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Friday, September 29, 2006

Yes. I know I should be studying. But isn't this just AMUSING!!!

(images removed due to recent controversy) oO


a moment in time.
23:01



Are you not afraid of infatuation?

Should we not be adjusted for inflation?


a moment in time.
22:44



[ ] you have gotten F9 grades for math
EVERYTIME
[ ] you always do last minute homework in class
[x] you use your handphone to text your friends in
class
[x] you've got your phone confiscated before
[x] you listen to yourr mp3 or cd player in class
[ ] you sleep in class
[x] you curse at teachers
[ ] you are always late for extra classes
[x] you doodle on tables
[ ] you make out in class
[x] you are rebellious with some teachers
[ ] you always hand up work late
[ ] you make fun of the nerds and geeks.
[x] you have broken school rules
[ ] you seldom have the correct books
[ ] you don't take notes
[x] recess is your favourite part of
school
[x] you hang out after school
[ ] you lie to your teachers about homework
[ ] you lie to your parents about homework
[x] you have made someone cry in school
[x] you've copied homework
[ ] you've lied that you never received a piece of
work when you actually did
[ ] you laugh at the way some teachers
walk
[ ] you have been late a couple of times

44% bad in school.

Eh, actually not bad ah?

Shid. Better study now.

Anyway, the pracs were GOOD. Omg. Best chem prac ever! (I think. =S ) But the physics prac was SO WEIRD. I was oO when I saw the weird metre rule wire thing on the table. And I redrew the graph THREE times! Bleh.


a moment in time.
20:30

Thursday, September 28, 2006

You Are Mint Green

Balanced and calm, you have mastered the philosophy of living well.
Your friends seek you out for support, and you are able to bring stability to chaotic situations.
You're very open and cheerful - and you feel like you have a lot of freedom in life.
Your future may hold any number of exciting things, and you're ready for all of them!
What Color Green Are You?


You Are Impressionism

You think the world is quite beautiful, especially if you look at it in new and interesting ways.
You tend to focus on color and movement in art.
For you, seeing the big picture is much more important than recording every little detail.
You can find inspiration anywhere... especially from nature.
What Art Movement Are You?

So, tomorrow is the beginning of the end.

Good luck to everyone =)

The pracs should be ok. It’s like a sample of the real thing. Heh.

And to the poor people studying for their O’s good luck =)

To the juniors – enjoy it while it lasts =) jia you too

GO EVERYONE GO!!!

We’ll make it through. We will anyway. And don’t worry cos it’s still gonna end no matter what happens. Here we go. It’s the deep end now.


a moment in time.
20:39

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Don't you just looove indulgence?
Why am I feeling this?

Of all emotions, why this?

I dreamt of a time past.

“So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do”

How can everything seem so right, and just in the same day, fall apart?

Nope, I’m just being too sensitive again.

Silly old me.


a moment in time.
23:30

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Why does he keep lying to himself?

How can you deceive yourself?

Self-denial is a myth entrenched within our former selves.

I'll be your kryptonite.


a moment in time.
23:47



Look to the cross hanging on the wall.

He destroyed himself.

I watched as the memories fly by.

Of times so far away.

I reach out for them.

But I am merely grasping at thin air.


a moment in time.
23:15



I took over myself today. I indulged in every single selfish, self-centred, egoistical emotion I could. I became arrogant, brash, critical, selfish, individualistic, and whatever else. Thanks nic for snapping me out of it. And mum and dad too. Now I’m over it.

And yes, I DO need to study. To pass. But I decided not to go all out. Cos I’ve seen what happens to people when they go beyond their limit. They break down. Mentally, emotionally, physically and sometimes they don’t come back. That’s why I’m trying to maintain a balance here, cos excessive stress just destroys any prospect of doing well. Mind blocks are the worst effects. You sit there, and you know that you know what you have to write, but you just forget. Ahh. I got that during finals and I freaked out. But I do hate exams. We’ll have to find a better alternative some day.


a moment in time.
22:59



Don’t worry, be happy.

Cos crab cakes are the meaning of life.

Wikipedia says so.



a moment in time.
21:39

Monday, September 25, 2006

Indeed, history repeats itself.

Eh, just realised both of them have similar socio-economic, racial and gender statuses. COOL. Which one is it going to be in SI3:
"Will another guy be our next Singapore Idol?"
"Will another Malay be our next Singapore Idol?"

Will history repeat itself again?

HADY.

Although taufik is better I guess.

Well I stayed in school to study today. Which was actually more successful than at home cos I fall asleep at home. hahaha. I think I shall go back tmr. Hmm.


a moment in time.
21:44

Sunday, September 24, 2006

You Belong in Spring

Optimistic, lively, and almost always happy with the world...
You can truly appreciate the blooming nature of spring.
Whether you're planting flowers or dyeing Easter eggs, spring is definitely your season!
What Season Are You?


Today, I realised I’m in deep shid. I started math seriously today – on the practice exercises things. And I couldn’t do half of the questions. 1 quarter I made careless mistakes. And the last quarter I was surviving on the simple stuff. AHH. I need help from mr lam. My math is really cmi. Ah. So I sacrificed a day of ss. Bleh. AHH. How? =( math. sigh. I really hope I can pass this round. Bleh. Now I’m afraid of chem and math and bio and a lot of other stuff. All the subjects I rely on assignments to pull me through. I’m not even sure of lang arts and ss now. I’m only a bit more certain of physics and Chinese. But for physics, I haven’t listened in class since magnetism, and Chinese lao shi says it’ll be harder than usual.

So is this doom?

Is this the end of Mark?

Is this the end of a great empire?

Yet, I still have faith.

And faith will not let me down.

Faith conquers all fear.


a moment in time.
23:10

Saturday, September 23, 2006

Michelle complains to me that she doesn’t have any friends on myspace. So I just an account and it’s nothing revolutionary for me. But some of an amalgamation of all the stuff I’m familiar with: blogger, friendster, msn and more. And it’s pretty sad cos I have only 2 friends now: michelle and this tom guy who I assume to be the creator of myspace. I don’t think it’s that big in Singapore. Friendster is much more popular here haha. ah well. It’s quite fun though. I just added Westlife! LOL. so yeah, if anyone has myspace, add me.

This is your destiny.

http://www.myspace.com/markhsx

Hmm… anyway v13! Remember bio @ 8 – 9 on Monday!

Ohh. Traffic rankings. But so weird =S

http://www.alexa.com/data/details/main?q=&url=markhsx.blogspot.com


a moment in time.
23:54

Friday, September 22, 2006

You Should Drive a BMW

Refined and classy, you want a car that looks rich... and goes fast!
What Sports Car Should You Drive?


Hell yeah. BMW M3!!! Woo.

I don’t quite know.

The Silence.

And the joy I find everyday being with the people around me.

If I lay here.

If I just lay here.

How can it be? That He died for me?

I see the hope and glory every new day.

What will you say?

Do you know what to say to this?

I have found life.

There is so much love in my life.

I am lost in a world of my own.


a moment in time.
23:04



You Have Good Karma

In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others.
Your caring personality really shines through.
Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out.
But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots.
How's Your Karma?


You Passed 8th Grade Science

Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct!
Could You Pass 8th Grade Science?


HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIRUI =)

Haha so today I was running up and down trying to sort out the lessons. And I got the teachers to switch like 3 times. And involved v14. ahh. But at least we got to go early. Hope you guys are happy. Cos tomorrow we have to stay back and I hope today makes up for tomorrow. So anyway hahaha yay. went out for lunch and I decided shrimp paste fried rice is really nice =) and I fell asleep at the lib and got woken up by the librarian wah malu. And I borrowed need for speed again and I’m trying hard not to get hanged on it. I think I shall get my dad to return it tomorrow. Ah well. I guess I shall go sleep now.


a moment in time.
00:19

Wednesday, September 20, 2006


I wish I could hear your pain.

Why do they all stare into space // The sun was already rising // Why do we go on like this // What’s the point of all of this // My eyelids slowly falling // And there is no pain but yearning for rest // Amidst the piles of books and paper // I hear the empty voices with no meaning // They come and go // And I am born again into a world where the sun never sets // Always asleep // Struck by wishful thinking in a time so bleak


a moment in time.
22:21

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

And so today I figured that some of the shows my family gets together to watch are angsty, Korean/Asian romance dramas and/or Singaporean Chinese shows or comedies. Like today, I watched Sad Sonata over dinner. I think Korean dramas are some of the most formulaic shows. And possibly Asian romantic drama series as well (Like the one we watched till the end – Green Light Forest)





ANDDDD i'm bored.


a moment in time.
23:20



You Are Incredibly Logical

Move over Spock - you're the new master of logic
You think rationally, clearly, and quickly.
A seasoned problem solver, your mind is like a computer!
How Logical Are You?

Hahaha. Yeah man. It's quite fun. Ohh. I think I might go take MENSA's iq test after the exams. It's probably the most recognised one. They never gave us our gep test results. I wish they had. I wonder how I did. Ah well. So zh was right. Couldn't finish bio in one day. As in I did, of course. But I only read through. And it's just the concepts floating around. But argh how will I study for bio! Cousin's wedding on Sunday! omg. Oh I'm actually quite happy with my ca2 marks. But chem and bio and ss haven't got back yet. Argh. And I guess lang arts and chinese weren't up to standard. But math and physics have been amazing for me so far. Especially since I screwed up all but one of the math quizzes. Ahh. Omg I'm dreading chem.

Exams start next week! =(

Gosh. I can't wait for this to be over. I'm making a list of stuff to do after the exams so whenever I feel stressed or upset abt the exams, I'll look at it and hopefully, feel happier.

Jia you everyone.

I'm still gonna take it easy. No point stressing myself out when I don't even see a point in exams. And I pity those who mug so hard. Maybe my marks won't be as high as if I had mugged, but I know I can actually still live a life and enjoy some part of this. HAHA.

Yeah.


a moment in time.
00:04

Sunday, September 17, 2006



And ain't it true.


a moment in time.
23:34



Is there going to be a new holy war?
The Pope.

How do we find the faith? How can we?
The chosen people of God are turning against him.

What is our purpose in life?
The Matrix.

oO.

`Watched Prince of Egypt today
"there can be miracles, when you believe"
`Watched Matrix Reoladed today
"without purpose, we would not exist."
` Sorry for the misunderstanding
"misunderstandings arise from assumptions made wrong."

When you people read my blog, don't take the first impression. Because although it may be compelling to use first impressions to judge an entity, the assumptions that arise from it might be destructive. Things are never what they seem. Only some people know me well enough. And as I found out today, they can misunderstand me too. So maybe no one knows me well enough. No one knows everything about another person I guess. We all have our secrets. So yeah. Sorry.


a moment in time.
22:05

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Your Life Is Worth...

$1,342,500
How Much Is Your Life Worth?


Cool, how they measure your life. I watched 2 movies today. Yes, I've been studying too. But shid, at this rate, I won't be able to finish ss AND math in one day. i'm 1/3 through ss. for one day. ah well. Anyway hmm. On the line is about a guy who meets his dream girl on the train but forgets to get her no. and goes on trying to find her and his friends do lots of crazy stuff and destroys everything but in the end he doesn't give up and gets the girl. With an amazing end. Where there are billboards everywhere asking her to forgive him. Cos he's an adman. And these are huge billboards, the kind in Chicago. Lol. It's super sweet. =)

"Family man is a bit like Click. Makes you reflect on life. The high life as a rich playboy, or the middle-class man with a loving family? I know my parents gave up on the high life. Maybe not that high, but something more financially fulfilling. Our family income is around 10-20 times less than what we had 5 years ago, and it's fluctuating cos my dad doesn't have a fixed salary like before, and isn't a manager anymore. And sometimes I wish we were richer, more flamboyant, that kinda stuff, like before, when I could spend on anything I wanted and we'd go to faraway places and go overseas at least 4 times a year. It gets to me. But then I think to myself, that my parents made a sacrifice for me. They went down the career ladder. My mum stayed at home to take care of me instead of becoming a businesswoman. They both cut down on their jobs to become counsellors to help people who really need someone. That's why I respect them, that's why I love them. And I'm learning, trying, to be a more filial son because they deserve more than that. What they have chosen might not have made my life worth $1,342,500 in cold hard cash, but much more than that in retrospect.

Haha ok I'm being bored. Should go back to ss.


a moment in time.
17:54

Friday, September 15, 2006

You know you better start mugging when your TEACHER tells SPECIFICALLY you to. Shid. Ahh. MOTIVATION.


a moment in time.
23:06



“You're taking this quiz when you really should be doing something else.”

AHAHA.

You Are 16% Slacker

You are anything but a slacker. You're truly a go getter.
You never let laziness get in the way of living your life - and you can't stand to see it in others.
Are You a Slacker?


“What’s the point of showing your emotions?” someone once asked me.

Why should I hide how I feel? While most people went home to mug, I stayed back to sort out the whole prom table arrangement thing. And it was really fucked up. As in seriously. So much politics in our class and it actually stressed me out more than the exams. I feel almost glad to be moving on next year. I never thought I could feel this way. And I find that some of the people I thought I could trust, could believe and put my faith in, are actually just the very hypocrites. Sometimes I get scared that I’m a hypocrite myself. And yes I am. Sometimes I put on a façade, and tell myself that it’s better for everyone if I’m happy. But at least I don’t go around lying or intentionally hide stuff from people when I know it concerns them. Ok I should stop bitching. So I got it out of my system. Sorry.

"What if the world were a little more perfect
Would you stop crying or would you take the leap
What if the world were a little more perfect
Would you open your eyes and blink again for me"


Thanks lis. Anyway low came over and we talked. Haha about exams and stuff. And omg mrs koh told her that my chem is disappointing! Like “aiyoh… mark’s chem is *sigh* “ omg that means I die! =( and low says the prac saved our marks, especially me. ahh. And yes I failed every bio test. Sorry ms low. LOL then we were talking abt next year and backpacking and other random stuff. Omg I think it’s damn cool to go backpacking. I’ll try it one day, to revisit London or some other Anglophone city/country. OMG I CAN’T WAIT FOR THE EXAMS TO BE OVER!!! Omg. Anyway it’ll be fast. The pain is a quick pain. Intense but short. And it’ll be over. And on Tuesday I’ll be singing with mad joy. AHAHAHAHA. I’m so looking forward to Tuesday. And I’m going out on Tuesday and Wednesday yay.


a moment in time.
21:29

Thursday, September 14, 2006


I shouldn't have written my lang arts notes in that notebook. The one with the cute black animals. Which everyone likes. But now I hate it. It was the book from the same period as now last year. It chronicles the whole pre-post exam period last year. And it's serving the wrong purpose. Not because of the exam stuff. Because of a deeper meaning.

"...because the girl you really like is the girl who is right in front of you..." oO

HAHAHA dots. and guess who told me that. dumbass! so long ago. LOL. we were in parkway that day. hahaha.


a moment in time.
23:58



The past 3 days have been interesting. The beginning of a new term. But this time it’s been less spectacular than ever. And the holidays didn’t even seem like holidays. I was working everyday, going out, or being busy. So the serious mugging has begun. I don’t get what others mean by serious mugging. But if serious mugging is really going through all e questions and notes and starting to memorise, then I haven’t started. I’m going through the big picture sort of stuff now, just to get the general ideas as a buffer. heh. I have no idea if this will work, but it’s much less stress than “serious mugging”.

Today was cool. hahaha so during ss, toh din’t come in. so while everyone was chionging chem I had nothing to do. So I tried to study lang arts but in e end I went around kaypohing and disturbing people then in the end went back to my group and we talked lol. pe was cok la. Soccer. Heh. supposed to be floorball. Bio was fine. Chem was cool! haha I love qa. It’s like the funnest part of chem. mixing chems and seeing what’s happening. Instead of all the crap theory. Heh. so stayed around after sch for a while with people. Then wah was so bored. Sigh. Shall try and read some lang arts now.


a moment in time.
23:14



I want to feel the rush of the wind in my hair. Hear the roar of power breaking through the speed of sound. Up in skies blue, roaming the clouds of a world untouched. So swiftly that dust is pierced. Pulling up and feeling the skies take over me. Seeing the ground get nearer and nearer. The thrill of the last moment. Spiralling into the heavens once again. I want to fly like the wind.

We could be more than just amazing.


a moment in time.
00:02

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Still I find comfort in your silence.

I said I’d start mugging today. Turns out I haven’t. at least I got my study plan done! Hope to start the chem worksheet thing in a few minutes. I just feel like being quiet for a while and just think about everything that’s troubling me. And these things will fade away into the rest of the night. All the little things in life that don’t even matter. But I was just thinking, that there’ve been so many choices I made wrong. And I’m afraid. Of the exams, yes, also because my results haven’t been up to standard. But worse, I’m afraid I’m becoming the very person I hate. Yet I’ll stand strong, in faith. And I resolved to be happier. Not for myself, but for everyone else. Why add on to the burdens of others when they have enough? Yupp. So yeah, let’s get these days over week. And my motivation is the is the hope that after the exams, everything’s going to fall back in place, everything’s not just going to be fine, it’s gonna be great =) maybe just like before. That’s just hope. But what is there to live for if one has no hope? Dream on people, because dreaming’s all that’s worth living for.

You’re like a kite flown away.

So let's just leave it at that.

We'll get on with our lives.

The memories stashed in a box.

Tongues of fire flickering around it.

So let's just leave it at that.


a moment in time.
23:14

Monday, September 11, 2006

And so the two biggest projects of the year are done. WOOT. SIP and RM. RM finished yesterday when I took the pages down to be binded. SIP finished when I took the pages down to the bookshop to be binded. Actually I like to think it finished at 4am. Because when Pamela was rational enough to go sleep, I was like gone up there. Spurred on by a surreal combination of a stream of consciousness termed Russell Peters, Hayley Westenra and a dreamlike subconscious that took over me, I finished the essay and the cover page like a clockwork orange, whilst the whole block was silent, the sound of crickets chirping deafened by the nighttime silence. My eyes closed, briefly noticing the sky already brightening to a brand new day. A moment of silence as the world respects the heroes and the dead of that fateful day.





The deafening crashes that smothered the voices of a city that never sleeps. Shockwaves that spread from the epicentre, to the rest of the world. People, hand in hand, unified through adversity, face the enemy with courage and sanguinity. The lights of a million candles, glowing in the darkness of a world torn by terror. The voices of a million songs sung as one. A nation strengthened in faith and hope. We will never forget. Never forget the day the world changed. I saw the tears of a million people. Cries of pain and sorrow from 5 years past. As I turned the pages I saw bravery, strength, hope, optimism, faith, acceptance. And I woke as rays of light pierced through my eyelids.







Haha today was a cool day. But very weird la. By 2pm the class was almost empty besides some random guys. And we talked some about race and religion since naz’s sip is Islamophobia. And I just can’t understand why Islam and Christianity consider themselves so different and even hostile when we believe in the same God. Hmm.



And I have decided that today’s movement is no longer Postmodernism. There is a new movement emerging, maybe a subset of Postmodernism, which I have termed Neotechnoism. Just as Modernism was characterised by the rise of new physics, this new age is characterised by the advent of the new Internet. I have identified four new technological movements/undertakings that has led us into a new age of the Internet, no longer limited to viewing text and images in a browser – instant messaging, blogs, video hosting and social network services.


a moment in time.
23:59

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Your Personality Cluster is Extraverted Intuition

You are:

A true wordsmith - a master of words
Original, spontaneous, and a true inspiration
Highly energetic, up for any challenge
Entertaining and engaging, both to friends and strangers
What's Your Personality Cluster?


Omg I wanna visit San Seriffe! It’s better than the Caribbean’s or Mauritius! The beaches there are beautiful.

http://wikitravel.org/en/San_Serriffe


a moment in time.
23:03



Oh! I forgot to celebrate my 1600th post. ahahaha. anyway i realised my parents can actually read my blog now that they'e got this laptop. argh. anyway hmm church was good today. as in every week is good, but i felt today's service was very meaningful to me and right on time. zhu hou ren (the old actor guy who plays the bad guy) preached and testified today. there were a few points i thought were applicable to me:

Yay.



a moment in time.
14:25



You Are 40% Feminine, 60% Masculine

You are in touch with your masculine side.
You are not overly sensitive and not easily moved.
Occasionally, though, something will get through and touch your heart!
Are You Masculine or Feminine?

Haha. so we really had too much info for sip. But I used every source! So that must be… nice? Anyway I spent the day on SIP. Which I should have done earlier. But anyway I got more sources today. And argh I sent the thingy to pam then I just realised there’s quite a lot of stuff I wanna add ah well.

So… what’s not done (or homework yet to be done):
This is just for my own reference sorry. Cheers to all the muggers. I have not joined your ranks.


a moment in time.
01:37

Saturday, September 09, 2006

This was created to annoy teenagers and gratify adults.

But today, my comrades, we turn the tide.

http://www.metro.co.uk/weird/article.html?in_article_id=14031&in_page_id=2

And guess who has it!

http://web.vjc.moe.edu.sg/students/v05v13_hengsxm/teenbuzz.mp3

But gosh. It's fking piercing. So please, don't use it in class. It's worse than the screeeeeeeching of chairs.


a moment in time.
21:52



I wish there were a machine:

Input: what's the homework --> Process: research, compilation, report-writing, concluding --> Output: TADAAAA!!!! RESEARCH ESSAY!

dreams.


a moment in time.
13:07

Friday, September 08, 2006

http://www.overheardinnewyork.com/

Tourist #1: Can you take our picture?
Young man: Sure.

Tourists put on "Chinese" hats and make their eyes slanty by pulling at the corners.

Tourists: Ching, chow, chey, high-ya!
Young man: I'm not sure you should do that.
Tourist #1: Do you think they know we're making fun of them?
Young man: Nooo...I bet they think it's just what crazy Europeans do when taking pictures.

Young man hands back camera and walks away quickly.

Young man to friend: That was so offensive I think it was funny.

--Chinatown

LOLOL



Don’t blame me for copying from friendster.

6 signs you're falling for someone

1-as soon as you get online
whos name do you look at first

2-when you hear your phone ringing
- who do you hope it is calling

3-when a love song comes on the radio
- whos face comes to your mind

4-whos name makes your heart
skip a beat every time you hear it

5-who is it that you always find yourself thinking about
- wondering if they're thinking about you

6-the whole time you were reading this bulletin,
there was only one person on your mind.....

LOLOL


a moment in time.
23:55



Arghhhh. So I think I’m the only person in class who hasn’t started studying. Arhh. Ah well. I’ll start soon. I wanna finish all my homework and projects (SIPSIPSIPSISPSIIOSISOISJSJKBSS) first. So today I tried to do the essay, but I couldn’t cos we’ve got too much info and research. Arghhh and so now I’m trying to think of how it’d go. anyway I’m waiting for pam to be done hahaha. So I spent the day cleaning up my com table and sorting out my cupboard. And looking at old stuff. Postcards and pics and stuff. Ah well. Hahaha shid la I hope can finish sip on time. Not just finish, but do it well also. Go pam! Go me! whee.


a moment in time.
01:22

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Be still, my soul. (thanks yr.)

Few people here know Ruben Studdard released a gospel album that went on to be #1 on Billboard. And it is today that I have found sanctuary amidst all the stress and projects and work and people shouting at me, all the people putting me down, all the pain and self-pity, because I have found myself to be selfish. Thinking for myself, not for others. And that is the sole reason I have put myself through all this pain. I’m trying to change myself. I just hope I can. Because “if you wanna make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and then make the change” and I maybe I have gone too far away from You this time, but I’m coming back, step by step, like a baby taking it’s first steps again, and I pray for strength and guidance. I will not be afraid.

"I've run out of answers
I've run out of time
I'm so confused that I'm losing my mind
It's gonna take a miracle to help me this time
I'm traveling a road that has not one sign

Help me, have mercy for me
Set my soul free
And let the bell in my heart ring, oh
This my cry, hey, this is my plea you see

I'm carrying a load that's too heavy for me
I've nowhere to go so I'm down on my knees
I'm tryin to see the forest, but there's this one tree
I can't understand why I'm sinking so deep

Help me, have mercy
Won't you have mercy
Set my soul free
And let the bell in my heart ring
Oooohh, this my cry mmm, this is my plea

I need an angel, callin' an angel
Send me an angel down

Oh something inside of me, tellin me the morning will come (morning will come), yes it will
sometimes it's hard to face the truth so we run (we run)
God if you care at all please don't let me fall by the wayside, oh no
Please be my guide , would you light my path ( light my path)

Take me, shape me, mold me , change me, teach me, fill me, save me"


So now's the time for me to make amends. First of all, sorry to everyone that I've hurt, to everyone I've accused of hurting me. Because all this while, I've been hurting myself. And I pray for everyone, all of you, to find happiness. Because everyone needs happiness in their life. =)


a moment in time.
00:32

Wednesday, September 06, 2006





and i'm coming back...


a moment in time.
01:21

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

"Hold on,
But don't hold on too tight.
Let go,
It's gonna be all right.
Don't run away from what your heart is saying.
Be stong,
Face what you're afraid of.
Come on,
Show 'em what you're made of.
I know it's hard when your hope is gone,
But you gotta keep holding on.


You're hear a voice that's calling,
And it's telling you to make a change.
It's time to fly,
And say goodbye,
And move on to a better place.

You know you gotta take the first step,
To get to where you wanna be.
Just get on track,
And don't look back,
'Cos it's the only way that you're gonna be free..
"

Thank you for that. =)

So now I know I'm beginning to get somewhere. All this self-pity and misery isn't gonna do any good, it just makes things awkward, makes things worse. Why be sad when I can be happy? And so today, when I felt happy despite what I heard, I realised that I've learnt to move on. And it's thanks to you. Telling me everytime. So I'm sorry I din't listen before. And you were right, you've always been, but I've just been selfish all this while, and I guess, like you said, too possessive. That's what destroyed everything, it's not your fault, it's mine, so I'm gonna make amends or at the least let it be and see where we go. And so, thanks =) I hope you're happy too. I always wish for you to be happy =)

I don't have the strength to tell you this face to face, and I guess you know who you are. Quite obvious. Since you are the one who sent me that song. And listening to it brings back nice memories, but it's time to move on. Let them remain memories and that's how I'll get somewhere. But don't forget me. Cos I won't forget you. And I'll be there for you. Especially when you need me. And when everybody's too busy for you, I won't. Yupp. I'll be there. =)


a moment in time.
23:59



You do it to yourself.
That’s why it really hurts.

So I don’t know what to believe now. Who to trust, who to believe. That’s why it’s all so confusing, especially when you can’t be sure that what you thought you knew was true. Might as well let it all go, and start all over again. It’s hard to forget, even painful, hurtful, whatever. But if it’s going to be more painful to hold on, then I guess we should just let everything go, and try not to think about it. And maybe we’ll see each other again. We don’t even need to be close. Because to you, we never were. No matter what you told me, it’s what you truly felt that matters. And so you’ve been kind, trying to protect me from myself, but you couldn’t keep it up. No one could. So I don’t blame you for holding that façade. And I’m glad I’m finally learning to let go. Don’t chase after me, because I won’t be turning back.


It’s always been my fault. So I’m sorry for putting you through this. We’ll go our separate ways, start anew. Thank you. =)

Another long day. Sip in the morn w pam till lunch hahaha ate at pastamania then shopped a bit. Went to the airport to mug with jastine xtine nic ch and guess who was the only one who din’t hit the books. Arghh everyone’s putting so much stress on me!!! hahaha then we went around and I got green tea mooncake! =)) haha delicious =) and soft and hmm… nice. Hahahaha. We had dinner at the canteen, where I got my usual. Grilled catfish fillet, coconut drink and kaya toast. Then slacked around at e viewing mall till 830. then suddenly, as we guys were leaving the toilet, ch received an sms from koh. “hmm.. what are you doing at the airport” then he smsed me too. then we were like wth. Then we found him LOL. wth la damn freaky la. I hope teachers aren’t like Big Brothers. Then I took 27 w tine home. haha.


a moment in time.
23:14



List up to ten things you want to say to ten different people in no particular order. Do not state who these people are.
1. Listen to me, and I will tell you the truth about life.
2. I wish you knew how I’m feeling now
3. Thanks for being there for me, each and every time =)
4. I miss you more than you know!
5. I haven’t forgotten we’re supposed to go out with her! Call me when you’re free!
6. I’m glad I found you =)
7. Don’t let me face this world alone =)
8. Is the oxy working?
9. God will make a way, when there seems to be no way
10. Let us watch the shooting stars together =)


Yes, I will tell you the truth.

Hahahaha today long day la. So I got up and had breakfast with my family (first time in damn long la) hahahah mmm dim sum with kaya toast! Hahaha then to school for sip and there were ALREADY ppl in class lol. so ya. Sip. Loll PAMELAAAAA why you never come online! =( ok nvm. I hope we can finish sip on time. AND do it well. Lol

Gosh everyone’s being bored now! LOL.

Anyway haha lang arts lectures. Haha I find the downside to typing is that you can’t draw nice lines and diagrams without wasting time. Sigh. But hmm yay finally I can be perfectionist. Doncha love tech. Then had a light tinner/dea with naz and ch hahahah at kfc stupid la. I HAD to. I HAD to. The smell. The AROMA. The lingering, succulent BREASTS. Oh gosh. So juicy. Hahaha I love kfc’s chicken skin la. Wahhh. And they had to drag me then. Then we spent 2 hours there. LOL then walked around to gramophone yay. Haha. Then home.

Let us watch the shooting stars together =)


a moment in time.
00:43

Sunday, September 03, 2006

You Are a Life Blogger!

Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary.
If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible.
What Kind of Blogger Are You?


I’ll never be good enough for you.

You eyes are laid on someone else.

I will never be good enough.



a moment in time.
20:21






I still feel the breeze sending shivers through my spine. The sound of cars and big red buses on a lazy summer afternoon. A whiff of fresh fish and chips, clouded by the smell of the flowing river. I can still make out the laughter and joy in the atmosphere, the bright blue skies and the green glow of fields virgin. The soft music of a legacy gone by. Moonlight shining on the pavement as I watch passers-by, from my bed, above the street where streetlamps hide passion. I write a tale of heavy emotions, hearing. Shadows descend upon me, with just a glint of light, I glimpse at figures rushing by. The sound of an ice cream truck, silent bells, making its way home. The monochrome tint of nighttime. The stark vermillion velvet of evenings. Brick walls veil the chaste secrets of a time past. From towers hanging high, the panorama of lands without a horizon. Walking down the streets of a land too far away. Hearing the incessant chatter of a people still caught in their own empires, built from the grains of time. The smell of tea and scones beside the park. Stiff marches of soldiers with nothing to guard, shouting commands to nobody, yet everybody watches them, their sleek boots and menacing rifles. The sound of cannons fired from before. Wide open plains in a country untouched by darkness. Timeless spires that chime tunes of a great nation. Rivers that flow, drifting along just as memories do. I still remember. I will never forget.


a moment in time.
00:50





Cos no one can.

You Are From Mercury

You are talkative, clever, and knowledgeable - and it shows.
You probably never leave home without your cell phone!
You're witty, expressive, and aware of everything going on around you.
You love learning, playing, and taking in all of what life has to offer.
Be careful not to talk your friends' ears off, and temper your need to know everything.
What Planet Are You From?


You've Experienced 36% of Life

You have the life experience of someone in their early 20s.
You've seen some of what life has to offer - but you have a long ways to go.
How Much Life Experience Do You Have?


Family3!!! Went with my parents and my pastor and his wife. Lol. Hahaha great job to zhi quan (OUR GREAT LEADER) and his team. Seems like the response was better than your guys had expected. And woah. spent like $50 there. Anyway hahaha. Stupid air rifle game. The first shot was ok, then the others were like plop plop plop. Hahaha. Anyway I still got this dog thing. Then Justin tan came to us and we talked and talked. Then we went off to the rsaf open house. And it’s huge. Woahhh. Hahahah I’m not as fascinated as before I guess. The youth flying club guy asked me to join as early as possible. So I guess it’s now or never (October I mean). i pwned the ace combat competition. Haha first time playing and after a while I just flew, locked on, and fired off 2 then manoeuvred by a roll and a twist out of the vulnerable position so they never knew what hit them. And I’m just pro. HAHAHAHAH. Yay I love flight sims.

Stayed around for the 5pm aerial display. WOO. Hahaha gosh I really hope I can fly up there one day. Really touch the sky. =)

I felt like going to ikea for dinner. So we did. Haha went around a bit. And had dinner. A plate of smoked herring (with weird, strong sauces), cream of chicken, meatballs, choco almond cake! =) yay. Then I bought a cute turtle thing. And some black caviar. Mmm. I haven’t opened it yet. Ah well. Yay.

Love is just a one way street.


a moment in time.
00:23

Saturday, September 02, 2006

If You Were Born in 2893...

Your Name Would Be: Umori Enm

And You Would Be: A Prophet
If You Were Born in 2893


You Are Banana Pocky

Your attitude: fun and lighthearted
Unique and unforgettable
You are cutie everyone falls for
What Flavor Pocky Are You?


Ok it’s 1:30 now. 1.5 hours past teacher’s day. So this goes out to all the teachers who (still) lurk at my blog. HAPPY TEACHER’S DAY!!! Thank you for all the patience you have for us (esp me) and all the catchphrases and crazy stuff you guys say, and most of all, the dedication to your students. Here’s a Subjectif post just for you.

http://blog.vjc.sg/2006/09/01/happy-teachers-day/

So today, the first day of the hols, was spent slacking, sleeping, talking on the phone abt SIP with pam for more than half an hour, rm (until now, and still doing). And I’m tired. So that’s about it. Sigh.


a moment in time.
01:46

Friday, September 01, 2006

You Are Lilac

You are a very innocent and pure person. Ethics matter to you.
Your friends consider you a great listener, and you often play therapist to your friends.
You are good at drawing out truths in conversation, however painful they may be.
Non judgmental and patient - people feel like they can tell you anything!
What Color Purple Are You?


Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world.
And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly.

Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life.
You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful.

You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person.
With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!
What's Your Element?


Hahahaha today was special for 3 reasons:

XINHUI’S BIRTHDAY!!! =) HAPPY SWEET 16TH Xh!!! =)
Teacher’s day celebratns
Last day of term 3

Hahaha quite a fun day. Rather surreal actually. Lol. so there was the concert. Haha the first part was good la. The switch of fashions. The vids. Then the bands came on and one was totally like oO. The last one. we all know which one. haha ah well. Then hmm. Stayed back for quite a long while to do rm. Then went back to shps. But dint see the teachers cos everyone was at mcd already so I joined them there. And I think this is the most complete gathering we’ve had in a while hahahaha then after slacking at mcd for a long while, we got onto 293 then dropped one stop later. Gosh. So we went to ama’s house and watched bollywood. Then played bball w sb, yh, samlow, wq, abel. Lol!

As I was walked back, then opened the door into the silent house, and went in for my bath, I was thinking some stuff. Haha.

I never realised who my true friends are until recently. They are the ones who stick with you throughout the years, never breaking apart, standing the test of time. You know they care for you, even when they don’t say it. Because actions speak louder than words. They are the ones who can see your heart and your soul, see right through you, break through your façade and know the very emotions you are feeling, despite what you are trying to show. They are the ones who know you’re down even when you seem to be happy, and do something to cheer you up. They are the ones who still wait for your calls after all these years. They are the ones who still stick with you through all these years even though they know you inside out – all your flaws, all your blemishes, all your faults and weaknesses. They are the old friends who are still friends that care for you without being physically there for you. They are the new friends who care for you even though you’ve only known each other for a short time. They are there for you when you need them.

I hope I have been an equally worthy friend. Thank you. You make life worth living.


a moment in time.
00:20


face to face

Mark Heng // markhsx
26.05.90 // Gemini
Christian // Church of Singapore
Singapore // Tampines
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DHS // 1K, 2K ; EDS
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