Friday, October 31, 2003
END OF SCHOOL SPECIAL ENTRY
.past -> achievements of this year
note: this section is not bragging, it just lists how i've improved throughout the year.
part one: academic
- 2nd in chinese, sa (72%) and overall (72%)
this might be my biggest achievement this year. as most shps people might know, i usually got the lowest or low-end marks in chinese throughout my gep primary school education. so getting such a standard is quite a miracle for me.
- top in science new south wales competition in gep (44/45)
quite a big one for me. although i did not get full marks for this one, and some mainstream person did, it's not everyday you enjoy this kind of grades. ernest should have gotten it. he should have. everyone said it was tyco (or did they). and i think so too.
- second in history ca1 (84.9%) and ca2 (*insert percentage here*)
i paid dearly for these grades after the ca's. i was second to nicole and terence was not far behind. this, as terence would say, boosted my ego. i got "overconfident" and during the sa i flopped (69%). i still can't get that off my mind. haiz, but i learnt a good lesson.
- maths active day project, first in class
i know i don't deserve this. nicole and darren were asking mrs koh not to give the position to me. they were complaining that i did nothing. they were wrong. i give the first idea of mazes and ancient numerals, but they were right i didn't do anything to help them construct the maze. im sorry. but they have to understand i don't like craft. i only like writing work like homework and stuff. so once again, apologies and credit go to nicole and darren, for their effort and creativity.
- rain gauge project (maths), first in class
i think i deserve this one. or so i think. everyone had an equal part in this. i did the designs, and help in construction and presentation, amanda did the presentation and gave us ideas for design, and eugene did most of the construction and a part of teh presentation. it was quite a good project, although i thought it wouldn't be after the experience i had during the mad day project. hooray. credit goes to amanda and eugene for their hard work and help in the project.
comments: somewhere on the line, my more minor achievements include higher grades in history, geography, maths, science, chinese. my more distinctive record is the fact that i have never passed up late homework before. i wouldn't say i'm hardworking, if not i would be proud, but i would say that i have improved in time management.
part two: athletic
- napfa silver award
ok. this is common enough for some people, but it's quite a big achievement for me. i was once a fat, overweight guy who didn't even pass napfa tests in primary school. i think because of puberty and occasional training, i have managed to obtain this silver award. yay.
- improvement in sports
this is the crappy part. but it seems to me i have improved over the months through the regular games i play. i think i've improved the most in captain's ball and basketball. it's just my opinion. and i've deproved in soccer. from the lack of practice. haiz...
part three: alternatives
note: this lists all the other crap "achievements" i have made this year
- technological advances
my computer knowledge has widened over the years through experience and reading up on computers. i have managed to get some of my friends out of computer trouble spots an give them alternatives when the normal procedure was not normal. but terence opposes to this so-called status. he feels he's better than me at computers. but never mind, i won't take away his computer expert status.
- relational advances
i have made many more friends this year. but some of my old friends seem to dislike me. i don't now if they do, but they like to tease me and stuff. i wish i could take the age old advice to forget the old and get on with the new, but these friends are important to me. it's not that they need me, it's that i need them. the experiences i've had with relationships this year has brought me greater understanding. thank you for your friendship.
- gaming advances
i have had more experience in flight simulators and shooting games. flight simulators has been my "speciality" at computer games, and i'm still good at them. i still have the instincts and reflexes to know when to move and shoot. my accuracy has also improved, giving me a better fighting chance at shooting games.
.present -> the last day of school
today was a bright, cheerful day and might be one of the best "last days" i've had.
the school bus was cold today. and i mean really cold. with the usual average temperature at 15 degrees celsius, and all the surrounding air conditioners facing me, i felt like i was in a blizzard more than a school bus. but it's nice once in a while to experience "winter" conditions. everyone looked afresh, ready for the day that symbolised freedom, release, and most of all, relief.
maths was a bad start to the day. we did scaling and map stuff. ok, it wasn't bad, but most of my friends were complaining that it wasn't apporpriate to do work on the last day of school. but in the end, it lasted only 10 minutes, and the rest of the period was free. while most of my friends were playing, i did not find interest in the games, and thus decided to complete the final piece of school work.
science was basically free periods. i just sat there and daydreamed about stuff. recess was a good game of basketball. haha. jeremy isn't as good as he claims to be, nowadays, he scores only one of two, which is almost equal to me. but he's still so fast. haha. js is a funny guy. eugene, well, no comments.
literature was the announcement of who had been nominated to be prefects. terence and mun yi. (wen quan backed out, i guess he doesn't want to even give it a try) it seems that mdm john passed up the teacher's nomination form too late. so 1L had six people, 3 by student nomination and 3 by teacher's nomination. but we only had 3 from student's nomination. teacher's nomination was me, amanda and terence. hmmz. i guess i won't be a prefect anymore. unless the form eventually got to mr kiw today. and we're coming back on wednesday, so maybe he'll announce on wed for some reason. not that i so desperately want to be a prefect, but since i was school mediator in qiaonan, i was thinking maybe i'd give it a try. well, good luck to toot and moo moo.
then suddenly, amanda, darren and nicole and a few others which i couldn't see were tying up my hair. argh. with that stupid bunch of hair thingy sticking out from the middle of my head, i look like some kind of freak. then they presented their "work of art" to the whole sec 1 gep. but i have to admit, it was funny.
school cleanup is a fine art. it involves hard work and skills, and requires passion and commitment. so we did it. as we rushed from corner to wall, table to chair, the guys in charge of the pail of water struggled to prevent the leaks. we fought bravely against the dirt and dust. and for once. for once in the whole damn year, i have seen 1k as a clean class. we have a notorious reputation for being the dirtiest class in the level. that says a lot.
lunch and a game of basketball was all that was between me and the next series of work. i made the most of it, enjoy what i had while it lasted. then it came. 2:30 pm. eds. practice. training. rehearsal. it was another hard time, as we planned furiously to come up with the final ideas. like spies, we crept as silent as mice through the corridors to escape the glances of mr kiw and ms lai, to the safe refuge of the eds room. finally. finally we had chosen our costumes and props. i got a gray outfit which was too big for me. i also took a machine gun for fun. hooray. then suddenly, it was all over, the final terror had ended.
we played basketball. the rest after the work. then shauna and sharan came. i met them through the fence that kept us separated. the barbed wire above the fence prevented any parties from going in or out of the compound. we were kept from communicating. but the school was not meant to be a prison. why? why are we kept from the outside world? what is wrong?
amanda was then released from volleyball. thgen we all went home. together with shauna and sharan. the fence and barbed wire thing was true, but there was an exit. it was guarded to keep intruders out. but we were free to go now. we were free. finally. but we faced an uncertain future. what was to become of us as we stepped into the reaches of the outside world? how were we to face the future with what we had? with freedom comes great decisions. now, i have to decide what to make of the school holidays. build a new computer? redo my blog template? build the gigantic 747 model i have? no matter, i shall make my decision soon.
.future -> the school holidays
what i have next week:
- final eds session for the year 2003 (wednesday)
we are going to perform our final act of courage for all to see. while all the other groups chose hairy potter, my group chose the more creative series of poems. how fun, i hope it'll be good.
- collection of year reports/ report books/ report slips/ reports (thursday)
thursday, as we usually call it, is judgement day. it is the final moment of terror and truth. it is when we get to know our position in class, our final grades, and the class we're going to. i hope everything will be fine that day, or else, i'm sure to go into depression mode.
*THE END*
and so here ends the last day entry. i wish everyone happy holidays.
a moment in time.
20:50
Thursday, October 30, 2003
argh. the final eds performance is coming soon, and my group still havent decided what to wear, what to do and what to say. haiz. i hope we can be on time.
a moment in time.
22:31
i had to use a new counter because freewebs bandwidth is out. i think i'll stick to it, but it has an occasional ad, but it's quite good. the reset number of hits is 900, which should be accurate than 860+ because i started the counter in the end of october.
a moment in time.
21:55
i sit in the mercedes, watching as objects whiz pass me. trees, cars, people, building. for a fleeting moment i had a feeling that i was in hawaii. the palm trees, beach and towns combined onto one tiny island was just like hawaii, as singapore is. i arrived in the cool, peaceful dawn.
we were ordered to clear our lockers today. i took all my stuff out. and put them in a plastic bag which tore up at the end of school. haiz, i forgot to empty my stuff yesterday. i actually managed to lug all the stuff home.
chinese lessons were as usual all fun, except that mr yeo gave us the chinese holiday homework. it was pretty simple, i can finish it in an hour. i think. pity the poor hcl people who have to do the whole penmanship book. pe was ok, but there was no main sport--- we all split up into different sports. then during recess we played basketball until mdm john asked us to come back to class. it was quite a good game. although i didn't shoot any balls, i managed to tackle js with one of my tricks. yay.
the rest of school went by easily, with only the fear of tomorrow's farewell in my heart. i sat there, thinking about how life would be without some of the people in 1k. then suddenly, school ended. i was stunned. time, it seemed to fly by so quickly. i had pizza and chocolate milkshake for lunch, a remedy for my goodbye blues.
then some of us went to darren's house. on the way to darren's house on the mrt, darren made dared me to not say "zhi wen" or any form of his name like "zw" and "amanda's husband" and "joanne's husband" etc., everytime i used one, i'd have to pay him 10 cents. i took it readily. it might just have been the right thing to improve my friendship with amanda. no explanation required.
we watched "chocolat", it was a nice movie. at last i got to see the other part of the movie. *no spoilers included* then we watched rugby and played stress and bullshit (a modification of bluff). it was fun to have such a good time with friends. but the finale, a music video of "say goodbye" by s club 7 struck me right in the heart.
it reminded me of the prom nite of year 2002. i cried that night. i missed my friends, although i knew i would still meet them and keep in touch, but i also knew it would not last for long. friends might be one of the only things i have. i'll miss them all, especially p6gep and dhsgep. oh well, i won't get so emotional next time.
i took the mrt home with amanda. we were talking about me, amanda and terence being nominated to be prefects. ME!!! argh. but maybe i'll do something right. :D then after that, we were talking about who amanda likes. haha. since i couldn't use the name *insert the name here*, i had to give her clues to who it was. although she acted stupid, and tried to make me say his name, i managed to get out of every trap she put. haha. i'm good. :P
it was like," NO!!! not
me!!! the guy from ri!!! you know, the one we were with just now. the one... erm ... who walked with us until he had to go home." in the end, she went for 22 or 293, and i went for my bus, 291, becos it was already there. then she concluded that i couldn't prove that she like anyone. haiz, it's hard to prove something that you're not even sure of. but i'm sure it was one of the better times of our friendship. i think. :S
note: tomorrow's entry will be a special one. it'll include all my academic achievements this year. and all the other important stuff.
a moment in time.
20:50
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
the cool morning breeze caressed my skin as i made my way through the neighbourhood to the pickup point. the old man, he sat there as was the same everyday. the same silver car picked him up. the school bus came ten minutes earlier as usual. it was the usual morning cycle of life. it gets boring, but at least, there is peace, and nature is still undisturbed in the dawn.
before flag raising, everyone in my group were sleeping, me, amanda, hui yi and ying xian. time seemed to stop in the midst of my half-consciousness. flag raising seemed rather quiet, mr kiw seemed nicer than usual. how weird. maths, as usual, was algebra, which is starting to get boring. the other three periods until recess were free periods, except the point in which mdm john came in to explain to us about "enriched" and "advanced" courses. i'm putting all advanced to see what it's like. they let you quit the course if you don't want it. i'm sure i want advanced history and science, which are my better subjects, but i have to try out for literature.
we had to do some stupid assessment thing for art, but it was quite fun to be able to release all your opinions about art lessons. we took the captain's ball team photo thing in the middle of art. haha, there were too many people, i guess. but no matter, it was still a nice photo, i hope. during lunch, we all ate the cake which mdm john and ms lai had bought to celebrate the victory of the gep capt ball team. hooray!!! it was nice.
eds was ok. we got into our pernament groups and started on planning the final presentation, the result of the whole enrichment programme. i teamed with shi bao, yvonne, tristan and aaron. we plan to do the poems thing, or maybe harry potter. how fun. after eds, we went to the basketball courts and frivolled and jumped around. i can jump higher than shi bao, but i don't think i can jump further than him or sam low. ok, i was too afraid to try jumping over 5 steps. the height is no problem, but the distance is like 2 metres. my standing broad jump was less than that. but no matter, i'll try some other day. :D
i took 12 home with some eds people and nick. we chatted and chatted. i reached home at 7. to a nice dinner of butter prawns, red tilapia and spinach. how nice.
a moment in time.
21:27
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
i checked my head with two mirrors just now. i think i'm really balding badly. ok, it's not balding, i'm just pulling out my hair. i can't stop touching my hair. how weird. :S i might as well shavey.
a moment in time.
21:12
i was late for school today, by about half an hour. i arrived at the first period at 8 am. i was late for a few reasons:
1) my alarm clock was set for 8 am, for some reason.
2) i thought it was sunday
3) i was having a really nice dream and i didn't want to wake up.
but anyway, i didn't get caught or seen by anyone. the school's in a relaxed mood now, it seems. phew. i have never been late before, and i still hold my perfect attendance record from p1. yay. i have never missed school before. so anyway, the whole day was just play and play. TTG wasn't around school, so pe was spent on playing cards and uno and other stuff. mrs chua came for geog, and told us all about geog next year and how geog helps us. it was quite boring, as most of her lessons are, but at least it was better than her usual lesson.
we did more algebra for maths, but i guess no one was listening. recess was a game of captain's ball against some seniors, and i was defender. at least for half the game. yay, i still can jumpy!!! i can touch the top of the basketball net. hooray. i read comics during chinese, since mr yeo did not bring anything to do. i spent computer lesson period doing descriptions of everyone in the class, with terence's and ying xian's help. i shall post it up when i have the time. english was spent on the pyramid game again, and this time, i did better. i guess it's becos i'm good at fish. :S
we went to kfc afer school, and then we played basketball and volleyball. hooray. today was quite a nice day.
a moment in time.
20:35
Monday, October 27, 2003
today is the first day of the last week of the school term. hooray, this signals the end of all work for the year, except the poor higher chinese people, they have 70 pages of penmanship to do, poor dudes. so the day started with the flag-raising ceremony in the light morning drizzle. the fine weather was to be a good omen to forecast the events of the day.
english lesson was spent on games. i played uno and won. yay, at least i still know how to play uno. we studied algebra during maths, and although we should be playing instead of studying after the exams, i think the advanced algebra we are learning will give us a headstart next year. and i admit, it was quite fun. assembly was like some kind of year report, on academic and moral conduct. how fun.
we played some kind of pyramid game thingy during mdm johns' lesson. haha, i only got one chance, and i got only 2 points. i don't think i'm good at word games. haha. *shall stick to www.thespark.com* then we played card games during chinese lesson while the higher chinese people did their penmanship. i think their teacher is very, very evil. students are supposed to be resting during this period of time.
after school, we went to congratulate mr koh on his awardance of the outstanding science teacher's award. he teaches math, but for some reason he got a science award. we got him a balloon, a cup, a photo frame with a girl on it, and some other stuff which i can't remember. he was happy to see us, and i think he liked our gifts.
after which mr koh brought us for some drinks. we talked and talked until he had to go collect his car from the workshop. then we played at the indoor playground since it was raining. my socks got black after playing catching. then we played truth or dare.
nicole was going on the whole day about "A" or "S" and using items which started with the letters to represent the people involved. which is figuratively speaking, amanda and shauna. so of course when it reached my turn, and i chose truth as usual, nicole asked the most direct question: who would you rather, amanda or shauna. just to please her, i said amanda. yeesh. oh well, a not so good end to a good day. oh well, i hope nicole doesnt go on this amanda and shauna thing again. she doesn't know what i'm feeling...
a moment in time.
21:42
Sunday, October 26, 2003
church was really, really, boring today. in fact, i don' think anyone was actually listening. haiz. they shouldn't let the youth people listen to the adult sermons. after the church service, we'll all played football, captain's ball and basketball, just like at school. i didn't know my church friends were so good at basketball. wow. but bernard is in the school team, so no surprise.
then i went to the century sqaure arcade. at last i get to go to the arcade. i spent 4 dollars on the shooting game called KEISATSUKAN. it's so nice. it can actually sense your body movements so you can dodge and hide as if you went fighting against real people and stuff. i think it's now my fave arcade game. and it costs only 1 buck.
yay. i think i'll play it again the next chance i get. well, the last week of school starts tomorrow. i can;t wait for the holidays. or i don't want it to come. because once the holidays start i won't see my friends as much. boohoo. but at least i get more rest.
a moment in time.
20:52
Saturday, October 25, 2003
episode 1: speeches
the gep public speech competition was held at nanyang girls' high school. they were so many people there, if i'm correct, every student from the gep was there. the speeches were more interesting than the last time, because this time the competitors could choose part of their topic. i think they did a much better job this time.
i met many people there, old friends from shps like joanne and priscilla, and "new?" ones from taonan and other schools, like shauna and joel. it was a bit like a reunion. the shps people from other schools actually took the dhs bus back to school with us. then we went for lunch at kfc. no more banditos for me. i took a colonel's special. hooray. then we went to tampines mall and century sqaure to get some gift thingy for mr koh because he got some science award thingy.
episode 2: shopping
we looked and looked. we searched far and wide across the land. looking for a good gift for mr koh is hard, because we don't know what he wants. in the end they decided to buy some balloon thingy. i paid for it, and left with bor ray. at last they managed to find something, but they were still not satisfied, so they continued looking for a second gift. how weird.
episode 3: sorrow
i don't know if i'm heartbroken, but i do know i'm not loveisck and desperate. so there you go, that's how i feel now. heartbroken. but the question is, by who? or for who? i'm not so sure myself. sad.
a moment in time.
20:58
Friday, October 24, 2003
today's my mum's birthday and deepavali. and of course it called for a "celebration". i woke up really late, and my family went out with a few old friends to celebrate. we ate at changi airport. and for once i resisted the allurements of western food and culture, and went for the local fried kway teow and exotic papaya milkshake. yum yum.
as if lunch wasn't enough when you've had breakfast at 12, my parents chose to go to the fruit bar at the arrival hall for tea at 2. i think tea's usually at 4. but no matter. i enjoyed a large buffet of cakes ranging from chocolate brownies to orange sponge cakes. and a cup of hot chocolate. wait. from where did my parents get all that money? they're not that rich. i took all their money already. ok, i didn't. heck lah. my parents arent rich. as most people think. they're... erm... generous. and i take that for granted. i'm a bad son. right. so anyway, it was a really nice meal. hooray.
then i went home, while my parents went to their friend's house. i bought a computer dictionary for $1.90. it's real good. i like the introduction to personal computers and guide to buying a new computer part. they're just what i need. and the dictionary part is most useful. hooray.
so anyway, as i end my most humble entry, i would like to wish everyone happy deepavali, and my mum, a very happy birthday.
a moment in time.
21:45
Thursday, October 23, 2003
i shall only talk about the captain's ball match, because it's the only interesting thing that happened in school. the match against 1b was a tough and tense one. the team won 1b by five points before the fouls were counted, and won 1b by 1 point after fouls were counted, 1 point. phew.
but it was so obvious that 1b commited more fouls than the gep team, but as the referee seemed quite fair, and also that we won, i feel it's alright. but i don't think my friends feel ok about it. but what can we do? it's over anyway.
the teacher's were very happy, and a few of us went to kfc for a "celebration". 1b was there, but we didn't really talk with them, just said hi. aaron, eugene, yvonne, cleaven and nick were the stars of pepsi. together with the help of darren and a few others, they finished almost 30 cups of pepsi. wow. i hope they don't get diabetes.
then we did a really childish thing. me and wen quan went into the indoor playground thing and played for a while. then in a few minutes most people were already in. we were posing and squeezing into the small treeehouse thingy, with amanda taking photos and nicole sayign that we were so childish. haha. it was fun, but the photos turned out blurry.
we took a late bus 12 home. we played taiti and stuff, talked about stuff. it was about 8 when i reached home. today was fun. hooray. tomorrow's a public holiday.
a moment in time.
21:52
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
PART ONE: THE SAFE-READING AREA
we had irs presentations in the morning which weren't too appealing. the farm trips were ok, but my drawings of the birds weren't nice. but at least they were better than js's and sb's. you should have seen js's guinea fowl. haha. the quail and aloe vera farm were ok. i liked the baby quails, cos they soooo cute. but i resisted the temptation of buying one set because i knew if i bought one set, they would be gone in a matter of hours like yuhui's.
we got back to school and i had to go straight to eds. the training today was quite fun. we learnt how to recite stuff. then i went to support the gep team in captain's ball. the team won 1j or something (35-7) and won 1f by a tiny margin (33-30). yay. we're in the finals.
a moment in time.
20:42
PART TWO: THE PART YOU SHOULDN'T READ IF YOU THINK-ANYTHING-I-SAY-IS-LAME-OR WILL-EASILY-GET-OFFENDED-BY-ME.
OR
PART TWO: IN THE WORDS OF A BROKEN HEART
i have so many problems and reasons for me to just jump out the window of my flat now. i just wish i had some comfort now, but all my friends, if they actually consider me a friend, are all gone.
one of them is that people dont believe i can keep secrets. after i let out a series of them last year, no one seems to believe that i can be trustworthy. i havent let out a secret in the past 6 months. terence might say i let his secrets out, but i did not, he just made it too obvious, so he shouldn't blame me. and also ying xian, her secret wasn't a secret. it was known years ago. it seems like the story about the "boy who cried wolf". but i think i'll just have to live with it.
secondly, i wish that people would stop teasing about me and amanda. i don't like her. zhi wen's the one as i have said. all these rumours and stuff ended up in amanda avioding me today. i don't know if she did, but it seems like. and another thing she dislikes about me is that i keep talking abotu her and zhi wen, which darren has pointed out, so i'll try to stop. seriously.
i don't even think darren, nicole and amanda and a few others like shi bao and jeremy strav and zi luo even consider me a friend anymore. i don't know what happened. they keep asking me to be myself, but it would help if they would tell me how. heck, i'll have to change. but if only i knew how. should i become more softspoken like ying xian and bing huan? or should i think before i say anything? i don't know, this is something i need help in.
lastly, my exam marks. i know that some people out there think i got very high for my exams. and i know that i should be modest which i am trying to be, but i know i did quite well for my standards, but then, i didn't meet my expectations. i wanted to get all a's with only two a2's. ok, so maybe that's a bit high. i was one of the lousiest students last year. but i got 3 b's. english was 62, literature was 65, and HISTORY was 67. maybe secondary education is supposed to be harder than primary schooling. yes. i think my expectations are just too high. but how could i have gotten so low for history?! oh well, a lesseon learnt there.
i just wish that people would instead of critisicing me, do something to help me change so that i won't be so bad. i mean like, i'm not just a "bad" person, i have feelings too and i have some good points in me, dont i?
but no matter. maybe these problems can be solved. maybe these aren't even big problems like poverty and starvation. yes, i think i'll have a better life if i make changes now. hooray. life isn't so bad after all.
a moment in time.
20:37
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
i went to amanda's house in the morning and we played stuff until 10 something. then nicole wanted to buy some hairband thing so we had to go all the way to montips. or monkip. or something. it was closed, and darren said that we should all go to school. but NO. nini wanted her hairband. darren said that nicole was bitching him. i don't know what bitching means, but i know it's not a really nice word.
he said that if she wanted to bitch him he would bitch her back. i don't think bitch is a verb. but anyway. we waited till 11 until montip-thing opened, and even after nini found her hairband thing, they contineud going round and round the shop. darren was pissed. so we just took the mrt to school.
in the end the grils caught up with us, and darren sat at the back of the bus. suddenly there was this voice saying like, "hi mark" behind me. i got a big shock. i didn't know nigel was sitting behind me. he gave me a fright. anyway, jun kiat was on the bus too, and we talked until we reached school.
the camp thing was quite fun, which surprised me. it was like eds in chinese. how fun. but the stupid gits made me sima qian, and i got "castrated" two times. i don't think it's very usual for someone to get castrated two times in a day. i think it's because you can be castrated only once, and that castration isn't a very nice or normal thing to do.
and another thing. nini and the ninnys made their stupid ninny skit in which zhi wen and amanda getting married (which i am most happy about) then after that wang shu xun, which should be me, objects to their marriage and then amanda gets so touched and we run away togther to some other place (which is the part i'm not happy about). not that i like amanda, but anyway i think zhi wen's te nicest boy for her. :D
zhi wen's nice. sort of. but anyway, the music part of the camp was quite interesting. we got to hear all genres of music and stuff. hooray. then we took the bus and mrt home.
i think nini is a nice name for nicole, cos just before the first time i met her i watched nini's tree house. and "ni" is the first two letters for her name. and i think it's better than the other alternative name i made for her last time : nudecole. but i think shi bao would like it. so anyway, she says she'll stop calling me mama when i stop calling her nini.
oh well. cya guys then.
a moment in time.
20:54
Monday, October 20, 2003
i awoke to the sound of thunder hammering into the morning sky. with lightning as bright as the evening sun, and thunder as loud as an airplane, i fought my way through the storm to the bus stop.
tody was not going to be good. we got back history and geography. geography was ok, i did rather well, 72.5, but history was shit. totally shit. i got 67. i literally felt like killing myself. usually i get 2nd to nicole only for history, and never gotten a B before. but today, i actually got a b3. argh. i was crying in class but no one noticed.
maybe it was because i was too arrogant and overconfident about history. that day i even thought that i would get an a1. or 80. or somethign higher than 70. i think God brought me down to make me modest again. i think it's a good lesson for me to learn.
the rest of the day was ok, still feeling very sad, i followed a few friends to tampines mall. i ate something that cheered me up, some icecream ball thing. it was nice.
i hope my life will be happier in the future. the only thing that kept me from becoming suicidal were the grades for the other subjects. i calculated my overall, and it is 71. it isnt too bad, but i woud have gotten higher if not for history. boo hoo.
i might as well stop whining now and continue playing age of empires ii trial.
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21:16
Sunday, October 19, 2003
church and lunch was boring. i went to darren's house to play stuff with amanda, joanne, zhi wen and zi luo at the playground. it was kinda tiring and boring too. then we watched rugby and played warcraft 3. rugby seems to be a nice game. there's scrum, full back and all sorts of terms that i never heard of.
warcraft 3 is quite a good game. but what impressed me the most were the graphics. but aoe2, galatic battlegrounds and rise of nations beats it. i feel like buying the aoe box set thingy. it includes all 4 age of empires stuff and other extras like the soundtrack. hooray. maybe i'll get it for christmas.
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20:59
Saturday, October 18, 2003
yay. 512 people have visited. i like that number, its the speed i want for my internet. im never satisfied with what i have. oh. i rather have cable.
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21:12
THE ART OF ICE-SHOOTING
rifle
materials: one piece of crushed ice through a straw.
accuracy: 80%
efficiency: 40%
the rifle shot is the basic ammunation most novice ice shooters choose to use. it is good for target practice, good for quick shots, and has a higher accuracy than other weapons.
machine gun
materials: one well-crushed ice cube through a straw
accuracy: 60%
efficiency: 60%
the machine gun is good for wide targets, or multiple targets. although the accuracy of the machine gun is reduced, it has a higher efficiency than other weapons as it spreads over a larger effective area.
arrowhead
materials: one piece of elongated ice with a sharp end
accuracy: 75%
efficiency: 50%
giving a fairly good balance between accuracy and efficiency, it is usually used to inflict longer lasting wounds, but as it requires more skill to fire this weapon, it is usually used by more experienced ice-shooters
THE ART OF ICE-THROWING
grenade
materials: one ice cube
accuracy: 70%
efficiency: 40%
the useful grenade is usually used as a means of escape or attack against a single enemy. this weapon is commonly used on the battlefield, and should be watched out for, as it is hazardous towards it's victims.
cluster bomb
materials: five ice cubes
accuracy: 70%
efficiency: 70%
being the most costly weapon of all, it is rarely used. the cluster bomb is used as a desperate means of escape, or as a final attack against an enemy to gain victory. but as ice-production increases, it's use is also increasing.
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21:01
THE ART OF WISHFUL shrinking
today was a really busy saturday. i woke up earlier than usual, 6. i mean, 6 am on a weekend? i was feeling really grumpy. i don't usually feel grumpy in the morning. yeah. but anyway, most of the others were already there when i reached. shi bao looked really weird in the blazer, and nick's was too big for him. haha. but they still looked better than usual.
we took a nice little cosy bus to some m.o.e. teacher's network thing at the old raffles campus at grange road. it was quite dilapidated, but was still in good condition. we had some sort of breakfast at the "canteen" thing. the food there was ok. and so, at 8 am, the speech competition thingy started.
i think our contigent from dhs did quite well. nick and shi bao used personal references and anecdotes. audrey, ernest and jin cheng were good too. the only bad thing was that shi bao used a bad hokkien phrase. but at least it wasnt vulgar.
the ride back to school was most interesting. with terence's cd music drowning the bus with "hits" like the fast food song and perfect match, and the whole gep jumping up and down in the bus seats, it would beat any of those shit programs they show on tv mobile.
so we reached school, and the eds-gep people went to prepare for the dance, while the non-eds people went to the rescus of the teachers, who were struggling to battle the gales that blow the board thingies down. they survived, and without blu-tack and cellophane tape. ok, so it wasnt that dramatic.
eds preparation was done early, and we got on stage, with a stomach full of butterflies. we were not facing missiles and bullets in this war, we were fighting against the evils of psychological warfare. we fought for your freedom. ok, not freedom. but we managed to finish the dance fairly well. then it was time for me, the "mighty warrior" (that's what it says on my keychain), to take an enemy as a prisoner and torture them with the suckiest dance on the face of this planet.
we got 5-6 students from the gep primary schools, and included 3 teachers, namely our very own eds teacher, mr ken, my irs teacher, mr ng, and the weirdest teacher in the school, mrs chua. they were actually dancing. mr ken and mr ng were quite ok, but you wouldn't want to see mrs chua dancing, for example, as justin timberlake to the song "cry me a river" like js's grandma does. but they all did a good job on the first try of the dance.
admidst the laughter, we managed to get to kfc. i was so no way going to eat another bandito pockett again, so i took a colonel's special. it was much better than that stupid mexican thingy. i think i'll eat a colonel's special as my staple kfc meal from now on. yay. oh yes, and i have "perfected" the "skill" of "ice-shooting". my accuracy is about 90%, and my defence is 50%. nicole poured half a cup of ice down my shirt. bad girl. boo hoo. but i hit more shots than her. yay.
today was yet another exhausting but fun day. hooray for exams.
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20:17
Friday, October 17, 2003
today was so nice. sort of. me and amanda went to school together, then we met the others at the foyer. they were complaining that the classrooms were lock, and that there was no one in school. it was a "holiday" for the mainstreams. so being the discriminated minority, we had been abandoned on an island of suffering, disappointing and fear.
ok, i was talking crap. anyway, we played captain's ball before going to class. it was fun, and i got back my status of defender. sort of. i just played for a while. i can't stop calling terence "chicky" and "toot". i don't think he really likes, but me and a few others are too used to it. and i think those names are nicer than "terence".
throughout the day we got back our exams. i am rather satisfied with my results. last year i was one of the last few. this year, i might be one of the tops. ok, i'm not bragging. i'm just stating my opinions. oh yeah. and wen quan is now a top student. with a*'s among his results, while others can't even get an a1. wow. he's good. it's his hair. yeah, wen quan and me both cut out hair before the exams.
here's a list of my results, cos people keep asking me for them, so i might as well put them on my blog::::::
chinese: 72% (2nd...yay)
maths: 84% (average, around 8th)
science: 74% (4th??? or 5th)
english: 62% (average-low)
literature: 65% (average)
yay. i'm so happy. and terence was wrong, my dad isn't going to buy me the dell dimension 4600. i don't want it yet. my computer's components are still so new, they're just outdated. i bought new outdated parts. yay. so i guess it's last me till early next year, and im happy with it.
eds was quite ok. we had a new course thingy. it was fun, and we learnt something, for once. the dance practice was as usual boring, because i think i've got all the moves right. i hope. i just have to get my positioning right. i keep going behind sam for some reason.
well, i'm downloading openoffice now. going to try it out as another alternative to microsoft office xp/2000 and staroffice 6.0. yay. well, i'm having some publishing problems, so this might come out late.
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21:00
Thursday, October 16, 2003
i woke up early to go to eds practice, but ended up late. we did the stupid dance until 12 something. the last few dances were funny and nice. because vanessa left us to practice without her, and had gone for lunch while we did practice, cindy, aaron and tristan decided to make fun of how she danced. she dances exaggeratedly, and tries to be "sexy". or something like that.
so we tried to imitate her style, and ended up laughing our asses off. it was better than the robot dance. after eds, me, nicole, tristan and samuel went to kfc for lunch. aaron, yvonne and yi xiu had tried to beat us by walking there while we took 158. they got lost and went one whole round to something about suntec city, but still managed to find kfc. they actually walked the length of geylang river.
then we went back and after a while the day's matches started. soccer was the first, and the gep team lost 1-0 to 1f. the gep captain's ball team managed to beat the 1f captain's ball team. 25-11. thats a big margin. then they did it again with 1h. 22-10. 1f had beaten 1h 27-6, but after our team had beaten them, they decided to cheer for 1h and jeer at us. they had very bad sportmanship, or rather they were sore losers.
me, amanda, darren, zhi wen and sharan took 12 with some other people to white sands for dinner. throughout the whole trip i felt like puking. it wasn't motion sickness, for i never had motion sickness, but i guess it was that gross bandito pockett i had at kfc. i don't think i'll ever have that again. i felt much better after visiting the toilet.
i ended up just tasting some of zhi wen's peppery soup and some of amanda's beef soup thing, because i had no appetite. i also made some comments that even zhi wen felt were lame. its bad enough when people say you're lame, but when zhi wen gives you a dirty look, you know somethings wrong. i mean like, i don't know what i said, but it seems i never say anything right. hmph. if only they would tell me what to say.
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22:10
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
tweaked my blog a little, added a few more blog links finally, and took out some bugs.
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23:20
yay. 400 people.
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22:38
holodiary entry 666
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yay. today was fun. we played lots of captain's ball early in the morning at amanda's house. then we broke one of the flourescent tubes in the void deck. i think we should be more careful next time. so we retreated to the basketball court. after playign we went up to amanda's house.
abel started calling me monkey again, ever since he heard my friends call me marky, and annabelle pulled up her dress in front of jeremy. shes like only in lower primary school and she already has a crush on js. i know that angelic amanda isn't as angelic as she seems, but teaching her siblings sick stuff is like going too far. although i don't know what she has been teaching them, i sure know she isn't as innocent as she looks.
amanda = sick+bad role model. sort of. she's really weird, but kinda nice at some times too. but wait, zhi wen is her role model. holy mother of hell. zhi wen's also not too innocent. but heck, i'm getting confused, shall not go any further.
so anyway, lunch was at burger king, and i tried the cirspy king. it's quite ok, but there are better burgers. i really wanted to go to the arcade to do some shooting, but after some "discussion", me and darren went to yuhui's house to watch the lizzie mcguire movie. it's nice. i especially liked the short glimpse of miss *insert somethign here* doing the robot dance. haha. it was so funny. :D i think lizzie mcguire movie is nice.
then we went back to amanda's house to play another round of capt ball. zhi wen brought his two RI frens along. darryl and jonathan. they're nice. sort of. at the end of the game, yun yuan was already being called fishballs. i like her new nickname, fishballs. i like eating fishballs. when everyone had left, amanda came along. then we walked home together with sharan.
my blisters still hurt. boohoo. and sharan was asking me if i like amanda. why does everyone think i like amanda? she doesn't even like me. and if she did i wouldn't know. hmmph. i dont even think she considers me as a fren. oh yeah. she's zhi wen's husband already. yay.
i'll get going then.
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22:29
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
today was a painful but fun day. me, amanda, joanne, zhi wen, darren, priscilla, audrey, sam low, guan yu and derrick went to jurong centre to ice skate after lunch. i don't think i like ice skating very much. for one, i'm not good at it. also, i get blisters ice skating. but maybe i'll try some other day.
we ate at kfc, then walked around until we decided to go to amanda's house to play captain's ball. to tell the truth, it was much better than ice skating. so thats 10 bucks wasted. but never, at least i tried something new. we talked at first, and had a "picnic". then we started playing. yuhui came along in the middle of the game. it was fun. yay.
then we went to shell to eat ice cream. zhi wen treated us with 10 dollars, but we bought the 2.50 tub of ice cream. we decided to pay him 50 cents each another day.
today was exhausting, painful, and sufferful. wait, is sufferful a word? but no matter, it was still a good, fun, meaningful day. yay. i still can't believe the exams are over.
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22:56
Monday, October 13, 2003
yay. 350 people have visited my blog.
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22:40
today was fun. i finished the art exam, the final exam of all, 1 and a half hours early. i spent the rest of the time drawing aeroplanes until mrs chua let us off. we played basketball, football and captain's ball all the way from 10 to 1. it was so fun. yay.
then we went to parkway. at first we ate at burger king, then we visited all the shops with cute stuff in them. but i didn't buy any more white stars. one is enough. in the end i just bought a coconut pretzel. yay. then we went to mph to read and see stuff. on the way out, we saw theree of our dunman high teachers, one of them was mdm john. when we saw them we ran out of the bookstore.
after our adventures in parkway parade, we went to darren's house to play captain's ball with joanne. it was quite ok.
today was quite tiring but fun, and tomorrow we might be going ice skating.
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22:38
Sunday, October 12, 2003
church was about bgr today. but i won't talk about it. i went to eugene's house after lunch. we played lots of gta vice city and rise of nations. my very greatest milestone is to stay alive with 6 stars without any means of cheating and tricks. good old plain weapons and my bungalow saved me. i stayed alive for 15 minutes before giving up the fun and letting the army kill me. my first round of rise of nations wasnt very successful, cos i was not used to the interface. in the end i won my second campaign against korea. yay. we had curry chicken for dinner then i went home. now star wars is showing, and its quite nice.
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21:03
Saturday, October 11, 2003
and yeah, the test results say i have the same iq characteristics as albert einstein who was a visual mathematician too. hooray.
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23:10
yay. today was fun. but boring. er... are those contradictory? but never mind. i want the pearl harbor movie. i have the book, but i want the movie. :(. i don't even have a dvd-rom drive. im so deprived of a good computer. at least my programs are up to date, but i have to reinstall windows very soon cos i got quite a bunch of errors in my hard disk. i'll need that external cd-rw drive from shi bao very soon. i had raisin bread for breakfast, chicken rice for lunch, and dim sum for dinner. oh yeah, i also took this iq test. and here are my results:
Your IQ score is 131
This number is the result of a formula based on how many questions you answered correctly on Emode's Ultimate IQ test. Your IQ score is scientifically accurate; to read more about the science behind our IQ test, click here.
During the test, you answered four different types of questions — mathematical, visual-spatial, linguistic and logical. We analyzed how you did on each of those questions which reveals how your brain uniquely works.
We also compared your answers with others who have taken the test, and according to the sorts of questions you got correct, we can tell your Intellectual Type is Visual Mathematician.
This means you are gifted at spotting patterns — both in pictures and in numbers. These talents combined with your overall high intelligence make you good at understanding the big picture, which is why people trust your instincts and turn to you for direction — especially in the workplace. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.
yay. 131. i wonder if thats good.
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23:09
Friday, October 10, 2003
*deleted post bout who i like*
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20:50
i have a dream. the dream has come true. i have been able to get past the final examinations with only writer's cramp, a sore arm and a troubled mind. literature was ok. the chinese test was surprisingly easier than i thought. i think i'll get at least B. then suddenly everyone was screaming cos we had completed out final paper. i'm so happy.
then we were out in the bright sun playing football, jumping all over the monkey bars, playing captains ball across a basketball court and playing basketball all over the basketball court. altogether, i scored 5 goals in football, most of which were easy shots, and 2-3 in capt ball. i didn't score any in basketball cos i didn't get to shoot at all.
the sky seemed much nicer today. it was a very nice shade of blue. should have brought my camera to take a pic of it. then we went to bugis junction. its the farthest from home i have ever been from home besides the time i was with shauna and nicholas at orchard road. we ate at mos burger. i took a delicious cheeseburger and milkshake.
from 3-6 pm we walked around the whole place until my legs ached. i bought a cute lil' white star thing. i'm gonna put it on my bag, but nicole said it would get dirty, so i'm trying to decide. i reached home at 7. now my legs are tired, and i can't get off my chair.
today was so fun, the relief, the freedom. wow.
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20:11
Thursday, October 09, 2003
part 1: repentance
i was watching the show about neville tan cos Mum wanted me to. it was touching and nice and all the usual stuff you say about these kind of shows. but it had a great impact of me. it's not usual you get such a damn evil guy to become those sort of pastors who will go all the way for God. he's a guy to be respected.
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part 2: regret
i don't think that i can take it, i don't think i'll be able to leave 1K. its only been one year, but i've become too used to the people in my class. i hope there'll be some people i know that'll be with me in my next class, especially those shps people. they're like the only ones i got now. i must pray for bravery and strength to get past all of these.
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part 3: revenge
i watched part of the elizabeth choy show thingy. the japanese were bloody evil during the war. i wish i had all my gta2 powers and a time machine. so i could go back in time and give them such a big bang that they would never be able to sleep again in a decade. but well, the japs have changed. take a look at mr ken, he's one of the best teachers. i hope we get him for english and lit next year. yay.
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21:39
HOORAY>>>my blog is up again.
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20:20
oh yay. someone hacked my accounts again. but i always manage to get it back up. this time i'm changing my password someone would NEVER know. like popcorn or spongebob.
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20:13
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
i've got no time to change the question of the post, but i'll do it after the exams. oh yeah. history was scary. i finished the whole thing half an hour before the end, while some people didn't even complete it. poor things. i think i did it real fast cos i needed to go to the toilet. yay. there were so many gepers on the mrt today. yay. i think i better continue studying science and stop playing snake ii.
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21:04
Monday, October 06, 2003
yay, counter reached 100.
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21:20
i have lost contact from my favourite search engines, google and yahoo. my computer is gonna screw up real soon. i really need a new comp. i shall have to stick to the inferior westerner's msn search. the chinese google rocks more. ok. i'm talking crap.
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21:10
ok. so i will be blogging. spent the past hour troubleshooting notepad and internet explorer. ok. you can't troubleshoot notepad, so i just replaced it with the backup i have on the diskette which i bring to school everyday. i don't know why i have such things in my diskette, like copies of paint, calculator and deluxe cd player. and chrono trigger midis and the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy game. i guess it's just so i have more stuff to carry. but anyway, i just reinstalled everything. i think i need a complete reinstallation of windows 98 very soon. well, english paper 1 and geog were easier than i expected. but i don't know if my compo fitted the topic i chose well. i shall not go into it. i made some mistakes for geog. ok, so i did know the correct answers, but for some weird reason i put the wrong ones. :S what has happened to me?
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21:08
Sunday, October 05, 2003
i guess i won't be blogging for quite long during the next week, which is dominated by exams. what i'm hoping for is a miracle to help me pass all my exams. i hope i do well too. and i hope for world peace. i also hope for a new computer. i also hope that the end of the world is not too soon. yay. so goodbye everyone, cos its a break for my blog but now a break for me.
God bless ya, Mark.
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21:06
Friday, October 03, 2003
wow. i just downloaded avant browser. it's good. better than mozilla and ie and netscape. its now my default browser. if you're looking for the best of all the worlds, get avant browser. the url is Avant Browser. yay. it has the most features and the fastest speed and lots of other stuff like skins.
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23:13
yay. added a counter.
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22:26
Thursday, October 02, 2003
i'm gonna add a counter and update my stuff on this blog tmr. now is getting late, so i gotta go. bye. oh yeah. i recommend terence's blog for a good read when you're bored and stuff. but beware, he has 10 midis on his blog, so don't blame me if your comp crsahes.
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22:34
listening to bee gees. they are good. i still love their songs. i used to listen to them on the radio cos my parents only played 90.5FM until last year, when i was introduced to contemporary music.
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22:16
blah. got low for science ca2. 64.2/100 science is one of my best subjects, and i did so well in the new south wales competition. what happened? boohoo. 3 hits in a row. science test = 8/20, pirates compre = 24/50, science ca2 = 64.2/100. i don't think i can take one more wham on my head, because the next results will be the final exam. im on the brink of destruction. sort of. ive lost all confidence, and faith in God. in depression and i can't get out.
my income has been lowered again, to 5 bucks a day. but i still can take usual. i'm really trying to save money now, but my parents are saying that i shouldnt be a miser and stuff. would you rather be generous and have people take advantage of you, or be a miser and have people hate you? maybe i was overly generous last time... or was i generous at all? you tell me.
but anyway, i think i need a strong spurt of last minute hope and knowledge, prayer and strength, to actually get me straights a's in the finals. i'm aiming for straight a's, and at most 2 a2's. haiz, maybe too high expectations. but never mind, i'll try my best, as usual, and see if this time God actually works to help me. is it because i'm not a serious Christian anymore? people tell me i know lots of stuff, but then i admit that i don't put any of it into practice. or is it because i've broken one of the most important of the 10 commandments, to respect your parents? yeah. i don't know. i think i got baptised for the sake of it. but at that time i was rather serious. i think i need to mend my ways.
i was watching this show on "the in crowd and social cruelty". i watched it 3 times already. on channel news asia. it's a really good show, and they show every aspect of bullying, teasing and the out crowd. and show how the in crowd and bullies have hurt the others. even the innocent by standers are the bad ones, cos they do nothing bout the bad stuff. they just stand there and look on cos they're scared. and when they join in, they join the dark side. i've realised now how much i am part of the out crowd with ernest and eugene. people like shi bao and others (terence, js?) are part of the in crowd, and there are those by-standers, like er... ying xian? and bing huan?. ok, now i'm getting weird.
you know, all that time should have been spent studying. yeah. but as i said, i've lost all hope. and i've already finished studying today. i took the advice of some friends, to study more in-depth instead of skimming through. but i don't know if it's too late. i've started to make mental notes and using different methods to memorize them, like order of operations, which i still fail at even after 2 years of doing them. now i have memorized the order: parentheses, exponents, * and /, + and -. hooray. i have mastered the order of operations. after 2 years.
haiz, i'd rather stop now. shi bao just said my blog sucks. :S if people think my blog sucks so much, why do they even read it. i'm write in my blog because i hold my feelings here, and i've got no one to pour them out to.
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21:05
Wednesday, October 01, 2003
ok, here are some of the others i got, notes are below the definitions:::
Mark
n. 1. a woman. 2. contraceptives.
"This is a secret Mark!"
note: NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! this cannot be. no way.
Amanda
n. a person without a male.
"Reggie, that Amanda is so expensive!"
note: this really contradicts what i stand for
Nicole
v. to become fake.
"Jesse, don't Nicole!"
note: ok, so i didn't knew nic was fake
Amanda loves Zhi Wen
adj. to be in a (sexual) relationship with someone.
"Is it true that Kelly and Kelly are Amanda loves Zhi Wen?"
note: BWAHAHA this is a sign from heaven. bwahaha.
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22:51
i have just discovered the greatest definition of zhi wen. from the surrealist:
Zhi Wen
n. shoes, often big.
"All your Zhi Wen are belong to us, dude."
notes:
1) Zhi Wen is a big shoe
2) ALL YOUR Zhi Wen ARE BELONG TO US. --- if you ever watched "all your base are belong to us", then you'll know why i say this is the greatest ever.
fine print: oh yeah. i'm not gay. i just discovered it after feeling very bored and typing "amanda loves zhi wen" in the box, and then "amanda" and "zhi wen"
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22:46
blah blah blah. someone changed my blog's settings just now. at least i have a backup copy of the template. this is the sign that all my friends knowing my password is now dangerous. im changing all my passwords.
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21:13
