthusiastic, and just true to the spirit.

I’m angsting, I know. But if you don’t wanna read this crap, then just get lost. I don’t think I’ll be able to go through this (read: unlife) for two years. Maybe a week, just like hectic helmsman or term3week8, or 3 months, like the mugging (actually I started mugging for 2 weeks before the eoys only but that’s beside the point) or even half a year, but no fucking way I’ll survive TWO YEARS of this. ARGH.
If one day I’m gone, you’ll know why.
I can’t believe I’m falling out with v13 people so quickly. I’m so afraid.


a moment in time.
20:23

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Sea Regatta (aka mass school dunking session) and The Suntec Mass Dance. The very best day of Orientation each year. Hahaha omg it was fun la. At least I wasn’t the first to go. hah. Games, cheering as we went along, sand burial, tug of war, dog and bone, volleyball, and a lot a lot a lot of dunking. There were all sorts of dunks. In 2’s and 4’s and 6’s and dipping and the extra sand and the random targets hahaha madness. Haha then I went home to wash up, and met up with my og at Suntec pastamania for dinner then we played more polar bear than MASS DANCE woooooo. Hahaha. I love the train! But it always gets pulled apart of squashed. Haha and cheering. And dancing. Woo. Then another pseudo-v13 supper at mcd. Haha. I’m gonna miss these good days. And I was high AND photohigh tonight. Till I realised my sense of belonging to the school is now all just a façade.

What I want:
A planner
A notebook
A scrapbook of photos!


a moment in time.
00:25

Sunday, January 07, 2007

sine sine cosine pi
3 point 1 4 1 5 9
avogadro, lcp
6 point 0 2 10 2 3
v squared u squared 2 a s
science fac science fac kick your ass!

or

sin sin cos ?
3.14159 (6 sf)
avogadro, [by] lcp
6.02 * 10^23 (3 sf)
v^2 = u^2 + 2as
sci fac sci fac kick your ass! [eh-nus]

WOO


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23:30



Gemini - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

Your lively, outgoing attitude attracts people to you everywhere you go.
You can talk your way into - and out of - any situation you desire.
You're adaptable enough to flirt with anyone - and people tend to fight over you.

Your negative traits:

You get easily bored in relationships, and tend to jump from person to person.
You tend to be a bit of a player - and have a high tolerance for drama in relationships.
Not the most empathetic person, you tend to tell lovers to "get over" their problems.

Your ideal partner:

Is intelligent and quick witted enough to keep you interested.
Is a bit of a shape shifter, providing you with the variety you crave.
An open minded person, who's willing to have a non-traditional relationship.

Your dating style:

Exciting. If your date shows you a new experience (like Egyptian food or scuba diving), you're very happy.

Your seduction style:

Experimental: it's rare that you try the same thing twice.
Ultra kinky - you do stuff that's not even in books yet.
Hot and cold... sometimes you're just not into the whole sex thing.

Tips for the future:

Settle down a little. Sometimes good things come with time - so don't let people go so fast.
Acknowledge that you're a player and flirt. If your mate can't live with this, find someone who can.
Give your partner a little more attention. You don't have to be a social butterfly all the time.

Best color to attract mate: Sunny yellow

Best day for a date: Wednesday
What's Your Love Profile?


I don’t get some people. Those who are so afraid to show they’re proud of the school just because they’re scared they’ll be ostracized for being vip. Or some other reason along that line. Maybe it’s cos I’ve been there before, maybe it’s because I feel they’re putting on a façade for no good reason. You hide it so much, in the end, people are still gonna now. It’s not like we’re saying that we’re smarter than you, we’re better than you, we’re gonna pwn you in everything. It’s not arrogance, it’s identity. We’re just being who we are. How hard could that be?


a moment in time.
22:40



You Are 64% Spoiled

You're pretty spoiled, but you probably don't think you're spoiled enough.
No doubt about it, you're living the good life. Maybe a little too good!
Are You Spoiled?


Wah lao. See la, told you I’m not spoiled. =)

Haha anyway, some drama admin stuff today. And we went to the library@esplanade to check out scripts. And omg. That place has got to be the best multimedia library! It has audio cds, dvds, books. I got some music dvds and some scripts. Haha then went to tamp to collect some edusave bursary thing (for the first time oO, our income’s lower than the limit) and I was the only vj person there save for a uni girl wearing vj uni. Haha. then went to raffles town club to celebrate my aunt’s birthday w steamboat and 2 rooms and alcohol. And omg. I took the same kind of wine we had at the xmas party (merlot) and after half a glass I was red. I dunno what happened la. Lol. and played pool with my older pro cousins and lost by 3 balls so not that bad la. Then I pwned the crisis zone there. And now it’s late, I’m tired, and I’m sick of everything’s that changing. But I’m happy cos I’ve a good life.


a moment in time.
01:27

Saturday, January 06, 2007

What, am I going to let myself go through this again?

"Takin' a dive 'cos you can't halt the slide
Floating downstream, I'm takin a dive
Ah so let her go don't start spoiling the show
It's a bad dream, I'm takin' , I'm takin'
And you and your sweet desire
Don't you do it , don't you do it"


No.

I've got too much else on my mind.


a moment in time.
00:55



Today was awesome. Besides the briefings on pw ( -_-“ ) and SPA ( ---____---- “”” ) haha the games and cheering and mass dances. Those were nothing that special, but still great. However, the bestest, greatest, funnest, craziest part of o1 was my og. ICHACHA. We are just so awesome la! All the enthu people. The crazy games. But most of all, I think we really showed how great we are because we created cheers that now everyone knows. The yup yup yup one was by us! Hahaha long story. And the vj boleh and you wash our hair and we love to yup one came from me and zhang yang cheering vj boleh for fun and then walking around randomly cheering. I think we’re the only og which created our own cheers (that were successful)! Haha GO ICHACHA!!! Hahaha then og dinner at thaipan! Haha never been there before. Omg the butter squid is like woah. Haha then we sat at Neptune court and told ghost stories hahaha. Then got chased out. Hahaha fun! Woo I love ichacha.

Oh, and of course, we met our new class today. 07s41. I can remember about half of the nonips names. And like 4 of our senior classmates crashed la. I was like oO why is andrea here in some cedar uniform. LOL then I realised the four of them were from upstairs haha. The class seems ok. Quite enthu too. I think our seniors are nice. But then, now I have been moved to Draco…

And this is where I angst.

“A-Q-U-I AQUI-AQUILA!!!” ringing in my head whole day. The single, well-deserved star above the eagle. The lockers and losing the place we met and talked and where some of the most random conversations took place. Losing the one place I could call home in the school, could come home to, could feel at ease and relax and all the crazy times in that classroom. T23, the vip lockers, the VIP learning hub. We’ve been reduced to camping out at the concourse, our classes now occupied by juniors.

I’ve been feeling all sorts of contradictory emotions these few days. For one, I hate our juniors for taking over our classes without having to do anything, yet, I care for them and I want them to enjoy ip as much as I did. I’ve lost my sense of belonging to VJ inside, because I’ve no place to go, I just wander the college, like I know where I’m going, but I don’t, and I’m just as lost as anyone else – I feel displaced, yet I know I call VJ my school, I cheer loud, I cheer strong, I cheer with heart, I sing the song with pride, but it seems, just so sadly, so mockingly, so ironically and cruelly, that the one thing/place/people (v13, t23, vip, aquila) that kept me strong has been torn away from me. Just ripped us apart. Then, I don’t know if I’d rather be in a full-ip class or my class now (but it doesn’t matter) both ways, there’s good and bad.

I feel lost. I feel homeless. I feel displaced. I feel emotional. I feel sentimental. I feel angst. I feel pain. I feel emptiness. I feel a void. I feel a need. I feel unloved. I feel helpless. Most of all, I feel helpless. I can’t turn back time. And I saw all those times flash by today. I feel helpless because 2 years just flew away. And I know I regret not making the very best of that time. But I know I’ve experienced just so so much. I’ve learnt so much, even matured. I’ve seen so much, done so much, had so many good moments it’s ALWAYS hard to let go. But here we go. And I have to be strong. I will get through this.

It’s like you’ve changed so much.
It’s like you’re no longer the person I know.
It’s like you’re just an empty shell of that person.
It’s like we’re no longer there.
We’re worlds apart when we’re together.
And it hurts.


a moment in time.
00:16

Friday, January 05, 2007

Well it's been 4 days 11 minutes since 2006 ended. And I decided to complete the last part of my summary of all the great times we've shared. Thank you v13. And the people who made my life worth living. =)

So...

2006 – the second half.

V13 chalet: turnout was not bad in the end. Although I got caught half-naked on camera somehow, and got stuck in mud playing soccer, and wasted money at the arcade, I (and we?) had a hell lot of fun, and I still pwned at world combat WOOHOO and we stayed all night talking about a single subject. Omg.

Inv!gorate: hahaha I sucked la. Scored one the moment I went in during floorball (see, I don’t break my promises!) and went out as planned (cos my luck lasts one goal), scored a few during vball (and we nearly nearly won vball but I guess ego got the better of me and us. Haha we were like oh sure win liao when it was 10-1 or smth) and none during bball hahaha. And it was during these few days that I felt angsty for the wrong reasons. HAHAHA.

SIP: HAHAHA PAMELA! =) I still dunno what Koh’s doing with it. lol. it was fun, the late night till 4. WOO! Damn cool la. And I think we did good. Haha. Cool.

The end of PMSXY: haha Prema Mark Samuel Xiaoxian Yufei. The good days of Old Airport Roading, photowhoring, the trio of sickness, and “our craziness, the food, the craziness, random spurts of joy, screaming, whacking, crazy jokes, random remarks, Old Aiport Road (!!!), crazy photos that prema xx took, samuel’s mad vibrating laughter, yufei’s -_-“ look

The new group: Charissa Jastine Simran Mark Xinhui. WOO the camwhoring, the weird foot-thing, the screaming and the floating table and BINGO and the gc race and all the food and just being such a super super nice group of people which I’m so glad to have spent my last IP days with. Yay!

The skirt issue: HAHAHA the sick man. And the skirt checks. And the guys (and girls) were like oO. And everyone was so upset cos the guy was at fault. LOL. what an uproar!

Racial Harmony Day: The best rhd I had! Hahahaha thanks naz for the costume! Hahaha all the phototaking and the most colourful schoolday I had! Woo! Haha

Helmsman Week 3: Lol the tea, the muay thai, the hiphop, the careers. Quite a surreal combination, but worthwhile in the end I guess.

Current Affairs quiz: Something we found ourselves in oO. Haha the crazy nights with big macs and random powerpointing and pwning although we din’t expect to and getting pwned equally unexpectedly. And the crazy sji guy who knew everything!

Then, after national day, teachers’ day, and so on, there came…

THE GREAT MUGGING: In retrospect, I could have done better, of course. Especially with the whole inductive fallacy shit that lost me 10 bio marks. And all the late studying. And slacking at the airport while the rest of the group mugged. Lol. I loved the mugging sessions.

And

THE GREAT HAZE: the darkened skies, the weird colours like the bright purple sky, the day we went out at the end of the exams, and had sashimi at Marche, and swensen’s! woo the release.

Open House: the pirate fight scene, the going around with nothing to do. Lol!

Project Rewind: Hahaha such a big project, so many people involved. I remember the rewind factory, the stamping and the cd mess, the burning of cds, going to pageone to look for designs, the starbucks, and one of the most memorable souvenirs of my ip years.

The last days (the cleanup and farewells): the first time I finally got to doing something about v13 ending. Haha took photos, cleaned up, then after that, went camwhoring around till 6. hahaha fun.

The last last days (class lunch and Cheek): the very very last day the whole of v13 was together. Sigh. We got briefed, then said goodbye, and took the last full class photos (probably, but hopefully not, no more to come, we’re spread too wide haha) and went for class lunch! Which was my most successful attempt at organising class outing. Sigh. Hahah but it was fun! we filled so many tables! And haha had fun cooking. Then I remember we sat at the roof of bugis street and took cool photos. Then had coffee at tcc, and went for Cheek, my last play of the year!

RM poster and Symposium: HAHAHA. I think this was the best part of RM. Our pastamania, Bras Basah, then staying in laura’s room finishing the poster and making weird stuff and playing that cool lego game haha. And looking at and taking photos. Haha I love my rm group. =) we’ve had good crazy times. Haha!

VELVET 2006!!!: Besides THAT smile, it was a blast. Thanks to the juniors! =) haha I think my favourite part was taking photos and seeing everyone dressed up and extra beautiful. Haha. The dinner din’t really matter in the end hahaha.

The outings: hahaha the final times we went out tgt. Pool and vivocity! =) haha thanks for making my ip life so wonderful. All the people I treasure and went out with haha. And movie marathons and the stayover and just the best holidays I’ve had!

Not So Silent Night: haha the fun xmas songs and the supper! And talking about life. And how it was gonna change so much.

Christmas Party: THE GREATEST PARTY (and probably only proper party for me lol) of the year! A great big thanks to YIRUI and those who attended. And for zq and yirui’s bro for the alcohol which allowed me to drink the most alcohol I have in a month, as well as a day, as well as a week. 5 glasses of cabernet merlot and a shot of absolut mandarin. (yes yes I know I’m not too experienced) and I love being high! That’s why I usually am haha. And the games. And for spending my last few days of the holidays well. =)




As expected, today turned out better than yesterday. Hahaha the first games were ok, the wet games were AWESOME. Omg but the shampoo thing was disgusting la. Haha and ichacha got REALLY ENTHU TODAY WOOO. I seem to get great groups everytime! Hahaha and we made our own cheer! Cos me and zhang yang taught the guys the vj boleh one. then we decided to just sing random stuff (like I love to) haha and we had a superweapon! My waterbottle! Hahahhahaha damn fun! then mass dances (lol friendship) and OG DINNER. We bought subway and sat at some steps at Suntec and played polar bear hahaha. Fuuun. I like my og. =)


a moment in time.
00:10

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Life is such a bittersweet thing. So mocking. So ironic. HAHA. Well, woke up at 6 today. long day la. Orientation. Lol second time round and it’s more than déjà vu. The people in my og are pretty nice, and the ogls are nice too haha it was just tiring la. Too tired to blog. It’s so déjà vu anyway. And we had a pseudo-class dinner haha and ms low appeared oO haha. ah well. I hope this year will be good. My resolution: to keep the friends I’ve made the past 2 years, and to remain good friends with my good friends now. I won’t let myself fall again.


a moment in time.
23:29

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Well, the last day of the holidays is always a sad one. However, this one has been sadder than ever. From tomorrow onwards, I will experience a life with no classroom. No place I can call my class and a sense of place in the school. I will wander like a traveler bound by wanderlust yet so eager to have a place to call home. No sofa I can jump onto and fall asleep in, no class computer, no changing room, no tables. I’m not really ready. Not really afraid, but still afraid. And it seems I’m not alone. So we’re all in this together (High school musical starts playing!) So yeah. here we go again. Another new start. Let’s see how I cope with this last one. =)

Gonna miss you guys (v13, ip2s, vip)

What did I do today? I spent it well. At first, met up at hougang mall for some daytonaing w ch jast Xh xtine, then went to ch’s house for movies. Haha and laura came. And we watched the butterfly effect. DAMN COOL. I love the director’s cut ending!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Butterfly_Effect

hahah then din’t know what to do. Ended up playing cs and ft. and went to my parents’ friend’s house and watched coach carter. Inspirational movie. Which was one of the best of the sort I’ve seen. Very predictable but the acting is damn good. Haha then dinner, and now back.

Well. Cya guys tmr.

I'm going to forget you.
Even though you're beside me everyday.


a moment in time.
23:37



Hahaha I spent my new year’s well. Went to Glutton’s Bay with the family and some friends, and we had HUP KEE OSYTER OMELETTE. WOO! I finished 2 $5 plates! I have to enjoy before I turn 21, according to the low. WOO! Then we took a walk around the esplanade/fullerton/clarkequay area. Haha quite nice. Sat at the steps near the merlion. Haha everytime I go there I think to myself that the merlion vomits water because of my dad. He designed the water piping system for the merlion just before the first (or smth) Miss Singapore Universe or some pageant. Lol. Now it vomits. Then walked through the fullerton area to the cricket club, then they drove us back to the esplanade and home! hahaha quite fun. Yay.




a moment in time.
02:12

Monday, January 01, 2007

http://www.promspot.com/ps_article.htm?Object=A30219104447&subchannel=PROM_YOUR_DATE

PROM DATES: 10 SIGNS SHE WANTS YOU TO ASK

Guys, listen up: This one's just for you. If you've ever wanted to ask a girl out but were too scared to ask, here's your chance. Pay close attention and you'll learn to decode the secret language girls use to say, "Go ahead and ask me. I'm interested." Here are 10 sure signs that she's into you.

1. She ignores you. Instead of being friendly and outgoing, a girl who likes you may ignore you altogether. The idea is that she's afraid you don't feel the same, so she'll reject you before you reject her. Your mission: Take the lead, start up a conversation, and see if she lets down her guard.

2. She fidgets. She's always messing with her hair and clothes when you're around. Why does she get so self-conscious? She's primping for you. Your best bet: Tell her she looks great!

3. She checks you out. If you catch her looking once, it's a coincidence. If you catch her looking twice, it's curiosity. If you catch her looking more than that, she's definitely angling for a prom invite.

4. She smiles at you in the hallway. In case you didn't know, straining all those smile muscles isn't easy -- most girls don't flash their pearly whites for just anyone.

5. She never misses an opportunity to laugh at your jokes. If she appreciates your sense of humor more than anyone else you know, it's not because she's easily amused -- she's trying to make a connection. But being funny will only get you so far. She wants to know that you have a serious side too.

6. She has a nickname for you. If she gives you a pet name or a nickname (a sign that she took the time to think of one), you're in! Consider her extra crazy about you if she uses this nickname loudly and in front of her pals.

7. She sits next to you in class -- every day. This is a definite sign that she wants to get to know you better. Even if she doesn't come right out and try to talk to you, her placement in the room is totally calculated.

8. She asks if you want to study together. Making excuses to hang out may be her way of guarding against rejection. If she asks you to study with her, chances are she just wants to spend some quality time. So while you're going over geometry, pop the prom question. Write it in her notes or just ask her straight out.

9. She cancels on her friends to hang out with you. It's sad but true -- you'd cancel plans with your pals to go out with her, right? It's a bummer for her buds, but a bonus for you!

10. She tells her friends she thinks you're cute. On a scale of 1 to 10, this is the most obvious sign that she likes you. If she's spreading the word, you must do a follow-up and ask her -- now.




LOL wth am i doing oO. i'm soooo bored. hahaha and those 10 things SUCK. girls do that all the time oO.


a moment in time.
19:08



Woah. I woke at 4pm today. That means I din’t go to church. oO. Err I was like eh it’s 4. lol and the house was empty. Ah well. Woooahh. I miss the wine! Hahaha I love it! I wanna border on being high and drunk again! It’s now 2007, so first things first.

HAPPY 2007 PEOPLE!!!

I was feeling super angsty last last night. After the party. I felt time slipping through my fingers. Sigh. So anyway, today. Went to church for the dinner and service. Yeah. and now I’m waiting for oyster omelette! Haha ok photos which were supposed to be in yesterday’s post.





a moment in time.
01:43


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DHS // 1K, 2K ; EDS
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