_colour my life_ my monologue

Tuesday, September 30, 2003

although i've covered all the text in the notes, i think i'm going too fast. maybe it won't go into my brain so easily if i do this repitition thing. but i have no choice, i'm, already halfway through it. i hope it works. it should. i took minutes to plan out my study plan. and its the first plan i've ever had. but i guess because i have all the stuff in like temporary memory, it should last till the exams, and it will just pop out from the back of my mind. yeah. its all based on luck from now on. and prayer. and blind faith.

a moment in time.
21:51

how can you actually say anything when even a minor comment is treated as an insult, arrogant statement, that you're bragging or that you're ignorant and stupid? what have i done wrong again? i try to be good and then i make a mistake that i'm not even aware of, then everything is gone. i can't even say anything nowadays. i shall just try to shut up. became like ying xian, bing huan etc.

a moment in time.
21:43

discrimination. insults. hatred. isolation. holocaust. alone. loneliness. stress. pressure. loveless. loner. loser. tease. dislike. abandoned. outcast. doubt. stupid. failure. hopeless. gone. gone forever. would that make you happy? cast away to the mountains. would that bring you relief?

a moment in time.
21:11

Monday, September 29, 2003

i changed the music from a midi of "if i let you go" to a wma of my fave song, "if your heart's not in it". it'll take a while longer to download, approximately 1.5 mb, but i think it's nicer and stuff. there's some weird error with it, the autostart does not work. so i guess if you want to have music you have to press the play button. you should press play after about 15 seconds it has downloaded.

a moment in time.
21:40

look. i won't talk anything about my "girlfriend" coming back from malaysia. it'll just cause more speculation, disgrace and insults. to me. so anyway, today, we got back lots of english stuff today. and i failed the pirates compre. boohoo. i did worse than usual for that one. my other stuff were either good or ok.

we ate at macdonalds at kallang. the service there was not as good as the one as kallang carpark. then darren bought this sick bubble tea drink. something about green apple red tea. at first i thought it was red apple green tea, which i guess isn't too bad, but this red tea thing was sick. it tasted like ginger tea. to me, that is. nicole said that it was not fit for human consumption. i only took one sip, and threw it away after darren gave it to me. he said that he thought he would get a tummyache. amanda was more reactive to sick substances, so she got a tummyache before all of us. nicole was saved. she was the "smart" one. she didn't drink any of it.

grace, vivian and another girl which i think might have been "xyz" girl, were on the train when we got there. i don't why grace and everybody else finds me annoying. i don't know what i've done. so a note to those out there: if you know, please tell me, so i can change.

after amanda, nicole and grace tried to give me that test about me staying whereever they went, i decided to ignore them and went to challenger to look for a flight sim that was up to my level. i've already completed most of the missions in my other flight sims. so i think it's time to get a new one. microsoft's flight simulator 2004: a century of flight seems to be quite a good one. but my computer will run only at the required speed, which is too slow. i guess i'll get a new game with my new comp, if i'm ever going to get one.

i started my 3rd round of repitition study. geog and eng (1) again. geog is boring, except maps. i like maps. oh well. i guess i've already bored you to tears, so i'll just get lost now.

a moment in time.
20:45

Sunday, September 28, 2003

i think i'll be keeping my mouth shut for now. its better to say nothing then to say something that offends anyone. look at the p6gep board and you can see why i'd rather keep quiet. its so hard to please everyone.

a moment in time.
19:53

Saturday, September 27, 2003

lalala, another one:

Mark the Broccoli-Eating Pirate Monkey
Battle Rating : 8.3

vs

Ernest the Pizza-Eating Jungle Monkey
Battle Rating : 4.5

Mark wins!

a moment in time.
20:41

from the surrealist. yet again:

Mark is a Tiny Dragon that breathes Fire, lives Underwater, is Cold-Blooded, and has Webbed Feet.

Strength: 1
Agility: 9
Intelligence: 9

Seng Teck is a Giant Blob that fears the Military, carries a Ray Gun, fires Rockets, has Webbed Feet, and eats Nuclear Waste.

Strength: 10
Agility: 1
Intelligence: 2

a moment in time.
20:38

went for wedding today. lunch was really nice, especially the prawns. for most of the day i studied. studying is boring, but not when you do it with your computer on. :D you can tell i didn't get much into my brain.

a moment in time.
20:22

from the surrealist:

Mark Heng Shu Xun
adj. stolen.
"I'm feeling Mark Heng Shu Xun tonight, Jackie."

a moment in time.
20:21

Friday, September 26, 2003

yay!!! i finished studying every subject 1 minute ago. but next week im repeating everything again to hammer it into my brain. thsi is my new study method. it's called repitition. i hope it works.

a moment in time.
23:44

since the last post was boring, ill just add the part about munyi nearly murdering me. yay. she was playing with the volleyball at the side of the road, and missed her shot, bounce or something. it dropped just beside me and rolled onto the road. i went into a leap of faith onto the road. ok. not a leap. a hop. fine. a step. whatever you call it, i moved onto the road. it was at this time a big truck thingy came rushing down the road, horning its horn. i grabbed the ball and jumped back onto the pavement just as teh truck went pass me. that is the story of how munyi nearly killed me. with courtesy from munyi.

a moment in time.
21:32

the MOE psychological test thing was quite easy at first, but then it ended up with questions in which i just guessed the answer and went on to other questions. we went to changi airport. yay. i studied animal farm, ate mashed potato, buttermilk biscuit and a tiger roll. today was boring. i got nothing better to do but blog about it, so i'm sorry it's such a boring entry. i know i can talk all day long about amanda's passion for zhi wen, or eugene's flirting methods, but if i did that, most people would say i'm lame. and i don't want that to happen again. so i might as well finishign off my studying for this week. and the last subject is chinese. :-(

a moment in time.
20:08

Thursday, September 25, 2003

yay. i have officially five internet browsers. internet explorer 6.0, netscape 7.1, mozilla 1.5, mozilla firebird 0.6.1 and kazaa lite 2.4.1. hooray. tomorrow's my last day of study. hooray. but only for the week. next week is the real studying, and next next week is the exam week. i hope its all over soon. i hope i do well. god help us all.

a moment in time.
22:33

Wednesday, September 24, 2003

i added music to my blog. at first it was fool again, but then the midi version sucked, so i took the much better midi version of if i let you go.

a moment in time.
20:05

yay. i didn't fail history. i did quite well, at least that's what miss lai said. yay.

a moment in time.
20:00

Tuesday, September 23, 2003

i failed science. :-( it's the first test i failed this year. and i don't think i did too well for the history test too, from the sound of it. boohoo. i was really feeling depressed. yeah. but at least this time i didnt try to kill myself.

we went to changi airport again, this time to study. i managed to study some history despite the "distractions". i thought it was impossible to study properly in a group, but today i found out different. yay. i watched a few planes take off and land. i ate a tiger-roll. i played 10 games of snake II. yay. but we didn't take the sky-train. :-(

i studied history in 1 hour. every single history note in one hour. wow. i took 3 hours for geoggie yesterday. then i tried out the "world of our own" cd sam gave me. its good. yay. "if your heart's not in it" is good. and the whole thing is good. i like westlife. as i told nicole, "westlife is the only group that makes songs which caters to my feelings". thats why i like them.

i hope i did better than i expected for history.

a moment in time.
21:49

Monday, September 22, 2003

i started final exam studying today. english part one and geography is done. i'm going on a lake lucerne wallpaper rampage. yay.

a moment in time.
20:53

Sunday, September 21, 2003

my profile has links. yay.

a moment in time.
21:42

Saturday, September 20, 2003

i wish people would stop asking me to download stuff for them. why don't they download kazaa and do it themselves? whats the difference?

a moment in time.
22:55

note: the tag-board is not rated pg-13. it's rating can even go up to r(a). i only want to control what i say, not what others say.

today was boring. i did maths homework. i tried to find the hotel which i stayed in at luncerne which is in switzerland. i found out where it was by using the photos i took there. the hotel is called "hotel rigi". yay. basically all i did today was explore swiss websites and do maths homework. so it's really boring and i don't need to blog anymore.

a moment in time.
21:36

school was not too good today. we had two tests, science and english. as this is boring, i will not talk about it. after school, me, amanda, nicole, darren, yuhui, audrey and yun yuan went to kfc. we ate for a while, talked for a while, yay. then we went to the mrt. but it was still early. we were trying to decide where to go. i suggested bugis junction, and we were already heading for there, but then we stopped by tanah merah, and then eventually decided to go to changi airport.

the airport's mrt station seemed like some kind of futuristic space station. it's all either metallic or frosted glass. compared to other stations, it was some kind of architectural miracle. now there were only me, amanda, darren, yuhui and audrey left. we walked around, bought some cakes and went to the viewing mall. it was so fun. we just sat there and talked while watching airplanes land and take-off.

then yuhui wanted to take the skytrain, which turned out to be a good idea. darren decided that amanda have been deprived of her childhood after he foudn out that she had never known what a skytrain was and also never sat in one. what a pity. but at least she found out. after 13 years. 13 years of no skytrain. the skytrain was my very first experience of sitting on a train, about 4 years old or something. it is something every kid in singapore has known of. except amanda. poor thing. but anyway, we rushed to the front seat with the glass panel like the chlidish way we did years ago. after 2 rounds, we found it to be boring already, so we got off. then we went home. going to the airport with my friends has been one of my hidden dreams for many years. and today, my dream has been fulfilled.

i went for dinner with my auntie and family at changi village. 2 big fishies, a plate of butter prawns, a plate of vegs, an omelette and a coconut. i was really full. but if you know my parents well, they always have supper. no matter what time they had dinner at. we finished dinner at 1030. and then my father brought us to punggol end, where i used to go when i was a little kid. then we went to this park in punggol where there was a small cafe for supper. i ate a banana split and a tall glass of milo. it was a nice, little cafe, like something you would find in france. i ended up really bloated; it was a good thign i didn't throw up.

today was the best friday i've had this year. what a nice day.

notes: my mother is not too keen about me going to the p6gep chalet-gathering-thingy. she's scared one of the girls are raped or something. i think we'll be careful and have a lot of fun. NO. not that kind of fun. i mean normal kind of fun. like watching movies and running around and playing captain's ball and just having fun. yay. i just can't wait for the exams to end and the holidays to start.

a moment in time.
00:15

Thursday, September 18, 2003

yay. my pop-up blocker counter just passed 350.

a moment in time.
21:32

i officially rate my blog pg-13. it's safe for those children out there to read it then. if they actually would want to. school was boring. look. people don't want to hear about what i did in school. they want to know who i like. but i won't give them what they want. bahaha. as i said, school was boring. the only thing worth to say is that i won't become a lawyer in the future. not that i want to anyway. we had skit for science. i was the lawyer. and i sucked. i only prepared one question. yvonne had 5. :-(

i rather be a pilot. fly around the sky and shoot missiles everywhere. yay. my dream come true. i have one main ambition, to be a pilot and two substitutes, to be a psychologist or aircraft designer. :S its not often you meet a guy who has substitute ambitions. me, amanda, nicole, darren, yuhui, audrey and jeremy met joanne, grace, sharan and bor ray on the mrt. i havent seen joanne and bor ray in quite a long time, so i was glad to see them.

i studied for science when i got home. then i went to sleep for a while. i woke up at 8. i just read terence's blog. i learnt two things from his entry on september 3.

quotes:
"never to tell mark anything important unless you want it on tomorrow's headlines."
"Bing Huan is MORE hardworking than marky and hands up his homework and does it faster than him."

and some remarks:
~ i did not tell who ying xian liked. everyone knows already.
~ do i boast about me finishing homework on time? if i do, i apologise. all credits go to you bingy.

some singnet guy just came to my house. when i opened the door, he saw my computer and said, "wow. you have a computer". then i knew what this was going to be about and said, "i already use singnet." "256 or 512?" "256." then he leaves. i mean its a bit weird to have people ask you what your connection speed in the middle of the night, and i didnt know singnet hired people to do that. life just gets weirder everyday.

i also don't know why i have a collection of expired chilli sauce packets in my fridge. :S it's also a bit weird right? or maybe i'm the weird one here.

oh yeah. if i have ever offended anyone or anything, im sorry. and i'm sorry im such a sponge. and i'm sorry im an idiot. and i'm sorry that i'm so stupid when i can do something about it.

a moment in time.
21:24

Wednesday, September 17, 2003

events: none
mood: very happy
energy: 80%

during maths, a discussion on why wen quan was caught for laughing turned into an explanation of the terms "masturbation" and "orgy" for amanda because she was too "innocent". i will not go any further into this. my blog is rated pg. and for good reasons. the history test was the hardest so far, i guess i won't do better than the previous ones. the rest of shcool was ok. i even got a new device to play with. a new digital calendar from the nkf in exchange for my donation. i like it, but i still rather have the camera.

there was no irs today, for me at least and i had an early lunch, but i went home late. i got drenched in the rain, even though i had an umbrella. curse the monsoons. my shoes were soaked and my bag was damp inside. i met jeremy ho on the mrt at bedok and we talked for a while. i got home at 4. the rest of the day, and night, was even more boring, so this is the end. today was a boring day, i hope tomorrow is more fun.

a moment in time.
20:23

Tuesday, September 16, 2003

events: second day of term 4 "-_-
mood: very happy
energy: 75%

the cycle of life
1st edition

i've been seriously thinking about something i heard on chatterbox, one of the gta3 radio stations- the australian-american war. so what if there wasn't one, i can easily make up some stuff about it. yeah. but i'll start on it after the exams or when i've got time. we played soccer during pe today. it was quite fun, but i suck at it. i need more practice. but i guess i lost my "skill". if i ever had one. i think i'm better at captain's ball. yeah.

we did the presentation during geog. i think the idea for the background to be an internet explorer window was really cool. amanda, shibao, darren, jeremy and ziluo's presentation was quite impressive, the skit was really funny, but they had too little time. our group did the boring, old, normal, presentation. we added a tiny bit of humour through some mispronuciation and mispresentation, but i don't think it really helped. i was wishing that we had done a skit. it would be more interesting and appealing.

the rest of the day was quite boring. except a few "fun facts" like mr yang forgetting there wouldnt be any chinese periods tomorrow and arranging a chinese test to be held tomorrow. maybe we should have told him, but there already is a history test tomorrow, so i guess it's for the better. we have finished our computer lesson but i didnt realise until today. so miss lai took over the first period of computer and mdm john the rest of the schooling day.

after school, the others were either playing football or zero point, none of which i would be interested in anyway, so since amanda wanted to meet zhi wen (like duh.) i just followed along cos she asked me. since he was still at bishan, we decided to get some lunch. i bought twiggies. i don't know why shibao's group think the word "twiggies" is so funny, but i guess they're just being sick. twiggies are nice. i guess. anyway, we got on the mrt with zhi wen, and amanda went into the "zhi wen-mode" when she goes into this mode, she goes all quiet and nice and innocent. zhi wen seemed quiet too. i think they're just shy. i took 293 home with amanda.

there was a vistor at my home today. she bought lots of stuff for me. hooray. of cos i thanked her. its courtesy, i guess, or just habit. i played on the computer and studied for the history test. we have another test on friday, a science test. we are now entering the examintaion period, so our teachers are going on about revising everyday, but most of us dont really care. i fell asleep while studying, cos i was studying in the worst place, on my bed. at least my father woke me up when he got home with his loud voice. :D hooray. i think im ready for tomorrow's test.

a moment in time.
20:51

Monday, September 15, 2003

events: first day of term 4
mood: very happy
energy: 80%

the first day of the term and i was almost late for the school bus already. but at least i managed to squeeze everything i do in 40 minutes into 20 minutes. i realised at that point of time that i can sleep for 20 minutes more everyday. school was nice. but quite boring. vina's speech was nice. maths was ok. we went through some practice papers. assembly was boring, we had a talk abotu cancer, very informative but boring. i ws hoping the speaker could have made the presentation more light hearted. ae was ok. chinese was quite fun, we had a short surprise test and read some chinese newspapers. science was ok, but i still can't keep up with the videos. they go too fast more me to get most of the stuff, so i usually have to copy the other notes from ying xian, like i did today. i wonder how they do it. we went for lunch at cheers. i took my first bowl of cup noodles in a few weeks. then we met grace and vivian on the mrt. i dont know why, but me, wen quan and sharan went to spotlight. we walked around for a while then i went home. today was quite a good day...but i still want a new comp.

a moment in time.
21:15

Saturday, September 13, 2003

events: none
mood: very happy (argh...not again)
energy: 85%

in the morning, i had raisin bread and milk for breakfast, and watched some tv while i waited for my parents to return from lunch. i did a complete reinstallation of office xp, but had some problems with the activation and had to tweak the computer's registry to input the correct cd-key and product id. mum and dad had bought back some nasi padang thing for my lunch. its was.... ok... then i played gta2 and chatted for while before going for a short nap. i woke up at 7:30 when some submarine movie was playing. i watched for a while until we went for dinner. then we went to changi village for supper. on the trip there, my father told me some of his stories. i have just realised how many connections he has to other people. from the director of teen challenge, sam kumar, to the husband of lina ng. wow. anyway, i took some coconut bun and ice horlicks for supper. you can never get enough of singporean cuisine. today was quite enjoyable, but i havent done any schoolwork in 4 days. i better start studying for the history test on wednesday, but i have neither my textbook and notes. i bet all my friends have studied already. :-( tomorrow's the last day of the "holidays"... :'(

a moment in time.
23:45

Friday, September 12, 2003

events: none
mood: normal
energy: 80%

mum gave me some rice dumplings for lunch today. i dont really liek rice dumplings now, they're too... too.... sticky. i dont like sticky stuff that leave sticky feelings on your hand. anwyay, the new part-time maid came. she's ok, but i didn't have time to get to know her, because i was going to the library. after looking around for a good read, i found two books, "tablet pcs for dummies" and "how to expand and upgrade pcs". i've taken quite an interest in tablet pcs. they seem good. but expensive too. anyway, i walked around the area, because i had nothing better to do. i took a look at popular. i think i wanna buy the neon diskettes thing by imation. they're translucent, colourful and useful. i walked back from the "town centre", as i call it, and had soggy cornflakes fro tea. i like soggy cornflakes cos they're soft and tasty and nice. then i started up the computer and finished downloading some songs from grand theft auto 3. chatterbox is really funny. the conversations are really good. i also tried out the tablet pc interactive demo which actually lets you try out some functions using flash that actually works like a real tablet pc. its just flash, but quite impressive. heres the site : Windows XP Tablet PC Edition Demos try it out, its not bad. i had chicken rice for dinner. its still my fave kind of rice. then i got on the compy again. shauna got her hair fried at a bbq, cindy wants to know who i like, eugene has fantasies of *not supposed to tell*, samuel's persuading everyone to petition against the riaa and for kaza, which i already had a few weeks ago, and i just love msn messenger 6. i also checked out on the harry potter cast. rupert grint likes spongebob!!! yay!!! that guy's as mad as me. emma watson and rupert seem to be having a relationship, but of course i can't be sure. daniel *something* seems to be nice, but i didn't really read much about him. they're a some cast. two guys and a girl. :D its been quite a good day. yeah. can't wait for tomorrow.

a moment in time.
22:55

Thursday, September 11, 2003

events: mooncake festival? (was it today?)
mood: very happy
energy: 70%

i went with dad for some traditional breakfast at the nearby coffeeshop. i took kaya bread and half-boiled eggs and ice milo. there's nothing like a good start to a good day. then i went to tampines interchange to meet sb and js to go to eugene's house. shi bao's thinking of rewriting simulata. into a novel. he reckons it'll take a few years. i guess so. so we arrived, and shi bao and jeremy decided to make a fool of themselves at the playground for a while, so i let them. it was at that time i realised how much saner i was than them, especially when shi bao was acting drunk and gay. at least jeremy is saner than him. o we went up to eugene's house. they started playing grand theft auto 3 and total club manager 2003. grand theft auto 3 is now my favourite game. its so realistic and fun and violent and i just enoy it, especially the music. my favourite radio stations in gta3 are flashback and chatterbox. my favourite song is "she's on fire". the great thing about gta3 music is that it's mostly real-life tracks. those from flashback are from the movie soundtrack of "scarface". i watched a match between eugene and shi bao in tcm 2003. shi bao lost 1-2 when he thought he was better than eugene. then we went for lunch at macdonalds. after a quick lunch, we played street soccer and basketball for a while. i think my basketball "skills", or rather the "rate of tyco " has improved. then we went back to gta3. after playing so many rounds of gta3, im one of the better players of gta3, but it doesnt make a difference because there are onyl a few players of gta3 i know, like shi bao, eugene, jeremy and a few others, and most of them are as good as me. maybe i suck at it, but i still love the game. then i went home. dinner was at a chinese seafood place for some omelette, seafood celery thing and a big steamed fish. steamed fish is always my favourite of the three. then we went to watch children play with lantern and sparklers and stuff in our neighbourhood. everybody was so happy. the parks and pathways brightened up the night sky with all the lanterns, fires and lights. the neighbourly spirit was in the air. blissful. happy. joyful. ahhhhh.....it was so... so.... beautiful. but for some weird reason i could not spot the moon. weird eh? i think it was the clouds. what a nice... happy... nice... joyful... nice day....

a moment in time.
23:03

Wednesday, September 10, 2003

oh ya...i was at comex at the same time on the same day at the same place as nicole...but i didn't meet her... she says it was because the damn place was too crowded, and i agree... i wish i had bought the soundsticks... they are transparent. i love transparent computers and stuff, like apple's mac computers.

a moment in time.
21:23

events: none
mood: very happy
energy: 70%
time: 9:02 pm

when i woke up, i found that my parents had gone for breakfast without me. but they came back just half an hour after i had woken up. i started on art at 11:30. and lunch was at 1:00. i managed to finish art by the time amanda had called to tell me that they were going to play captain's ball at the simei basketball court. i got there at 3:15, and only yuhui was there. zhi wen came 5 minutes after i arrived and he had brought his rugby ball for an unknown reason. then amanda and sharan came with their brothers, also for an unknown reason. but we still carried on with the game. it was quite fun to have some sports after being stuck in this so-called "holiday". it started to rain somewhere in the middle of the game and we stood like idiots in the rain wondering what to do. we decided to continue after we had been soaked thoroughly and then darren came. so we played another game of captain's ball. after the game ended, we continued to play short games of basketball, volleyball and rugby. then they decided to go to eastpoint to meet nick and aaron. when we started to walk, my father drove into the carpark. this was a sign that he wanted me to go back early. that meant i wouldnt be having dinner with the others. damn. but i had no choice, so i got into the car and my father brought me for dinner. we took some weird chicken rice and some weird beef soup thingy. i called amanda at 8, and they were still at east point or somewhere having dinner, enjoying themselves. i wish i had been there. today was a fun day. i am very happy...or maybe a little downcast. but at least i finished ALL my homework. i have the rest of the week free!!!

a moment in time.
20:01

events: none
mood: very happy
energy: 85%
time: 12:09 am

i didnt do anything today but slack. i didnt do any homework, but at least i only have art exam left. i hate art. it's amazing how we can actually cope with the kind of work miss tang gives us. as i said, i slacked throughout the day. but heck, it's the holidays right, or is it? the first thing i did was watch some cartoon show on kids central about the lion of oz and some girl being the flower of oz. it was kinda nice and touching. then there was lunch-nasi lemak-no complaints. then i played on the computer, trying out the power manager thing i got for grand theft auto 2. i tried to customize my favourite car, the cop car, but in the end i made it too fast and hard to control. i need some kind of magical touch before i ever tweak another car. then i played with some lego, looking for a new model to make, but i guess my previous model is still the best. it has 4 bombs, 3 cannons, 2 rocket launchers and some other stuff. i like making airplane models out of lego, it's easy and fun. then i tried out the micro machines set i bought from france 4 years ago. i have outgrown everything, but that set cost me 109 of the now obselete french francs, which is equivalent to $32 in singapore. i could have used that money to buy a way better computer game, but i didn't have a computer at that time. but not to go on any further about outgrown toys. my parents brought me to eat dim sum for dinner. it was really nice, and we also bought 4 double-yolk white-skin mooncakes. i tried one of it. it's the best mooncake in town, based on value and taste. when i got back, i continued to tweak the cop car, it's better now, but i still havent foudn out how to make it easier to control. i hope i can some day.

i pissed shauna and amanda today. but i guess they've cooled down already... maybe i didn't, but they seem to be angry with me.

a moment in time.
00:12

Tuesday, September 09, 2003

events: none
mood: very happy
energy: 90%
time: 3:24 pm

this is about yesterday cos i forgot to blog yesternight. i went to terence's house in the morning with nicole. ying xian was already there, but hui yi, as we found out later, was an hour late. we started on the geography project. when nicole and ying xian found out that we had used their photos on the title slide of the powerpoint presentation, they were not too happy, so we decided to use a whole new powerpoint. that's one hour of hard work gone. so we toiled for one hour before hui yi called from bus 80. she did not know where to stop. so we tried communicating with her but then her handphone's battery ran out. so i went to the bus stop to wait for her. at least she got down at the correct bus stop. then we continued until lunch time. terence's father had bought for all of us a 2-piece chicken set meal each. with cheese fries. it was nice. that was when darren called. he, shi bao, jeremy strav and ziluo wanted to come. of course we said no. they would have distracted us, and they didn't even have terence's parents permission to come. but they continued to persuade us to let them, saying that they would not distract us, that they were already on the way. we had no choice but to oblige. so we work faster and harder, knowing that when they came, it would be the end of the project. and they came. terence's father was surprised to see them, and not saying anything, he let them in. in the end we still managed to finish the project. but we could not get much of what we wanted the project to be done, because they were distracting us. never trust those four people. then we played soccer and shi bao kicked the ball over the wall a few times, and the others a one or two times and me, one time. shi bao just sulked and refused to do anything about the ball when he kicked it over the fence. he just went into the room and sulked and when anyone asked him to go out to wait for outsiders to pass by and get the ball, he just got angry and told the person to shut off and fk off. it's not like his house or anything and he treats it like his own damn home. he's got a bad attitude. but anyway, my father came at 5:30 and we went for dinner at some chinese place. i took cod fish and some veg and rice and stuff. it was quite a good day, but there are better ones.

by the way, everyone seems angry and frustrated with me nowadays. i don't know why, i don't seem to have done or said anything wrong. i just hope it gets better soon...

a moment in time.
15:55

Sunday, September 07, 2003

events: comex 2003 last day
mood: very happy
energy: 80%
time: 9:55 pm

after church today, my family met up with my father's previous secretary, christine. she getting married soon at some church which i don't know well. after lunch, which was 2 pretzels, a choco muffin, a mushroom-chicken thing, my father fetched me to the comex 2003 at suntec. it didn't take me long to find where it was, as i only needed to follow the crowd. i went up 3 flights of escalators, and even before i enter the exhibition, i was already bombarded with half a cm thick of leaflets, brochures, and flyers. the salespeople stood in two rows on each side of the escalator, and dumped the stuff in your arms. within 5 seconds i already had enough stuff to fill my bag. then i entered the halls and drowned in a flood of people. i spent an hour looking at computers and other stuff and collecting even more stuff. microsoft, not surprisingly, attracted the most people, not with their products, but with the scantily-clad women covered in body paint. see no evil. see no evil. i just walk past towards the dell booth. dell is still my favourite pc manufacturer, even though i have never had any of their products. acer was not bad too. when i left comex 2003, i had 1 cm thick of stuff. i also bought worldbook 1999 for one dollar. quite a good deal. i headed towards citylink mall to get myself to city hall mrt station and i went home. but my parents were not at home, again. i wandered around the nieghbourhood for a while until tehy came back. quite a nice day. ill surely go for comex 2004, if there is one.

a moment in time.
22:21

events: start of holidays, rsaf (air force) open house, p5 gep lantern night, mooncake festival
mood: very happy
energy: 70%
time: 12:07 am

today was a really good day. i woke up early to reach early at the rsaf open house with my father. it was really cool. i collected lots of different sorts of souvenirs, like posters, cd-roms, fuzzy things, postcards, and my two favourite, the Boeing mascot, which i have fondly named "Hummingbee" and a model of a singaporean f-16c. i liked the aerial display, except for the low-level flight thing, which nearly killed my ears, and also the different flight simulators there. after the open house, my father brought me home to prepare to meet my friends at tampines mall for some fun before the lantern night. we went to the arcade after deciding that we didnt want lunch. i played two rounds of daytona usa 2 and 1 round of the flight simulator. then amanda lost her wallet and we searched for quite a while before giving up. i hope she gets it back soon. then we took 293 to shps. we prepared the stuff quickly and the thing started at 6+ just after we had dinner and some bubble tea thing. i had to hide in a dark corner at the carpark for the p5's to find me and for me to give them word riddles. it was quite scary but fun at the same time. i communicated with my friend at the other end of the carpark with torchlights. when everything was finished, we cleared up after the p5's and my dad fetched me to what the Heng family calls "old house". its about a century old, so the name is appopriate. all the Heng's of that area and great grandmother were there. there was lots of food, but i took only a bit as i had already eaten. after some conversations and lingering around with the family, we went home.

a moment in time.
00:13

Friday, September 05, 2003

heres a list of LOVE CALCULATOR results from a conversation with shi bao and eugene:

Amanda Ang + Loh Zhi Wen = 54%
Amanda Ang + Mark Heng = 13%
Amanda Ang + Pek Shi Bao = 32%
Amanda + Zhi Wen = 13%
Dictator Lai + Madam E. John = 85%
Lara Croft + Sean Connery = 96%
Mrs Chua + Mark = 01%
Mrs Flamingbowels + Aaron = 97%
My mum + Roman Abramovich = 95%
Nicole Lee + Eugen Lee = 18%
Nicole Lee + Pek Shi Bao = 69%
Nicole Lee + Mark Heng = 14%
Nicole + Eugene = 94%
Nicole + Shi Bao = 84%
Shauna Lo + Mark Heng = 55%
Yvonne Chia + Eugene Lee = 85%
His underpants + Eugene = 98%
Magic Rabbit Plastic Bag + I-Fresh = 25%
Pikachu + Ash = 01%
Ryan Giggs + Roman Abramovich = 96%

a moment in time.
21:26

events: performance for sec 2's, last day of school term
mood: very happy
energy: 65%
time: 8:15 pm

i woke up at 6:10 today. thats really late, and as a result, even when my father fetched me to school, i reached at 7. which is 15 minutes later than my usual arrival time. maths and science passed quickly, with just a few worksheets. english was all the final speeches and most were impressing. chinese was not that fun, we had to write a letter, or ying yong wen. eds was just the preparation for the skits. i had to put on some white powdery stuff, but at least no lipstick. the skits went by quickly, and the merchant of venice skits put up by the sec 2s were quite nice. then we went to the obstacle course and basketball court to have some fun after the day until 5:30. hey, its the holidays isnt it. but not too much of a holiday. theres too much homework. a few of the speeches were about discontent towards the education system. i have seen the new side of the story. why should we suffer under all these stress and homework to apparently be "happy" while in the past they were so carefree and HAPPY without any work at all. times change i guess. the holidays just started, after 10 weeks of work and nothing else. i wonder when the class gathering is...

a moment in time.
20:36

Wednesday, September 03, 2003

events: release of aircraft series stamps, eds full-dress rehearsal
mood: very happy
energy: 75%
time: 10:01 pm

today was fun. maths was ok, i had nothing to do, because i had already finished all my work 1 week ago. history was terrible, we had to write continuosly for an hour, i got some kind of cramp after that, but it went off soon enough. geog was boring as usual, but music was nice. "spirited away" is scary. i dont really like that kind of films. art was horrid. i really hate art now. science was ok, but the guy in the video spoke too fast for me to catch anything. there was no irs, so i went for lunch. after lunch, me, yuhui, nigel and wen quan rehearsed for mr yeo, our chinese skit. he said it was good. eds was the full-dress rehearsal. i look really stupid in my father's too-big-for-me shoes and pants that were worn really high up. and lots of pens in my pocket. the tie was ok. i was meant to look stupid in the skit, but thats beside the point. i prefer to act as a normal person. after eds, my father brought nick, aaron and cheryl to tampines and we went to changi airport for dinner. i took fried kway teow and papaya milkshake. after dinner, my father brought me to see the new aircraft series stamps. in the end, i bought the presentation pack for $5.90 and its really nice. its one of those things i consider nicer than my canadian 1-cent coin. haiz...my parents are out again...so lonely... i wish that someone were here.

a moment in time.
22:09

Tuesday, September 02, 2003

events: none
mood: very happy
energy: 70%
time: 8:47 pm

the wind was really strong in the morning, when we were playing captain's ball. must have been about 6-7 on the beaufort scale. thats really windy. not long after the gale started, it started to rain, so we went indoors. pe was table tennis, better than softball. geography and history was normal. chinese was boring, and computer was no work at all. i had already finished the project. but it was boring. my speech during literature was not as good as i expected, but i got quite reasonable marks. during eds practice :( , there was no teacher. so we were playing football and stuff in the dance and drama room with a water bottle. no rehearsal at all. hooray!!! i scored 3 during the match, 5 during practice, saved 2, and let in 1. nice game. then my father fetched a few of my friends to tampines and we went to tampines mall to eat dinner. i took some sirloin steak cubes with rice. it tasted nice. today was nice. haiz....tomorrow, i fear, will not be that good.

a moment in time.
21:17

Monday, September 01, 2003

events: teacher's day
mood: very happy
energy: 65%
time: 9:15 pm

i went to the airport today to send my maid off. after the farewell, my family went to the food court to eat. i took soya beancurd and soya bean milk and some rojak. then my parents fetched me to terence's house. he lives in quite an exquisuite house. its nice. we started on the project by trying to find a map of the world distribution of mangrove swamps. after 1 hour, it was still fruitless and we decided to start on the presentation itself. after finishing the cover page, we decided to take a rest. we played slime sports like slime soccer, slime volleyball and slime basketball. it was fun. then we went for lunch at terence's grandma's, uncle's and auntie's house. we ate laksa and chin chow and rockmelon and popiah. it was very nice. then we went back to terence's house but we really couldn't do anymore. so we continued playing. after the whole thing, terence's father fetched me home on the way to johore battery with his family. i've been there already, and its quite nice. but terence didnt seem too interested. as nicole said, each for his own. i bought a mooncake for my mother and one mooncake and one egg-tart for myself on the way home. ah, what a nice teacher's day. and to all the teachers out there, although this might be late, HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!!

a moment in time.
21:24