_colour my life_ my monologue

Monday, April 30, 2007

Beauty never changes...

a moment in time.
00:30

Sunday, April 29, 2007

There's no feeling like being on stage.

The spotlight, the applause, the silence, the majesty.

The presence, the voice, the resonance.

HAHA. IP Open House. Sigh. What's becoming of IP. Gosh gosh gosh. But no, there's hope, and we'll be there to save the day! haha it was really nostalgic, especially when I passed by the Physics presentations - reminded me of how I'd have to remember Drama Nite scripts while memorising physics ppt scripts at the same time, and the crazy open house day after drama nite. Like multiple orgasms. Although that REALLY isn't a good analogy. I'm just this random at night. Haha it was fun la. But I think last year's was way better. Since I was presenting. Hoho. And went for lunch at KFC and just talked and talked about IP and open house and how to save our publicity ever since poh meng cut the publicity budget. Grr.

PW tomorrow! =S

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01:32

Saturday, April 28, 2007

On a rather less interesting sort of note - I was selected along with Ivie to go for Campus on 938live. The issue was pertinent, the questions were thought-provoking, the answers were politically correct. Lol. So I missed almost the whole day of lessons.

TODAY (being 27th April 2007) WAS AWEEEESOMMMMEEE =)

Mark is happy =)

Thank you to the people who've really really made my day. I know we've gone through so much, done so much, toiled and shed more than most, and yet we've come through, made it - we came, saw, conquered. Here's the people I wanna thank for making Drama Nite the success it was.

Firstly, and most importantly, my fellow exco-members and directors - especially Rachel and Phoebe, who put up with all my nonsense and blabbering of random crap, and for working so so so hard to put on a good show and I'm really glad we got through the stress and the tension and the late nights that seem ubiquitous with every Drama Nite I've gone through (this is my 3rd!) And for giving me advice and encouragement. Thank you SO MUCH =)

And then, the cast of the play I co-directed - OEDI! To Daniel, Debbie, Matthew, Ahnaf, and Mr Ng, thank you so much for the commitment you guys (plus girl) put into staging this production and putting up with me and staying for the late nights and rehearsals despite your busy schedules and I'm just so so thankful that we had a wonderful cast! Here's to the time I'll miss. =)

To the teachers - Mr Young, Ms Farah and Mr Ng - for being there for us, beside us, with us, for accompanying us through those late nights and guiding us =)

To the rest of those involved in Drama Nite - cast, crew, pa - I know the past few weeks have been tough with all the late nights and non-stop rehearsals. You've made it a success and you know it! Thank you for such a wonderful production this year! For the commitment and energy on stage and off stage. =)

To the 32 people who I sold tickets to: my parents, keely, nat, liying, samchye, jstrav, ch, leon, eric, shannon, daniel, nicole, laura, Xh and her friend, jasmine (and her two wonderful friends), pamela's friend, yirui, wingyan and 11 people from the cross country team - thanks for supporting me! And those that couldn't be there but yet gave so much encouragement, thanks! =) To those I didn't sell tickets to, but were there amongst the audience supporting me and the whole of Drama Nite - much appreciation goes out to you!

And last of all (hopefully I haven't missed out anyone) to those who gave me flowers and random other stuffs -
Yuhui: for the note and lollipop =)
Nicole: for the note and seaweed (haha) =)
Christine: for the daisy! =)
Laura: for the daisy! =)
Koganti and Sean: for the sunflower! =)
Jacqueline and Chun Jia: for the daisy! =)
Xh, Yirui, Matthew, Beatrice: for the box of Merci chocs! =)
Jacqueline: for the note and cute choc man! =)

Haha I love daisies and sunflowers! Thanks lots! =)

Thank you for making this such a memorable day =)

And to those involved in IP Open House (including myself, cos I'm dropping by) jia you and all the best and show them what we've got!

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00:53

Thursday, April 26, 2007

It's tomorrow!! =)

Hooray! =) It's been a really long week, and it's coming to an end! Haha hope everything goes perfectly tomorrow! *Is excited* Haha and I'm going for the Campus Live thing. Cos Ivie and I got selected by Ms Wu. Lol! That means I'm missing the whole day's lessons! OMG! =( That's a hell lot of catching up to do especially since it's a Friday. Ok, it's late, I'm tired and drained, so cya all at Drama Nite tomorrow!

OH! Just noticed Jastine's tag:

jastine: najib: the very first person to pass the form up to me was mark! at 6 smth on wednesday! WTF

HAHAHA. YES I WAS! Actually both Wingyan and I. Haha but I went to school at 630! LOL! WOOO! GEOG TRIP TO NZ!

*is happy*

My dad: "Found the $1 chicken rice uncle opp hilda coffee shop" WOOOO! *is happier!*

"Lord, You seem so far away
A million miles or more it feels today
And though I haven't lost my faith
I must confess right now
That it's hard for me to pray
But I don't know what to say
And I don't know where to start
But as You give the grace
With all that's in my heart

I will sing I will praise
Even in my darkest hour
Through the sorrow and the pain
I will sing I will praise
Lift my hands to honor You
Because Your Word is true
I will sing

Lord it's hard for me to see
All the thoughts and plans You have for me
But I will put my trust in You
Knowing that You died to set me free
But I don't know what to say
And I don't know where to start
But as You give grace
With all that's in my heart"

a moment in time.
23:46

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

The streets seem so empty now...

The days are dark, the nights get cold

Today's geog lecture was FREAKING COOOOOOL!!! Haha a Nat Geog Resident EXPLORER came down and spoke to us about his travels and how cultural loss was taking place as well as natural loss. Omg. And his ppt was a slideshow of some of the most amazing photos I've seen. It's not the photos, it's the context that really blew me away. I would love to follow in his footsteps and travel the world and see what the world has to offer.

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00:18

Monday, April 23, 2007

"Life's simple, you make choices and you don't look back."

The stress begins to build... today. Here we go. We're into THE week. Let's roll.

It's just that I've always felt
I'd never be good enough for you
I'd rather see you happy with him
Somebody more perfect than me

Maybe if one day
Love would give me a chance
I'd tell you from my heart
I'd give the world
Just to be there for you

a moment in time.
21:44

Sunday, April 22, 2007

It is your emotions that will get back to you. So afraid of dreaming, so afraid of failure. You think about life but it just goes round and round, so futile yet so essential, the very essence of our beings. How can you deny truth, time, reality, destiny, wishes. dreams, hope, love, feelings, emotions, passion ... - how can you deny, how can you ignore these when they are the very things that keep us alive? You like to think that you can fly with wings like eagles, soar into the skies, but when those wings come to you, you're afraid to even try them on. Dive into the deep ocean, because that's the only thing you can do.

New Zealand!

LOLOL. Yes, I really should be doing my KI essay. But I just happened to stop by Subjectif, and I realised I've gotten quite a few comments on my political posts I haven't noticed.

http://blog.vjc.sg/2006/05/02/you-have-a-choice/
http://blog.vjc.sg/2006/07/15/speak/

And actually, these comments seem to be more interesting than my post. Or maybe not oO. But somehow, it just brings back the memories of when I was still passionate about politics and my days of disdain at the political apathy and weakness of Singaporeans and the perpetual, unrelenting dominance of the PAP. Hmm.. the good old days. Don't worry, our dear Singaporean government, I'll be back one day. One day, you won't even notice me as I strike fear right into your hearts. We are well-versed in our father's ways.

"You seem to be well-versed in your father's parables"

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22:23

Well, it seems like you forget the things I do for you too fast.
You can't always have things your way, give a thought for others.
The world isn't about you, my world doesn't revolve around you.
Get real.

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21:04

Saturday, April 21, 2007

You Are the Ego

You take a balanced approach to your life.
You definitely aren't afraid to act out on your desires - even crazy ones.
But you usually think first. Morals drive you as much as hedonism does.
You've been able to live a life of pleasure... without living a life of excess.

Are You Id, Ego, or Superego?

You Are 12% Phobic

Wow, you're scared of very little. And you're always conquering new fears that come up.
Have you considered a career as a stunt double? You should at least go on one of those crazy reality shows where you eat bugs!

How Phobic Are You?

Your Love Quote

Love is like pi -- natural, irrational, and very important.

What Love Quote Suits You?

I wish I couldn't act. Then I wouldn't put on a facade over my true emotions, just to hide them.

(Post 1900!)

a moment in time.
21:29

Haha. School gets boring.

What a freaking long day. Lol. Lectures and tutorials abound, and I was glad when mock spa ended. Slacked around at the canteen, watched some softball (keep fighting on!) and went to rehearsals. Then ICS NITE! haha prema sim serena vaishali ganesh haha great job! It was quite an experience =) Haha FINALLY. The weekends. And no rehearsals! I GET SOME REST (Just that I have: ki history essay, ki hume powerpoint, pw gpp and eom, geog guilin brochure, math 5.2 tutorials) Work never seems to stop... I hate to think my life is like that now. Guess I've gotten used to it.

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01:06

Thursday, April 19, 2007

"Have there been times to laugh
And times you really want to cry
Finding reasons to believe her
Cause you'd die a little if she lied
And when in times of doubt
Have you ever tried to work it out
But still she leaves you wondering
What it's all about"

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21:21

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Right. Enough angst. I decided my dream in life is to... TRAVEL THE WORLD and TRY EVERY BEN AND JERRY'S FLAVOUR and EXPERIENCE THE MUSIC OF LIFE AND LOVE and TAKE AS MANY PHOTOS AS I WANT OF AS MANY PEOPLE AND PLACES AS POSSIBLE and LIVE IN A WORLD WHERE PEOPLE DON'T HURT EACH OTHER (OR THE WORLD FOR THAT MATTER) and most of all, BE HAPPY!!!

i don't like what i've become.

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23:43

To Daniel, Lisa, and ESPECIALLY Charissa: Sorry.

in a world where
truth lies
perfection imperfects
reality dramatises
love hurts
memories fade
silence speaks
sight blinds
light darkens
music drowns

...

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23:34

And so, after 2 years, I still haven't experienced what I consider the greatest yearly event in the food calendar. All because of Drama Nite. every year! I shall go after NS! woo.

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01:10

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

"And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end, the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd have had to miss the dance"

In my wildest dreams,
I feel your arms around me,
Lost in your starry eyes,
I hear you whisper in my ear,

"I love you."

a moment in time.
00:09

Sunday, April 15, 2007

And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong.

Haha cool YouTube videos!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vr3x_RRJdd4 -The Free Hugs Campaign!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMH0bHeiRNg - Evolution Of Dance

"Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed.
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed.

Some say love it is a hunger
An endless, aching need
I say love it is a flower,
And you it's only seed."
- The Rose - Westlife

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20:35

Saturday, April 14, 2007

http://www.msdewey.com/

Haha this is cool! It's a Windows Live Search interface via an interactive character (some hot chick. hurhur) haha she responds to stuff and gets bored if you don't do anything! And omg today was such a cool day! Haha pps was sian. But then went to see Qianyu and Keelywee at Superstar auditions! =) So cool!

OMG. Apparently I was on the PPS powerpoint thing. And I din't get to see my own 5 seconds of fame! =( How upsetting! What was the photo! Someone tell me! MORE IMPORTANTLY, was it a nice photo? I don't want to be known by everyone in school by the PROM SMILE! =( gah.

OMG. This is cool too!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=GzHR0GhpKUw

Westlife's DADS sing! Omg.

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23:09

OMG Musicfest Musicfest Musicfest!! Haha my first Musicfest in 3 years. What a wonderful experience! Haha the queue (which I've never seen for any VJ concert before) and omg. The performances were mindblowing. Gosh la! So many people I know haha. Besides solo vocals. Omg the Korean drama-ish guy! It was so obvious he was going to win. Everyone loves an emo Korean guy with a soft voice and an emotional song. Haha! And then Keely and Qianyu! =) You go girls! Jia you for later at the auditions! Everyone was like aww when they hugged. Haha! Then dance with all the dance people I know haha. But the 5 indian guys were crazy la. Like beyond human. Woo! That was amazing. And the bands! Omg I din't know Debbie was that kind of person! Haha. And great drumming Matt! This is probably one of the best nights of the whole year and it was freaking fun. Omg.

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01:28

Thursday, April 12, 2007

"They integrated from the very point of origin. Her curves were continuous, and even though he was odd, he was a real number. The day their lines first intersected, they became an ordered pair. From then on it was a continuous function. They were both in their prime, so in next to no time they were horizontal and parallel. She was awed by the magnitude of his perpendicular line, and he was amazed by her conical projections. "Bisect my angle!" she postulated each time she reached her local maximum. He taught her the chain rule as she implicitly defined the amplitude of his simple harmonic motion. They underwent multiple rotations of their axes, until at last they reached the vertex, the critical point, their finite limit. After that they slept like logs. Later she found him taking a right-handed limit, that was a problem, because it was an improper form. He meanwhile had realized that she was irrational, not to mention square. She approached her ex, so they diverged."

OMG SO LAME. Haha it's called Math Romance. LOL! Haha another long day, another long night... MUSICFEST TMR! haha yay.

a moment in time.
23:27

OMG. People in NYC actually know Singapore.

http://www.overheardinnewyork.com/archives/009761.html

20-ish girl #1: My grandmother said chewing gum is illegal in Singapore.
20-ish girl #2: No way.
20-ish girl #1: Yeah, if they catch you they cane you! In public!
20-ish girl #2: That sucks.
20-ish girl #1: My grandmother says it's an acquired taste.

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00:15

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Just saw one UK photo and the memories came flooding back. Hmm. It seems like I've never really gotten over it. And seeing everyone else move on so quickly just makes me feel like I've been left behind in a place I don't really want to be but I'm stuck in it. Life is getting stressful. Rehearsals almost everyday, and still sorting out all the missing pieces. Next week mon ki reasoning essay due, tue ki history essay due and chem lect test, wed pwpi due, then rehearsal spam. And I failed the chem class test. Shit.

a moment in time.
23:48

I did the 2nd coolest thing I've done this year today! Haha took the Thaipan boss' van to Thaipan with Oedi people haha omg damn cool, hid in the back of the van and there was this security guard looking into the van but din't see us. Haha. It seems the coolest things I do involve hiding from security guards. Hmm.

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00:15

Monday, April 09, 2007

OMG. And to think I never thought VJC would encounter Engrish.

"We regret to inform you that due to overwhelming demand, your request for Music Fest 2007 tickets is unsuccessfully. Your request will be placed on our waiting list should the allocated tickets are not collected. Thank you for your interest.

THIS NOTIFICATION IS FINAL AND SUPERSEDES ANY PREVIOUSLY SENT EMAIL."

On a rather sad note, I din't get any Musicfest tix. Here starts the desperate race for musicfest tix!

a moment in time.
22:02

Sunday, April 08, 2007

I am a mere shadow

In the ripples of an ocean

Too small to carry

The weight of the world

But I've been livin' in reality

a moment in time.
23:56

What if the world
Was a little more perfect

SHPS gat! Haha pool and bk and arcading. This week was a sort of reunion week. Meeting people from my past and just catching up. =) It's nice haha.

I wonder if you remember me
You changed the way I look at my life
I've been seeing the world in a different sense
You changed my life

I've been missing you since the day I left
I've been seeing you smile at me in my dreams
I've been hearing your voice all over again
I've been sitting beside you just like we used to

I wonder if I made a mistake when I told you
Must have made a fool of myself
Don't you remember the words you said to me?
I wish we were still friends

Are we?
Have you forgotten me?
Have I become just another memory?
You said it wouldn't change

We had the world to ourselves
Just you and I
We had so much in common
Now it's all drifting away

I haven't been seeing you around
Somehow I thought I could forget you
But the memories keep coming back
Of the times we've had

And when you asked me that night,
Should I have said yes or no?
Somehow I regret the choices I made
And I guess all I really want to say:

I miss you. I do.

"Oh it's what you do to me"

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00:17

Saturday, April 07, 2007

Lonely hearts club.
Blasting the bass from 3 to 3.
All alone as everything moves on.

You Are an Afternoon Person

You can find energy any time of the day ... or night!
You prefer to be out and about when most other people are.
Very early mornings or very late nights aren't really your thing.
You're practically solar powered, and the afternoon is when do best.

Are You a Morning Person or Night Person?

You Belong in New York City

You're the energetic, ambitious type.
And only NYC is fast enough for you.
Maybe you'll set yourself up with a killer career
Or simply take in all the city has to offer.

What City Do You Belong In?

Your Psyche is Orange

You are a total hedonist. If it can bring you pleasure, you love it.
You love life, and your energy inspires others to find their own personal source of joy.
Creative and optimistic, you can also show great purpose and focus.

When you are too orange: you overindulge in every temptation - yet you are not satisfied

When you don't have enough orange: you can't find happiness anywhere, and your life seems empty

What Color Is Your Psyche?

a moment in time.
16:31

Dinner at Sushi Tei Paragon. And this is half the serving of Ikura I had! The cholesterol is IMBAR.

Phoenix Roll - Avocado, Unagi, Tiger Prawn

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01:46

Friday, April 06, 2007

"Promiscuous girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And it's you that I want

Promiscuous boy
You already know
That I’m all yours
What you waiting for?

Promiscuous girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need

Promiscuous boy
Let's get to the point
Cause we're on a roll
Are you ready?"

WOO. It’s been in my head all day! Haha and singing it. Watch this!

Syphilis Girl! http://youtube.com/watch?v=iMqMCc2IY6A

Haha and iRack! http://youtube.com/watch?v=AGHty_S0TU0

LOL!

Today was such an utterly cool day. Frisbee and lectures and then DHSKL gat! It was really nice to see people I haven’t seen in so long. Great to just talk crap and catch up. =) haha yay! Ok a busy sorting out drama day tomorrow! And catching up on all the stuff I’ve missed. My com’s really giving me problems and I think those guys screwed it up. I can’t stand slow coms and my coms about 0.80 its perceived previous speed and I just can’t stand it. I’m gonna need more ram. 1gig is NOT enough. Woo.

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01:39

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Girl, you know your eyes mesmerise me
I'm lost in your words
My breath stops at your smile
My heart stops when I hear your speak
How true can you be?

Got tagged by michelle this weird thing.

These are the rules: Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!

1) My last meal would be baked cheese and ice cream! Not together tho =

2) I am a right-angled neat freak! All my stuff has to be aligned at right angles!

3) I am obsessive about stuff with sentimental value – I keep all sorts of little mementos – even receipts!

4) I take photos of everything and anything! For artistic, sentimental, aesthetic and random value!

5) I have mood swings. I am either high or low.

6) I am INCREDIBLY random!

6 people:
EricNg
ChunHan
Nicole
AaronNg
Xtine
Yirui

=)

a moment in time.
23:14

WOOO. Behold, I have RETURNED. WOOOO! gosh it's really late. I changed my PI topic at midnight, and chionged. Argh I'm gonna be so stoned tomorrow. Night people. *is happy* but my dps and emotes are gone! =(

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01:26

Monday, April 02, 2007

I think the one thing that really gets to me is technofailure. (Besides emotional stuff la) ARGH. I'm the kind of person who expects his computer to be perfect, at the least effective with slight hitches that are negligible. And ESPECIALLY no crashing of MSN cos that's my social life outside school. (Yes, that is rather sad.) Maybe I've become too dependent on MSN/Internet/Technology. I was shocked when Joel, fellow Draco cheerleader, said he hadn't touched the computer for 3 months. That's fking crazy. I would like go mad. Hmm. Maybe it cos it involuntary. Like if I voluntarily gave up MSN I'd feel better cos I know I'll be able to go back. I just can't stand working between two computers. I'm gonna do my PI on the laptop tomorrow. Lol. ARGH I HAVEN'T DONE MY PI!!! I hate it when coms screw up. They ruin my week. Or weeks. For days and days I'll just whine, until I get used to the new system. Lol.

a moment in time.
23:48

Argh. My MSN hiatus is unbearable. I started working on WLM again right after I got home, and there's no point. Now waiting for MSN support to get back to me. I'm actually quite worried about my computer, especially if the 300 spent turns out to be a waste of money cos my computer seems to have been working faster and better and more effectively before all the changes (of course, before the burnout). And it feels like the guy cheated my money, sigh. I feel very lost and empty now. And I need to start doing work. Someone help me, please..

Ok, the MS tech guy just replied with an email of IMBAR length. Lol. Ok gonna try it out

Well, no, it din't work. Argh.

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22:30

Sunday, April 01, 2007

I restarted and now I can see my tagboard. But someone PLEASE help me with this. I give up.

And I haven't studied for chem test or started on PI. And drama nite prep is nearly in full speed now and I'm freaking stressed. ARGH. I just wish my com hadn't died on me. I just hope the 300 was worth it. Cos the motherboard is smaller than my previous one, and the new hdd is ide, not sata. ARGH.

a moment in time.
23:58

OMG. My computer is giving me all sorts of problems. I got it back at 4 and I've been updating it since then. It's 10plus now, and I can't get MSN to work and I can't view my tagboard. I had to go through a private proxy. ARGH. This sucks. I still have to get drama schedule done. Argh.

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22:11