Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Anyway. Hmm. Chinese haha lao shi keeps saying I talk too much. Ok yes I’ve been very distracted. Sigh. Hahahahaha. Oh physics! Haha yay I learnt everything I’ve been missing today. The basic technique is fleming’s right hand rule. Covers almost everything. Lol. and I learnt magnetism while doing the assignment. So I covered all the stuff liao. Haha I love physics. =) then hm low came in when we were supposed to have free period. Haha genetics starting to get boring. I rather do bio and society. Lol. and ETHICS. Omg. PHILOSOPHY!!!
And I have decided. I have found.
Life.
1. “Life is the search for meaning”
2. “The search for meaning is futile”
3. “Life is futile”
It’s as simple as that. =) woo! I wanna be a quotemaker! =) haha. so hmm.
Subjects I think are gonna save my sa:
Lang arts
Physics
Social Studies
Subjects I think are gonna kill me (but I won't let it kill me):
Chem
Subjects that shouldn’t be too bad:
Math
Chinese (NO MORE LOVE STORIES!!! I'LL TRY!)
Biology
Haha I better go study my chem. shid la my chem ca2 is gonna be pwned by my ca1. cannot let mrs koh down. LOL. then after school, stayed back for RM, the subjectif, then RM, then drama, then RM then went to pp w mich and ch to get stuff. Haha. then home. =)
Yay. quite a happy day. =)
a moment in time.
23:08
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Stop letting the guy who already has a girl flirt with you. It’s disgusting.
Heh. Well. Hmm. Long day. Hasn’t ended yet. I just started listening to magnetism in physics. The first time I din’t listen to any topic! Lol. then chi. Argh tmr got ting xie and zuo ye! Wah hate both. Anyway lol my mother is talking abt china ppl cheating her ytd and trying to zui my dad. I’m like oO whatever. Hahaha memories of lee hsien loong. Damn him la. Like we have to beg like dogs for foreign talent. Like we’re desperate for other people to come in and take over our lives. I’m not xenophobic. Everyone’s a friend. I’m just nationalistic. And that’s why I feel the govt is so screwed up in some ways. It’s like they’re desperate for foreigners to come and replace us. We’ve got the best and most hardworking labour force in the world. If you’re not gonna create jobs for locals, then we don’t need to vote you in. ok whatever.
Anyway, lang arts. LOL. I asked darkside if I could listen to music. Then he was like “ok, but only if it’s not Kenny g” then charissa was like omg “everything is Kenny g in his player!!” then the dark one smirked with darkness of doom. LOL. wah he insult westlife. Then he insult Kenny g. asking for death. Grr. Then bio sem. Heh. DOUBLE DARKSIDE. Quite fun la actually. Tho artificial. Like it was an act. Quite fake. Heh. chem was upsetting =( I failed the test. Sigh. Ah well. At least I dint bet w Justin cos I lost to him by 10. eh Justin u watch out. Next one. bio assignment. HAH. Watch out. Eh but overall I dunno leh. Thk I most prob lose liao. My sciences cannot catch up w him. Bah. U watch out. MASTER.
Then stayed back and did rm. Till 615. haven’t stayed back that long in a long time. Loll. Sigh. I think I’ll take tmr off (after rm and drama AND subjectif) heh. I wanna travel the world!
I’ll tell you the truth.
As your life flashes before your eyes.
a moment in time.
23:43
Monday, August 28, 2006
We got far. Real far. We started out from quite long ago. I didn’t really notice you then. And I guess it grew. I’m sorry we had to part. I made my choice, you made yours. But we also made the promise to never let go. I was just like you, you were just like me. Carefree, happy-go-lucky, the kids we never grew out of, oblivious to reality, in our world of rainbows and smiles and ice cream and forever friends. I guess I left you back in wonderland. Only that when I left, the bubble might have burst.
I still think of you. I don’t know what to say to you. when we speak, it’s a hello. So small a word, yet so loaded. So filled with hope that we’ll see each other again. So filled with the longing to go back there. I guess there’s no other way to put it. I did you wrong. I moved on too fast. You couldn’t catch up. I’m scared. I’m thinking all the pain I’m going through now is because of what I let go. Now someone else is letting go of me. And it’s like karma. Haha I still remember that time we were singing that song. Karma. Yeah.
It all started in the card you wrote me on Christmas. From that day on, everything changed. What you said set in. I couldn’t stop thinking about it. It just led to everything that’s happened in the past 2 years. From the very moment I stepped out of the gates. From the very moment I read that letter they sent me. From the very moment I called you and heard you crying, saying no.
I still keep it, you know. The card. It’s with all the other stuff dear to me.
I’m sorry. I guess. I guess although we’ve moved on so far apart, I just want you to know, I want to see you again. Just to tell you I still care. I do. I do.
a moment in time.
21:07
Sunday, August 27, 2006
a moment in time.
22:59
| You Are 54% Impulsive |
 You're quite impulsive, but you never are reckless. You qualify as a very spontaneous person, but you still know how to honor your commitments. And while responsibility doesn't come easy to you, having fun does! |
So I went to Victoria Hostel to do bio sem prep. And brought along with me 7 packs of chicken rice. Haha. actually I don’t really feel like blogging. heh. we finished up, then I left for home. now I can’t really breathe properly. But I’m getting better. Hopefully good enough to go to sch tmr. Its taking quite a lot of effort to breathe. Hm. and shid. There’s so much work. I’m really scared of SIP. I dunno if it can be finished in time. Argh. PAMELA!!!
a moment in time.
22:20
Saturday, August 26, 2006
went down to natlib for rm
lunch alone @ delifrance
went back to natlib to finish up corroboration
Fell sick. Argh.
Ok. Much work to do.
SIP***
Physics test
Chi ppt
Rm
Bio sem
a moment in time.
23:16
Friday, August 25, 2006
Sometimes goodbye,
though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye,
though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'cause a true love never dies
a moment in time.
22:47
| Your Learning Style: Expressive and Tenacious |
 You love to learn about new cultures, ideas, and theories. You Should Study: Anthropology Counseling Education Ethnic Studies Foreign Languages and Literature History Literature Music Philosophy Eastern Religion |
“Fine.” He stepped away, walking away, along the narrow corridor. And he sat down, with unease. A lot of things were on his mind. Some confusion, at least. Some things he didn’t understand. He decided to find out what she was up to. Damn, now he was getting paranoid. But he just had to see if she was telling the truth. He paced uncertainly. Step. Step. Step. Stepstepstepstepstep. Huff puff. Panting. St-st-st-st-st-step. Splash. Drip. Drip. Drip. Bang. NO. S-s-s-s-s-step. Why? Stop. Think. She had been using him. To get to him. Hims. All just hims to her. Male-things. It crawled out from the cocoon. Abreast with the sunlight. Sizzle. Sizzle. Too close. Why? They had been too close. Reality. Reality had come too close.
The emotion you let loose
Crawling through the bushes
Darkness clashes in your mind
Wielding a dagger
Delving away into the flesh
Carving away the pain
The air’s so thin
You can hardly breathe
Black light that pierces the conscience
The pain is gone
The pain is back
The pain is there
It’s throbbing there
On the ground
What sound does the heart make?
a moment in time.
21:24
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Omg. Lol the whole day we were listening to mr brown. MAI HUM. And that’s the way it should be. In the digital age. HAHAHA. I think it’s gonna overtake tur kwa. Lol. this is a classic. Along with no more birds. Woo. Haha yay running during pe was actually ok oO lol. haha bio seminar is quite ok. I like my grp. =) haha generally. Hmm then chem. omg I hate pracs! As in the reports! I just wanna mix chemicals. Bleh. Then sudoku was boring. Cos we sat there and stoned. Haha anyway great job michh and jared. Haha. and stayed back and studied chem. and fell asleep. Heh. and went to the airport agn! For dinner. Haha went ytd. Hah. Ok narrative’s over. I feel like I should mug more chem cos everyone else is. But… sigh. Don’t feel like it.
a moment in time.
22:31
Math rocks. As in just spatial math. it’s almost worth all the blardy algebra crap to come to this stage at the end of the year and do geom and loci. And it’s my best part of math. I can like visualize so damn easy I don’t even need to write down the explanations. I just don’t know why I can’t do other types of math. omg I love spatial math. the stuff fits perfectly tgt and you get this great feeling when you’re the first one to finish. Lol. then looked through the photos w naz and xx. HEH. we singled out 3 liao. The really GOOD ones. Heh.
Went for drama for a while to sort things out, then watched gattaca. Heh damn cool. So I sorta know the plot cos I wikipediaed it, but watching it is damn cool. the acting’s not that great, but the sets are amazing. And its that sameness that gets to you. Haha. woah.
a moment in time.
00:14
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Enough tears have fallen
Enough hearts have been broken
"I don't care if you think i'm crazy
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad
I've got no fear of losin' you
You can't lose what you never had
Now i'm gonna confess that i love you
I've been keepin' it inside feelin' i could die
Now if you turn away baby that's O.K.
At least we'll have a moment
Before you say goodbye"
You’re such a
Such a beautiful disaster
At the start of this year, something told me there’d be a great revival this year, a prophesy, if you would. In the Christian sense I mean. And I saw it with my own eyes. The fire conference, the global prayer, all the concerts and a huge revival in Love Singapore. It’s amazing. I thank you Lord.
Today was a really… thoughtfilled day. Yesterday, I spent 1.5 hours studying ontology online. Reading on simulated realities. And I figured, at the end, after going round and round, that all we can do is to believe by faith, in our existence. If we do not, what meaning does life hold then? Even if we are part of a simulation, the experiences we have gone through, the consciences and emotions we hold – this are the very essences of life itself, and in its entirety, is enough to justify the pain we go through each day, and whatever dilution of meaning we face.
The day was pretty smooth. A bit rougher during bio cos ms low was on mc, so I tried to get the class something to do so it wouldn’t be wasted. Haha. and I just started studying chem. taking quite long to understand. But I no longer fear failure. Hahaha so it’s like, treat the test as a game, and you’ll do better. It’s much less stressful, more fun, in fact. Haha. but I still don’t agree with equating our finals to o-levels. It just adds back the stress the ip was supposed to take away. Ah well. So now it seems we still have to go through what we thought we managed to escape.
I won't let my heart be broken once again.
Enough tears have fallen
Enough hearts have been broken
a moment in time.
22:29
Monday, August 21, 2006
And Your hand it comforts me,
From the ends of the earth to the depths of my heart
Let Your mercy and strength be seen.
Haha today was generally a good day. Rollercoaster. Hahahaha. Math test rocked. This is the first time I’ve finished all the questions on time. Actually. This is the first time I’ve finished more than half the questions. And lam went thru the qns and so far I’ve lost only 1 mark. Cos I didn’t double the probability. Argh. Careless! Ah well. Then lao shi made us do zuo ye and I was upset cos of that. Cos Justin lost the initial bet with me on the ying yong wen, then I let him get away with it by betting a second time. And the bet wasn’t even equal, and there was too high a chance for me to lose cos I din’t do the zhong he tian kong properly. ARGH OMG DUMB.
Ss was quite cool. Freakonomics. But din’t really listen. Haha omg love lifts us up where we belong. =) love makes us act like we are fools. Throw our lives away for one happy day. We could be heroes just for one day. You,you will be mean. And I’ll I’ll drink all the time. WE SHOULD BE LOVERS. We can’t do that. WE SHOULD BE LOVERS AND THAT’S A FACT. Though nth will keep us tgt, we could STILL TIME just for one day…. MOULIN ROUGE <3. haha. anyway physics! Omg I dint listen the whole lesson cos the magnet and iron filings were too fun to resist. And it’s like soft and when u touch it it’s hard. Omg sounds sick. As in the iron. When you move the magnet under it and the thing goes erect. LOL
Went to pp after sch. Was feeling… hmm… rollercoasterish. Hahaha. I read all my all notebooks ytd. And well everything’s changed. Hahahaha. Ah well. But we just have to live. Get on with it. You can tell everybody this is your song.
a moment in time.
22:14
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Girl I'm falling for you
And I pray you're falling too"
a moment in time.
22:16
| You Are 80% Psychic |
 You are so very psychic. But you already predicted that, didn't you? You have "the gift" - and you use it daily to connect with others. You're very tapped into the world around you... Just make sure to use your powers for good! |
Well. Today was pretty surreal. My phone’s charger died yesterday, so I’m out of communication by phone. And the car broke down on the way to church, so I took 10 with my mum home. and it’s like her first time in 7 years. And anyway, it occurred to me that if the Internet, computers, handphones, cars, aircons, calculator, airplanes, all disappeared, the developed world would collapse, and the only people who would survive as those in the developing countries now, who survive on nothing more than the essentials. Lol. I spent the day trying to study math, playing need for speed (yes, the addiction remains – I haven’t touched bf2 for damn long even tho the cd’s beside me) and had cereal prawns for dinner! Haha yay.
a moment in time.
22:02
Saturday, August 19, 2006
a moment in time.
23:50
Find your beauty.
"Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry
You'll find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings
So, impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cos who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete"
"And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and dawn
Were captive on the carousel of time
We cant return we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game"
| You Are 54% Grown Up, 46% Kid |
 You've grown up a good bit, but you still have a way to go before you're emotionally mature. You have the skills to control your emotions, you just have to use them. |
a moment in time.
22:02
Friday, August 18, 2006
yes. and it's a black bg again.
a moment in time.
23:59
| You've Changed 36% in 10 Years |
 Ah, the past! You may not remember it well - because you're still living in it. While you've changed some, you may want to update your wardrobe, music collection and circle of friends. |
9 years ago, every entry in my journal (a diary of reflections you let your teacher read) ended with "I am very happy" or "I am happy" for less exciting days. Even my most turbulent, angsty times ended with "I am happy". I have like 10 books or more. All the same way. I guess I was destined to chronicle my life, currently in this blog. lol.
Flashback -
February 24. 2006.
I learnt that there is such a thing as a popularity contest. And it might even be happening in our class. And that gifts might not even be sincere. (edited away - never thot i would self-censor) I never knew that sort of thing could happen. I’ve always seen politics from a distance, never thought it would be before my own eyes. I just don’t want to believe it. It’s your own FRIENDS. Does friendship count for nothing? Has the value of companionship been lost already?
It’s like why? We can all be nice! Right? A lot of friends have told me the world isn’t a pretty happy place. But if we all made an effort to be kinder and nicer to the people around us, the world can be a better place! You can’t expect others to be nicer first then follow just because they’re doing so – you must start with the man in the mirror. (Oh btw, there’s a FOUR-way tie in our class comm for 1 of the positions, but low is gonna choose leh. Lol. FOUR-way tie leh! So cool! Eh then how can she choose? =S that’s A BIT unfair right? =S )
Then over dinner, we talked about the killings because of the cartoons. I’m glad I live in a multiracial society where there’s racial harmony. I guess we’ve always taken it for granted. But when you see innocent lives being lost just because of a few drawings, you see how such a small thing can change the world (in a bad way). Rajaratnam always emphasised our multiracialism. He said that its not about what race we are, because we’re Singaporeans. (and my parents feel that he’s the true father of Sgp haha.) It’s not about being Singaporean Chinese, it’s about being Chinese Singaporean. Or just Singaporean. Yupp. And why do those extremists have to kill innocent people? Other people are insulted everyday, but they don’t go around killing people. Lives are the most important thing on this earth. Don’t you know how valuable a human life is? What if you yourself died? Step into their shoes.
And that’s why I felt a bit sad today. A lot of nice stuff happened today. But I learnt a lot of sad stuff about life. The world could be a better place, if we tried. I know I’m not perfect, we’re not perfect, the world isn’t perfect. I can be jealous (yes I get jealous easily), proud, impatient. But if we made an effort to be nicer, yes, the world would not be perfect, but it would be a nicer place.
Maybe that’s why people think I’m idealistic… but I still think it’s true.
Term 1 was the best time I ever had. Especially the last couple of weeks of term 1. It was awesome. Perfect. Just perfect. Everything went so well. High after high. And I was so… idealistic. Optimistic. I still am I guess. Just kind of more… realistic. I mean like, compare my posts in feb or mar to now. I just want to say sorry for not being a good friend to some people, and maybe, maybe for putting stuff that were not as important (like drama nite) above my friendships. I just didn’t give the time to you. And the consequences are for me to face. Ok I shouldn’t angst anymore. I’m gonna look at old stuff. And pack up all my stuff. Just put it all away. The memories hurt the most.
Anyway. Today, I lost my bet with nazri. Abt lang arts test. Either way I lose. And nazri too. So I lost the bet. And had to “confess” LOL. and most probably those words have been said so many times it’s lost any meaning. Hahaha. Sorry, I don’t believe in love anymore. Or rather, I just don’t believe in any hinting of love I might feel anymore. It’s all just infatuation, you taught me that, and you got me out of it. Hahaha. Lessons were really light today. After darkside, there was sudoku! HAHAHA omgosh fun. my first try was better than the second but ah well first time playing. It’s quite addictive actually. Great for like lazy Sundays or smth. Haha.
Photoshoots. Haha cool la. I want a better camera! The powershot has too much noise, esp at iso200-400. I want an ixus! Omgosh. haha. naz has kept telling me that I’m not worthy of a dslr. So fine. I’ll get an ixus! Pc fair end of aug. I need ram, and a cam. Heh. Then electives. Oh I think lit is actually quite cool. I wish I’d taken. And possibly raise my grades from the grave. Hahaha. Ah well. Too late. Choices made, consequences faced.
INV!GORATE!!! thanks so much to darho, jomaine, leon!! Haha and I thk the ct reps too – nic, subra (good to see ya.) hahaha it was fun la. I guess. The fourth and last day of invig. We lost. Haha I din’t score any this time. Guess I didn’t have that special touch today. If not I’d have scored 1st minute. LOLOLOL. And I suck at defence. Sorry guys. But anyway, good game to all. =)
a moment in time.
21:29
everyone's out to discourage you.
destroy your dreams, shatter your hopes.
insult you, criticise you.
the thing is, you're wrong.
it's not everyone.
the other thing is,
the person you care most for,
is everyone to you.
though you might give everything to everyone,
nothing's coming back.
what will you do?
fight back and ruin everything?
or sit back and shower in the rain of pain?
no one cares about you.
you're dirt.
you're just a tool for everyone else to go further, fly higher.
people use you. then they leave you.
they brush past you like you're unwanted.
because you are.
everyone is selfish.
you try not to be.
but, is that selfish in itself?
you're not gonna understand.
everything changes so fast.
and you're lost in confusion.
you thought you knew how things went.
you thought you knew what your friends were like.
but you were wrong.
you never knew.
and no one's your friend.
it's each man for himself.
you want it to stop.
slow down to a halt.
but it's going too fast and you can't rewind.
a moment in time.
00:41
Thursday, August 17, 2006
And show the world all the love in your heart
Then people gonna treat you better
You're gonna find, yes, you will
That you're beautiful as you feel"
- Beautiful - Carole King
Yet no matter how beautiful you are, people ain't gonna see that. You're gonna be hated. You're gonna be trampled on. You're not gonna see your dreams come true. You're gonna be torn. Your heart will be broken. You will be hurt. You aren't gonna receive any mercy from the world. The world hates you. Smile at the world. And the world gives you a good kick in the balls.
You ain't beautiful.
You just think you are.
a moment in time.
23:20
"A committee of the International Astronomical Union proposes a new draft definition of the term "planet" which would increase the solar system's total well above the current nine by including Ceres, Charon, 2003 UB313 and potentially many other trans-Neptunian objects "
- Wikipedia
"The world's astronomers, under the auspices of the International Astronomical Union (IAU), have concluded two years of work defining the difference between "planets" and the smaller "solar system bodies" such as comets and asteroids. If the definition is approved by the astronomers gathered 14-25 August 2006 at the IAU General Assembly in Prague, our Solar System will include 12 planets, with more to come: eight classical planets that dominate the system, three planets in a new and growing category of "plutons" - Pluto-like objects - and Ceres. Pluto remains a planet and is the prototype for the new category of "plutons."
- http://www.iau2006.org/mirror/www.iau.org/iau0601/iau0601_release.html
http://www.astronomy2006.com/
http://www.iau2006.org/mirror/www.iau.org/NEWS.55.0.html
a moment in time.
00:38
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
"My life has been a tapestry of rich and royal hue
An everlasting vision of the everchanging view
A wondrous woven magic in bits of blue and gold
A tapestry to feel and see, impossible to hold
Once amid the soft silver sadness in the sky
There came a man of fortune, a drifter passing by
He wore a torn and tattered cloth around his leathered hide
And a coat of many colors, yellow-green on either side
He moved with some uncertainty, as if he didn't know
Just what he was there for, or where he ought to go
Once he reached for something golden hanging from a tree
And his hand come down empty
Soon within my tapestry along the rutted road
He sat down on a river rock and turned into a toad
It seemed that he had fallen into someone's wicked spell
And I wept to see him suffer, though I didn't know him well
As I watched in sorrow, there suddenly appeared
A figure gray and ghostly beneath a flowing beard
In times of deepest darkness, I've seen him dressed in black
Now my tapestry's unraveling; he's come to take me back
He's come to take me back"
- Tapestry - Carole King
The days have become cold. We're just living because we do. Hoping to be void of emotion. Again and again in this meaningless cycle.
it would be so fine to see your face at my door.
HAHAHA my group had an inta-group bingo championships! first session today. and yes, we were listening to the lesson as well. HAHAHA super fun. hmm i dunno if i wanna take chem or econs next year. ah well. anyway hahaha hmm. i got back my toy train from drama yay. lol. haha i think my group could actually be even louder and crazier. all the groups i've been in have been crazy and loud ahahaha. and i love all the groups i've been in. =) esp this one! haha. and sorry if i dampen the mood sometimes hahaha. gosh i thk i have mood swings. oO. but ah well. hahaha.
and we try so hard to move on.
yet it comes back to haunt me day by day.
a moment in time.
23:21
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
It is you.
You will rise.
Face your destiny.
a moment in time.
22:11
Monday, August 14, 2006
I used to glance beyond the stars
Now I don't know where we are
Although I know we've drifted far"
Because pictures speak more than a thousand words..
"You are my hiding placeYou always fill my heart
With songs of deliverance
Whenever I am afraid
I will trust in You"
a moment in time.
22:47
Sunday, August 13, 2006
a moment in time.
23:45
So just what does your name mean huh?
A- You like to curse alot
B- You like people.
C- You're wild and crazy.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E- Damn good kisser.
F- People adore you.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You have a fine ass
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You are really silly.
L- you live to have fun.
M- one to have fun.
N- You are dead sexy.
O- You are one of the best in bed.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Fcukin Crazy
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- one of the best damn bf/gf ne one could ask for.
Z- Always ready
WOO. lol la.
a moment in time.
21:53
Just seems so far away
Every loving piece of mind
I just can't seem to hold
I never knew you meant
What you said that day
And it all seems so distant now
A past I can't remember
All I can do is hold back
And try to hold on
It's slipping away past my fingers
Hurt comes when you want something you can’t have.
Just shouldn’t reach out for the past.
When you remember.
It's just so perfect.
And everything seems so right.
You realise it’s gone.
And you can’t have it back.
Those pangs come back to you.
And it hurts.
"i'm always telling him: i will reject you."
You want to tell the truth.
You want to say how much it hurts.
But there's no one to listen.
"i'm always telling him: i will reject you."
It just echoes away into the night.
a moment in time.
17:41
The ground beneath your feet fall to pieces
You fall into the darkness they call abyss
There’s no going back
Haha I have discovered a new talent that I never knew I have in the past week. I have created 3 loveydovey songs better than any BSB, Westlife, Nsync songs. What kind of talent is that?! Omgosh. I must have some hidden musical talent (that is rather unfounded). I wish I learnt music! So I’d be able to put the tune into legible form. Sigh. But the lyrics! Hahaha. I must have some amazing talent. LOL.
I just can't let you go//I still love you so//…//You are my heart, my soul//You are my everything
a moment in time.
16:09
http://sg.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/markhsx/my_photos
flickr updated
http://www.flickr.com/photos/markhsx
enjoy.
how will you deal with these emotions?
how will i deal with your emotions?
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01:15
The music’s loud. But not uncomfortable (cos you get used to the volume) but it’s so loud your body shakes with the rhythm and your jeans are vibrating. (nvm.) oh but the music was great. GREAT! Omgosh. Like simple direct lyrics with a strong message. And great great great talent. Each band member was introed. Started off with the bass and he played a solo. Then guitar. Then DRUMS. Omgosh. Drums were AWESOME. He was playing his solo, then one stick broke, and he played the rest of the solo with one stick and drank water! LOL. haha the concert was totally cool. Woo. Thanks to charissa for the invite. =)
"Praise Him, jump jump
Come on praise Him, jump jump
Praise Him, jump jump
Somebody get your praise on!!!"
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00:58
Saturday, August 12, 2006
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16:25
You can't get out.
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00:41
I am in severe lack of blogthings.
Anyway yeah. so went to cine! Hahaha watched potc2! =) with lis, yr, yn. hahahahahahahaha funnn. And funny! And crazy. Hahaha and quite touching. And SOMEBODY made us stay to watch the … coda. Omgosh everyone should stay and watch it! It’s like the best part of the movie! Ahaha. then kino. And we stayed there for like super long. oO oh gosh I love this design book they’ve got. Hahah. With all the cool cute crazy designs! Like umm hmm forgot. but cool like. I think it’s called pure design. Mmm. Nice! Haha then took the mrt home w them. Yay! happy day =)
When I came back
She wasn’t there.
Just a note left on the stairs.
“if you wanna talk, you can call.”
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00:09
Thursday, August 10, 2006
my island home
Published by markhsx 4 minutes ago in Our Correct Views on Everything, Parallel Universe
Tags: markhsx, national day, singapore.
Well, of course, we all know this post is late, because we know what this post is about. A day late, actually. So that’s not too bad. Flashback to 8 August 2006. Suddenly we were all standing in the square, lined up, watching the flag being brought in, solemnly, raised up, and we joined together in (half-hearted? Or just really quiet) singing the national anthem. It’s a standard procedure in all schools. KC across the canal was lagging behind us by a minute. We were trying not to laugh as their national anthem started (much louder than ours) just as “we had no rights, we had no say, and we longed to be free one day” was being said, as it is said every year.
Here I’m about to go all cynical about the government. Who tries to tell us each year during National Day that Singapore is our home, this is where we belong. Of course, we know that. =) most of us do, anyway. So they don’t need to tell us. Alright, I love Singapore. Yeah there’s the dysfunctional side. But still, the food, the places, the people, the funny stuff we do – that’s what Uniquely Singapore should be. Where else can you find such a rojak! And where everything is within 20 minutes. With so much in so small a place.
That’s why even though there’s such much in Singapore that irks me, I still love this place. That’s why I love Singapore. And that’s why I know this is where I belong. I wouldn’t feel home in any other place
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23:29
haha go do my NOHARI and JOHARI !!!
my yahoo photo albums have been updated with day3 of the uk trip. yes i know i'm wols.
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17:26
WOAH.
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15:02
Well met pam at mcd at 10. did SIP till 2, then went home and slept after watching episode 3 of a history of Singapore. Haha quite a good show. and I think it’ll help in my SIP. Cos they focus a lot on sgp girl. Got up, watched NDP. Hahaha yay apaches. Then talked and talked till now. Ah well. Narrative.
NEEEEED FOR SPEEEED
love the 2nd leap
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01:39
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Click_(film)
Gosh we felt like crying at the part where he daoed and shooed his father, then his father was like “I love you son” and when he got to revisit the last time he saw his father, he kept replaying that part. Gosh.
We walked around paragon. Then went to bubble tea w naz. Then home. argh so tired.
NEED FOR SPEED PWNS MEEEEE.
My custom ride.
WESTLIFE FACE TO FACE ASIAN TOUR IS COMINGGGG!!! September!
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00:53
Monday, August 07, 2006
Oh I love geometry! LOVE LOVE LOVE!! It’s the best part of math. OHH I beat our top Chinese student. AHAHA. Ok. Then ss test was crap la stupid shid. So confusing with all the equations. I’m really not confident of this one. ah well. Went to lib after school. Mpcl then tamplib. Haha.
Love da shid!
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22:46
Sunday, August 06, 2006
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22:56
Homesick was good. Like the best play I’ve seen so far. It’s like they weave so many storylines together into a megaplot which still makes sense and end with one hell of an ending, and still manage to add some witty bits about Singapore, be it anti-government, anti-Singapore, and all those cynical and skeptical stuff about Singaporean society. We are a Singapore without Singaporeans. Hua yu cool is racist. All these kinda stuff you never really notice, or maybe you did, but just never seen expressed so well. Hahahahah cool.
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01:06
Saturday, August 05, 2006
| Your True Birth Month Is April |
 Hasty Moving Consoling Emotional Aggressive Diplomatic Revengeful Adventurous Good memory Loves attention Strong mentality Loving and caring Brave and fearless Active and dynamic Suave and generous Easily get too jealous Decisive but tends to regret Motivates oneself and the others Attractive and affectionate to oneself Friendly and solves people's problems Prone to sickness usually of the head and chest |
| Your True Birth Month Is June |
 Fussy Abiding Friendly Stubborn Talkative Sensitive Executive Hesitating Easily hurt Active mind Easily bored Daydreamer Loves to joke Tends to delay Temperamental Brand conscious Loves to dress up Having lots of ideas Good debating skills Funny and humorous Thinks far with vision Prone to getting colds Polite and soft-spoken Able to show character Seldom show emotions Knows how to make friends Easily influenced by kindness Takes time to recover when hurt Choosy and always wants the best Those who love me are enemies; Those who hate me are friends |
Gosh. So true.
And so bored too. Argh I haven’t started on work. I must be crazy la.
| You Should Rule Mercury |
 Close to sun, Mercury has very long days - and is rarely visible to the rest of the solar system. You are perfect to rule Mercury, because you live for the present - and can truly enjoy a day that goes on forever. Like Mercury, you are quick and elusive. Your wit is outstanding, and you can win any verbal sparring match. Some people see you as superficial, but in truth, you just play many roles and have many interests. A great manipulator, you usually get what you want from people. And they're happy to give it to you. |
Shid la. ARGH need to do work. I have a half hour only tho. Have to go to compassheights to prep for the ppp later. Then homesick. Argh.
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13:54
Friday, August 04, 2006
Being ignorant, unaware, childish, naïve, idealistic
Yet optimistic, carefree, happy-go-lucky, happy?
Or
Being wise, knowledgeable, mature, serious, realistic
Yet pessimistic, jaded, cynical, skeptical, miserable?
Omgosh I reached 400kb/s!!! woo. WOO. That beats my record on the sch com.
It’s wanting what you’ve got.
Sometimes you feel like giving up. But you know you must be strong. Because giving up is not an option anymore. You’ll be torn apart, frustrated, confused, but driven by the hope that there’s gonna be brighter days. That's where I am right now.
"Because of you, I am afraid"
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21:49
Thursday, August 03, 2006
All of you brought me back to my senses. Thank you. And for showing me how wrong I was, and that it was all my fault. And for showing me that what you said was right. So, sorry. I'm sorry for angsting for so long. Because it never got to me that there's so many people that are there for me always, and I really couldn't ask for more. Because even though none of you are like perfect or anything (cos no one is), I have super great friends. And even though it still hurts now and most prob you're still gonna hurt me sometimes, I promise you I'll get up. And rise again for you.
=)
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23:06
happy birthday amanda! =)
and in an hour
happy birthday shauna! =)
(even though i don't thk u come here haha)
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23:01
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22:57
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21:59
The platform seminar was great. Haha I wanna watch chicken rice war and money no enough! And he shares a lot of our cynical, skeptical views on the government. Heh. They’re really contradictory. And he explained to us why they were. And I kinda pity those civil servants now. Really servants la. Ah well.
Oh you can call me crazy.
But you. You are loco.
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21:39
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
fuck you la mark. don't go around pretending to be sorry this sorry that.
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23:02
All the pain would go away
I’d be unshackled from the sorrow
If I erased your memory
Do you think I care if you hurt more
Maybe this is the only way
Happy things today =)
1) Physics prac! Haha quite fun! Especially since I got PERFECT results. Really really perfect. Woo. I wonder if I can get full marks. But the questions were like oO
2) Lu xun! HAHAHA. Lao shi liked it. Even though the translation (courtesy of samuel’s babelfishing skilz) was… funny. Hahaha. Bu xiang xin zhong yi. Wth la. Ohh and lao shi liked the pictures. Woo. Pictures =)
3) Math! YAY. quiz! FINALLY PASSED. And got full marks! =) I calculated my average. It’s 3.75 now. But still better than nth. And I love circle geometry because this is the one topic I’m really confident of and I have absolutely no problem with it so far. And it’s spatial math! Which is the part of math I love most. =)
4) SS. Finally grasping econs. Ah well I should start mugging for the test. Grr.
5) Careers fair! It totally changed my view of my career path. The RSAF guy told me I can take ANY degree I want. It’s the degree/diploma skills they want. I might even take arts now. But of cos, I want to take physics. My perfect combi would be Physics, Geography, History, Literature. And KI. But sadly, impossible. Ah well. I still got time to think. And I’m no longer taking aeronautics. But I might stick with my original combi choice.
6) Flick dinner! We are DEFINITELY the only flick that has gone out for so long. Haha and it’s great. They’re all nice people =) and our senior just got back from penn, usa. Cool la. Ate at fish and co! yum. =) and we talked a lot. They kinda convinced me that econs might actually be something I want to take. Hmmm. But I know the subject I’m DEFINITELY taking is KI. And we had scoopz after that! 2 x 5 scoops in waffle cones! =) whee. Oh and apparently my post “speak” on subjectif has become quite famous. Haha. and my senior was like isn’t subjectif afraid of people posting anti-govt stuff? He din’t know I was the one lol.
7) xtine, thanks for always making my day. See above. Hope you’re feeling better
The other things:
oO.
how funny, that just one thing can ruin everything else.
How ironic.
That those are the very words I would say to you.
I wish someone would tell me.
I wish someone would explain it all to me.
I wish someone would comfort me.
I wish someone would understand.
I wish someone would be there to pick up all the broken pieces.
There’s just one problem.
I wish that someone were you.
You're gonna be the one hurting this time
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14:58
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
but what if the only feeling you get is pain?
what hurts me most of all is to know
that if my heart should shatter watching you
you wouldn't mend it
and no one else could
oh! thanks lis for this super nice song haha
this one's to you.
"If your spirit's broken and you can't bear the pain
I will help you put the pieces back
A little more each day
And if your heart is locked and you can't find the key
Lay your head upon my shoulder
I'll set you free
I'll be your security"
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23:42
A yes? Yes.
Gosh. Felt unwell the whole day. My throat still hurts. Ahh. Hm. Chinese was quite.. screwed. I thk this is the hardest test we’ve had. Bleh I din’t complete the compre sigh.
But things are never the way they seem
Does doing your best count?
Things change
Then I took 2 panadols. Yay. so I felt drowsy all day. From lang arts to bio to chem. argh stupid bio test. I really din’t know how to do. I couldn’t even study la. So stoned. When I looked at the words they just… dissolved. I could only remember the diagrams. I hope I passed. Then I went home. damn tired la. Shid tmr still got ying yong wen letter thing test. Argh. I’ll go sleep.
I shouldn’t have said it
Happy birthday yijin! =)
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