Monday, May 28, 2007

a moment in time.
14:12

THANKS FOR THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!

Well, it's the day of the geog trip! Actually, I'm not really looking forward to it anymore. I feel like I should have gone for the History trip to S Korea instead. Geog trip has a LOT of work involved. All the field work and stuff. And it's so long! That leaves me only 2.5 weeks to:

- MUG for midyears
- Complete Drama stuff
- Go for Drama camp
- Chinese homework
- Do Project Work
- Catch up with everyone

And lots more. =( Argh

Haha anyway, should be fun la. I'm gonna miss everyone! Thanks to everyone for making my birthday great! =) Yup! And sms me ok! If not I'll be lonely without anyone there. =( And like miss me! And email me! =) Goodbye!

a moment in time.
01:39

Sunday, May 27, 2007

THANKS FOR A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY! =)

Haha it was such a nice day! Got up early at 9 and watched some TV, then went for lunch with my parents and aunts at Raffles Town Club. Haha such an expensive meal! Triple digit! Haha but woo. I never grow sick of Japanese food. All the Teppanyaki and Sashimi and Sushi and IKURA. Omg omg. Ecstasy. Actually jap food isn’t totally awesome, but it’s one of the best cuisines as a whole. Because it’s so refreshing and clean. Hmm.. Anyway, there was this wonderful mango flan cake! Haha and oh! 3 minutes more =( Oh. I’m back from looking at my packing stuff. It’s 2 mins after my birthday! =(



Birthdays seem to get less special as one gets older. Sigh. But today (yesterday) was really nice, and a lot of people have made it a great birthday =) Haha I don’t feel anything special. As in I might have been born on another day and still celebrate 26 May as my birthday, and it was be no different. Thus, birthdays are a social construction to fulfil level 4 of Maslow’s hierarchy.

Anyway, I went to Tampines Mall for dinner! Haha thanks Michelle, Pamela, Laura for spending my birthday with me! *beam* And thanks Michelle and Simran for baking the delicious BIG blueberry muffin!



And Michelle and Pamela for buying the candles and stuff haha! And Laura for going around with me. And everyone for taking neos. Haha thanks for making my birthday wonderful! =)




Mark is an emo G2000 model!


Mark loves shopping -_-"
Sorry I can’t thank everyone one-by-one like I did last year, too many people have made my birthday wonderful! Thanks to everyone who gave me presents (zhihui for the sweet cross-stitch, phoebe rachel alistair for the damn funny virginal pills and dartboard, xtine for the overwhelming scrapbook and all the people who wrote in it, bea for the candy, mich and sim for the delicious blueberry muffin!) And thanks to everyone who wished me happy birthday! (which I really cant count cos there’s really really a lot sorry) thanks so much! =)

Flying off on Monday and I haven’t packed!

a moment in time.
00:17

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Today was such an utterly wonderful day! =) I got a nice wonderful present from my previous exco haha (thanks Rachel, Phoebe, Alistair!!!) Haha it’s a dartboard to decide if she loves me, loves me not, or just friends. Haha damn cool! So appropriate for me =) haha! and a bottle of… VIRGIN AGAIN. Makes you feel like a virgin again and again! Woo! =)

Haha full day was announced. And everyone was cheering but we had SPA. And everyone was like SPA SPA SPA. Haha so we did and I REALLY took my time doing it. Still have time to stroll around and mix random liquids. Haha! Damn fun. Then it was HOLIDAY!! Omg omg omg! Haha anyway, I went for geog trip briefing first. And xtine met me outside and gave me like the BEST birthday present I’ve ever gotten la! It was really really what I wanted. A scrapbook full of photos and messages from the people of my life! =)

So, thanks to: my wonderful class 05V13, the wonderful, albeit random, 07S46, my fantastic DRAMA Club, the fun and quirky Draco CHEERLEADERS, and most of all, my darling darling Christine for really making my day =) Love you all! =)

Haha after the briefing, went for some lanning with ch, leon, freddie, Lenard. WOO CS!!! Hahaha I love my CQB skills. Whee. And then DOTA, which after 2 years of hiatus, I still suck at. But this time I got to level 22! Which is like 3 away from the max. Hoho. Then we went for Katong laksa, but I had a thai coconut instead. And they played pool while I stoned.

MAJESTIA: thanks VJCSB for a wonderful, emo performance! I loved the ensemble performances! Woo! Haha and thanks Beatrice for the candy =)

Omg this week has been such an amazingly exciting and high rollercoaster! =)

Thanks to everyone for the presents and wishes! =) Even though it wasn’t my birthday yet. Haha! But ya, thanks so much!

a moment in time.
00:51

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Today was a rollercoaster day! As most days have been. PW was like such a relief. Cos we finally finished the GPP and I'm proud of us! =) And I'm proud of myself for my EOM, and still quite happy about my wonderful half-hour ki essay. Hoho! =) But then we got back Physics lectest :( I failed! I expected to pass la. Sigh. Cos I'm gonna rely on Physics to save my Midyears. Then I was pretty tired also. Then it was drama exco results.

So, what's in a post? Is it the recognition? Maybe you think fame will follow? Is it the name? Is it the title? Is it the sparkling testimonial? No, it's what you do, and what you put into your team. It's what you contribute, how much you contribute. People like to say that it's not the end but the process, but that's bullshit. It's also how far you can take your team, how well you lead them, and where you end up.

I actually have no idea how I ended up in this route, this path of theatre and the arts. I sorta know the whole story, how Nick (yes, short, currently growing up and girl-obsessed, but always faithful and true, Yan Gen) switched places with me, so that I had a chance in Drama, even though I din't get in through auditions in DHS. And somehow I ended up on this path. Sometimes i regret it, not taking up atheletics from young, seeing how people can run kilometres without problem, while me, though with fair speed, am left behind after the first round.

But yet I know, no matter how unfounded, I've committed myself to this path, for the time being. Sure, I don't intend to act in the future, but no one knows for sure, because life's so unpredictable. And I know that I've found a place among both cast and crew, among directors, among my fellow ex-exco members. It's not something I'll forget soon, not something I'll easily move on from, because the experience has been the most enriching to me.

Even though it was a damn crazy rollercoaster, we got through, and I'd like to thank Rachel my one-and-only-president, Phoebe the-person-who-is-nice-to-talk-to-and-my-co-director, Alistair who-I-used-to-call-Alastair-emo-boy, Jacqueline the-nice-fellow-geoger, Ganesh fellow-ip-exco, for all that you've given me. And I know at farewell, no matter how strong we are, no matter how well we act, there'll be tears. Please don't forget us. Don't leave us behind as you move on to greater endeavours. Don't forget to remember me. Because I'll be doing my best to give my best.

a moment in time.
20:10

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

"Paint my love
You should paint my love
It’s the picture of a thousand sunsets
It’s the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love"
- Paint My Love - Michael Learns To Rock

Sigh. PW. =(

a moment in time.
23:52

Monday, May 21, 2007

Today was so upsetting! =( My Chinese oral was soooo bad. Omg omg. I got a difficult passage to read, and I forgot a lot of words to use during the conversation. Then the teacher was like "must work harder hor!" in chinese at the end. =( haha then I was all bah. Sigh. Haha but KI was cool. Like a LOT of people were gone. So there were 5 people left, and the lesson itself was quite quick, and we watched the Truman Show! Hoho =) Then a combined tutorial haha. Ok, 2 tests tomorrow! Sigh. My grades are like SO TOTALLY in contrast to what I've been getting my whole life. Gah. Life.

"I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied and my heart's not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away, pretending I don't love you"
- The Hardest Thing - 98 Degrees

And that's why when you passed by my way today
I looked away, knowing it was the last time we'd say goodbye

a moment in time.
21:24

Sunday, May 20, 2007

WOO. Haha another crazy day. Church and PW, then I decided between homework and partying. Drown your sorrows man. The next week's gonna be long and tough.

Monday - Chinese oral
Tuesday - Chinese test, Math test
Wednesday - Drama exco results
Thursday - 2.4 rerun
Friday - Chem SPA C&D, Majestia
Saturday - =)
Sunday - Party

Monday - OFF!!!

a moment in time.
23:56

Friday, May 18, 2007

Your Love is Represented by a White Rose

While you may or may not be totally naive, you do approach love with an eternal innocence. You love like you've never been hurt. And you put all your faith in your partner. Your philosophy on love is: be honest and be yourself.

Despite what you may think, you've never been the one in my eyes. I used to think you were someone who would be there for me, there beside me to follow me through the highs and the lows. And we did have some fun times, a long time ago. And maybe, sometimes, we were happy together. But now I've seen it all, and I know that we should never have even thought about it. Hoping for some truth left, but never realising how deep the trap was. So I've never had you, and I'll let you go now, just like I've always have. We'll go our separate ways, start anew, and maybe, someday, on a street corner, we'll see each other. And maybe we'll smile at each other, wave, and leave again.

a moment in time.
23:50

Thursday, May 17, 2007

I saw you smile today
But I turned away

Haha my run today was so horrid! Gah. But yah la, at least got excuse, teacher still ask me if I was ok not. Haha got 12:58. Which is really bad, even by my standards. I’m gonna rerun next week, hopefully I’d have fully recovered by then. If not, silver doesn’t seem too bad… Sigh. Ah well. Oh then I tried out some Chinese oral passages today! Haha I’m improving *beams* Long day tomorrow! Physics test, Guitar concert, and something special during geog. Hoho.

a moment in time.
20:05

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Haha today was a busy day. PW, then SYFC interview, the Drama post-production party and exco speeches! Haha had lunch at a place which really reminded me of Malaysia. Haha it's just outside Seletar Camp.



Then I went into SYFC and waited for my interview. Haha damn funny la those guys. Asked me super weird questions which I'm sure they din't ask the others. Like about my dreams and ambitions and whether I would give up those for a higher calling to be Chief of Air Force. Hmm they might not take me in after what I've said. Hoho. Then I chionged back for Drama PPP! Haha quite fun. Pizza and games and just stoning and slacking. Then the speeches. Haha I didn't say all I had to! And I couldn't read my handwriting so I kept pausing, which was irritating cos I had been hoping to pull it off perfectly. Ah well. Then after, we played like balloon volleyball haha all the bored people. Had dinner at Aston's. My 2.4 tomorrow, so I'm off.

---

You could no longer talk to me, and it wouldn't matter. I've always cared about you, but all you say is "thanks", then you turn away like I'm not even there. Because you only care about yourself. And it's sad to think that it's after these years that I've finally realised you're not a person who deserves my friendship. You never remember all I've done for you, all I've gone through just to make you happy, and you're only there when you need me. You've never cared about me, never really treated me as your friend. To you, everything I do is weird, anything I sing is horrible, caring about you is irritating, all my effort is never good enough. But that's ok, cos now you've really shown your true colours. NEVER say you know me, because you've NEVER been there for me when I needed you. So you can turn your back on me, keep walking away, because when you turn back, I won't be there.

You're just a face without a name.

a moment in time.
21:49

Monday, May 14, 2007

You Probably Look Younger Than Your Age

You live a healthy lifestyle and know how to take care of yourself. You'll probably have a youthful glow for many years.

You Are a Banana Split

Fruity, flavorful, and diverse. Who can beat a true superstar?

You Are In a Good Mood

Today, you're feeling pretty together and happy. While not everything is going you're way, you're keeping things in perspective. And it seems like things are looking up for you!

You Are a Grilled Cheese Sandwich

You are a traditional person with very simple tastes. In your opinion, the best things in life are free, easy, and fun. You totally go with the flow. And you enjoy every minute of it! Your best friend: The Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich Your mortal enemy: The Ham Sandwich

You Are a Light Pink Rose

You represent sweetness and grace. Your vibe: Kind and gentle Falling in love with you: is like falling in love with a best friend

Do you remember the times we still believed in love?
Do you remember the times we spent together?
Do you remember the times we just sat beside each other?
Just talking about how our lives were meant for each other
Singing the same duets, how our voices came together
Singing late into the night, how we woke the songbirds
Who sang with us, in a world of two hearts together
Weren’t we the best of friends?

I miss those days.

I’ve never forgotten you all these months
I still see you walking by the window
I still feel you when you’re near me
I still feel the bliss of your smile
I still hear the same songs we sang
I still sing our song
And this is my song, for you

Haha my singing role models are people like Michael Jackson, the Bee Gees, Westlife, Justin Timberlake, Daniel Bedingfield, Shayne Ward - unnaturally high voices and falsettos in perfect harmony. WOO

a moment in time.
21:43

Sunday, May 13, 2007

He's back in business. Cruising at 230, blasting bass through the streets in a Lambo. Here he goes again and again, so fast you don't even feel it. He's back.

a moment in time.
22:03

Saturday, May 12, 2007

It might feel like the world's crumbling down around you
You've seen everything come and go and you're left behind
You'd like to think that the world's way too good for this
But sometimes reality catches up with you too soon
You've gone too far into your illusion of delusion
You've always tried to keep all the way it is
But now you feel everything's just a rollercoaster ride down

Haha pw today. Wah starting to get sian of PW. But it seems so normal to me, so I guess I'll get through. Hope we've been working well together haha. And like all the crapping and talking and looking at my prom smile. ARGH. =(

Sometimes I feel like I've let too much go

But nobody’s listening

a moment in time.
22:44

Will you remember a fortnight from now?

KI Question of the day! - Where does emotion begin? Experience? Reasoning?

a moment in time.
00:06

Thursday, May 10, 2007

I'm wondering wth's happening now. My grades have dropped wayyy below my standard. I've NEVER failed a subject twice in a row. And I'm so fatigued and the world seems kinda brighter while it's all crumbling down around me. I'm scared I won't make the cut for H3 during midyears. I'm scared I've been cheating myself. I'm scared I haven't balanced my life as well as I have for the past 16 years. I'm freaked out that I seem to have less commitments than people in SC or with 5 CCAs but yet I'm doing worse when I should be doing better than last year. I'm scared that I'm stressed even though I'm almost slacking in academics. I'm scared I'll regret taking the wrong combi, just to stay with the people I love.

Chem SPA tomorrow.

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd have had to miss the dance

There's two ways to live life:
Make choices you'll regret
Not regret making those choices

a moment in time.
23:31

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

This has been the craziest Term 2 I've ever had. Comparable to IP2 Term 2, with the same workload but in a form not including projects but endless tutorials, assignments, presentations. Today was cool. Like the first big drama meeting we had since drama nite. To take photos and discuss stuff and they rehearsed the Temasek Pri play haha. Cool we're actually doing quite a lot after Drama Nite this year. Next year will be even crazier, with common tests and drama nite AND syf. Hoho. I'm ready for it man. Ok I'm sick. And damn lethargic. Don't think I'll be able to run tomorrow, but now, I'm gonna sleep till tomorrow morning and see if Daniel's advice is good advice. it's now 1752. I'll sleep by 1830. Goodnight world.

a moment in time.
17:45

I'm now in V24, with nothing to do but lots of homework. And typically, I'm not. Anyway, yesterday was such an interesting day! Haha drama exco interview which was funny haha. =) And then going to see Keely at Music in the Air. Haha Mediacorp Studios is such a letdown. Thought it would be super glam or something. Haha the studio we went to was like BBC's but smaller. Haha and everything's so fake! Sigh. I was damn stoned. But quite cool la. Haha Keely din't sing tho =( haha. And I nearly got Fiona Xie's autograph but she was running away from the horde of guys after her haha! Ya la. Got back pretty late. I think I'm falling sick. Hmm...

a moment in time.
10:09

Monday, May 07, 2007

you have got to be KIDDING me

a moment in time.
23:38

Sunday, May 06, 2007

20 days to... =)

Woah. I just love my subwoofer. I used to put it at half-bass, but now, at normal volume and full bass, my computer literally (and I mean literally) shakes when I play PCD or Linkin or Fort Minor or Ludacris or whatever othe rock or hiphop. It blows da house down. (The tables literally SHAKE, so do the photo frames, as do my neighbours' fists when I blast it past midnight.) Yo yo. Haha today is a great day of work. Drama exco poster, hume ppt, mencius ppt. Lolol. And blogger kinda looks (and works) screwy? Is anyone getting it too? =(






This is SINGAPORE.





On the way to heaven.



And the red daisy died! =( Actually, all the flowers did, just that the daisy shed cute dandelion-like stuff.

a moment in time.
14:21

Saturday, May 05, 2007

Making the same old mistakes again?

No, not this time.

Why's everyone letting it go so easily?

They never remember the things you do for them.
One little issue, they be gone.
Just some small thing, they'll give you that glare.
They'll never remember all you've done for them.
It's harder to be happy.

a moment in time.
21:07

a moment in time.
01:42

Thursday, May 03, 2007

NAPFA today! Argh. bad bad bad. I din't get A for pullups! =( I got A A A C C (2 Cs for pullups and sbj) =( gah. MUST GET GOLD. MUST. Oh and just finished the pw gpp! =) *is happy*

a moment in time.
23:40

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

There's a fine line between eye candy, infatuation, liking someone, falling in love, falling FOR love and love.

a moment in time.
21:50

a moment in time.
00:17

face to face

Mark Heng // markhsx
26.05.90 // Gemini
Christian // Church of Singapore
Singapore // Tampines
QPS // 1-2, 2-1, 3-1
SHPS // 4-11, 5-11, 6-12
DHS // 1K, 2K ; EDS
Victoria IP // 05V13 ; V.Actors ; Subjectif
Victoria JC // 07S41 ; V.Actors ; Subjectif

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walking away.

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.melissa
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.yirui
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.yixiu
.yufei
.yuhui
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.yun yuan
.yvonne
.yvonne [snr]
.zhai juan
.zhi hui
.zhi quan
.ziluo

turning back.